I actually may never go anywhere again for the rest of my life.

I don't even know if I've got 12 weeks to live.

So up until Corona virus weird, it's like ahead.

I've got plans.

No big plans.

Um, little ones.

We'll have to see.

Hello.

My name's Lynne.

I live in Birmingham and I have terminal cancer.

Even I get Corona virus.

I'm going to poach unnecessarily, going to put other people at risk.

If I get Corona virus, I won't be able to get my Children away from me.

I'll probably be admitted to hospital, and I'll be taking a resource away that someone else could quite probably make better use.

So in terms of Molly daily life, my, that's no limited to what I can do inside my own four walls.

Under some extent, that means that I actually may never go anywhere again for the rest of my life, because if I have to self isolate, I'm gonna have to stay here.

I don't even know if I've got 12 weeks to live.

I was told to expect a life expectancy of around 18 months to two years were actually coming up to the 18 months time now, So I guessing I have very little time to live.

That was, um, mostly, quite difficult to hear.

But I have my Children with me and they have sported May supported May through this throughout.

They're very strong Children on They continue to support me.

So up until the Corona virus were exactly head, I've got plans.

No big plans, little ones such as one that are waas able to see through.

And that was I had a a short, a long weekend trip with my Children to Somerset.

And that was lovely.

Following that I had plans to go away somewhere with my two sisters again.

Just a long weekend somewhere in the UK maybe an Airbnb.

Nothing extravagant, but just the opportunity to go out and bite and spend some quality time with them.

But of course, now all that has had to come to a sticky end.

Um, after all my Children to stay away this week, I did see the home of this day in spite of the advice.

Although I'm led to believe that the government are seeing cases of people with terminal illness slightly differently.

But again I don't want to expose other people.

I don't wanna be completely selfish and expose of the people.

On the other hand, I know my Children want to see me.

That's completely understandable.

I want to see them, too.

So not being able to go out obviously has curtailed completely everything that I might have been doing.

Even just a trip to the shops toe.

Have a wander round and see what's so it is tempting to say Blow it, I'm going on it anyway something's gonna get me.

Why should I care?

But I should care because of other people.

So do you have to try and be responsible?

I've made a decision on how to talk to myself and said, OK, don't view this as the next 12 weeks that you can't 112 weeks all in one go what you must do he sees in terms of the next two or three days on, because I like to do arty, crafty things.

I'm working on something the moment, So Okay, I wanna call the decree published pictures are making just now on that.

Entertain me another two or three days, probably on and then I'll look att some other kind of activity that will keep me occupied for another two or 33 or four days.

And if I try and break it up into those kind of chunks, I'll be able to manage better, and I will manage better.

But this latest news to say that we're in lock down has quite honestly kicked our confidence.

The thing I'm working on at the moment isn't a Cooper's picture.

You cut out little bits of it and stick them on using silicone, which allows them to form a three day image.

It's very fiddly, very time consuming, but it does keep your mind up time, and I found that I really enjoy what, Andi, It's something that I can get lost in on even nowadays.

Even now, under the current circumstances, it's something I can still do.

Some months ago, my GP referred me to the local Marie Curie nurses, and they're helping.

Support has being fabulous.

Before the Corona virus, we also my Children.

I also visited the local hospice because that's where I decided I'd like my final days if that's at all possible on it is a magnificent resource.

It's very calm and quiet and peaceful.

But this still life and it's a lovely place.

That is where I would like if I can.

Two in Monday's again Corona virus might put paid to all of that, and maybe that won't be possible.

We'll have to see.

It is difficult not to feel cross when I see that people are flaunting the rules, going on to the body about their normal everyday business instead of absolving the advice was being given.

It's difficult not to be angry, but I'm trying not to, because to make that's a waste of emotional energy I have enough to worry about.

It is, I think, one of the lessons we should learn from the Corona virus situation, but throughout life in general is to be calling to each other to think about each other, to consider other people, do what we can to help whenever we can.

I found since I had cancer, I can answer is But I found the kindness of strangers.

People who will reach out to you and help you or offer your support don't do that just because they can, not for any other reason, and I think that's wonderful.

My Children are fantastic and I got to absolutely wonderful sisters, in addition to which I go a large extended family and lots of really good friends.

And without them, I don't think I would have thought this fall.

It's a bit like happy to pick and mix.

If I'm having about Day one respect, I know I can talk to a person, but if there's something else bothering me in another respect might talk to a person big and then my pick and mix and I loved more.