I actually did that first time, hah!

I'm one-armed and I still did it!

Welcome! If you're new to the channel, hi, I'm Jessica Kellgren-Fozard. I know, it's

a tricky surname to pronounce. I make videos about life with a chronic illness and disabilities

but sometimes... I don't.

Like today's video! (which is sponsored by Surfshark)

Today we're going to be studiously ignoring the rising sense of panic we may or may not

be feeling-

- and if you're feeling like you're 'totally over' this entire thing and just don't

care enough to panic any more because you've reached the end of your emotional bandwidth

then that's a completely valid feeling too.

I haven't left my house in over a month with the exception of some fun car journeys

around the neighbourhood and… back to my house. So I thought I'd throw together a

list of things that I've been enjoying and in the comments you can share your own lists

and we'll help each other out by spreading some joy

[Disney princess sigh]

- wow, sometimes I'm like a parody of myself

Moving swiftly on and in no real order despite the fact that I've put them in numerical

descending order:

10. Having my best friend around to hang out with every day! I'm a very fortunate human

in that I'm married to my BFF and she lives with me so we get to have fun together every

single day and don't ever have to be in different rooms or more than a meter apart

because she used to go to work and that sucked because we don't really like being away

from each other for more than five minutes and yes that is the most lesbian thing ever.

- but did I mention she's really cool…?

So number 10 is just 'codependency' and I'm okay with that.

9. Making IGTV videos.

- Who knew?!

I completely poo-poo-ed IGTV when it first came out and there are still many things I

find annoying about it (it still doesn't have integrated captions… why?) but since

lockdown started I've found it much easier to work up the creative juices to make short

form, fun, cute little videos on IGTV

- if you're not already following me on Instagram my handle is @jessicaoutofthecloset

I think it's partly because I feel more pressure when it comes to long form video

content like this. I want to talk about the current situation but at the same time I don't,

I just want to carry on as normal, but then wouldn't it be weird to carry on as normal

and not reference anything…? Like the fact that I'm wearing a sling?

I dislocated my shoulder a lot in the last week.

And at the same time, there is just so much going on in my head right now, it's hard

to be creative and have the bandwidth to make things. But also this is my job so I can't

tell my boss that I want to miss one of my twice weekly uploads, even though my boss

is me, but also you, but at the same time creating things makes me happy and gives a

structure to my week.

So making cute IGTVs sparks my creativity for longer things like this, which is pretty

great when you think about it!

8. Watermelon Gloop. I am… not a super make-up obsessed person. I think we all know by now

that my grasp of skincare routines is slim. And I've seen lots of IGTV make up videos

that feature gloop in pipettes and never once wanted to have my own but then Becca Cosmetics

sent me this glow nectar and I am in love.

- Not just because it's sparkly gloop. I swear I do actually have more nuance than

a magpie.

It's really lightweight, it smells delicious and my skin loves it.

Also it means I get to say the word 'gloop' over and over, which is excellent.

Gloop!

See...

7. Grey's Anatomy. Have I mentioned Grey's Anatomy enough in recent videos? Yes? Well

that's okay then because I'm going to talk about Private Practice. Private Practice

is a spin off from Grey's Anatomy featuring Addison Montgomery,

formerly Addison Montgomery-Shepherd,

who was a pretty kick ass neonatal surgeon on Grey's Anatomy but then got her own show

Private Practice, where she was also a kick ass neonatal surgeon. That's the kind of

thing they say on the show:

'kick ass', because they are American.

She's one of my favourite characters AND apparently there are a lot of character crossovers

so it's really important that I watch all of Private Practice so it can feed into my

Grey's Anatomy addiction. BUT unfortunately Private Practice ended in 2013 which means

it's pretty difficult to find online…

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6. This Tree. It's a really cool tree. We haven't lived in the new house for 12 months

yet so it's lovely to see the garden going through all of the seasons. Plus the garden

is really important to us when we're on lockdown and our house looks like this

The end of the garden means a lot to us right now and this tree in particular is very special.

I've always wanted to own a tree, particularly one that's older than I am, and this one

is a beauty. I loved sitting in its shade last summer and watching the leaves go brown

in autumn. I waited all winter for it to come back to life and this spring I've learned

that it has blossoms in this funny yellow-y colour.

I would like to put a circular bench under the tree and turn the space behind it into

a special area for my roses.

The garden is our next project!

Obviously.

Once everything is out of it.

5. This cape is finally getting an outing. My good friend Jenny gave me this vintage

nurse's cape because she knew I would give it love and I've been waiting for just the

right time to use it. And now it has been given a chance to go to work as you saw in

my Coronavirus Myth Busting video! Congratulations cape, you've made it.

4. Besame highlighter. I'm not normally a highlighter person. I may be such a 'not

highlighter person' that you can't see the highlighter I've put on my face

It's not a lot of highlighter okay but is there, just believe it;s there

Can you see it? Can you see it?

Can you see it?!

It's there, ok.

Highlighter scares me a little and so I only put a tiny bit on.

But I've decided I like highlighter

now and I like this one the best. This little beauty is from Besame's limited edition

Mermaid Lagoon collection. They make really amazing ranges based on vintage Disney properties

like the Sleeping Beauty palette I showed you in December but this is one of my absolute

favorites.

It's so cute!

3. Having a really good excuse to order takeaway. I get weird about food… and it's cost

sometimes. It's- it's a thing.

I will waste my time working out which box of apples

is 0.003p cheaper and then go for that one even though I actually like the other one

better.

But hey, there's a massive global drama going on and I have much bigger things to

worry about so apparently I'm just really appreciating an excuse to put this one hang

up on hold! [relieved sigh]

Also this is what my kitchen looks like right now and getting groceries is a little eh AHH

But definitely better than before, thank you to everyone who helped us with solutions) so

I really don't have the space to be choosy about where my food is coming from or panic

too much about the cost. I can just focus on looking after myself and if I'm too stressed

about potentially getting ill to cook and my wife is too stressed about me potentially

getting ill to cook then yay there are many restaurants currently delivering.

Self-care is important.

- But a tiny bit of me deep inside wants to yell 'First World Problems!' and then

run away…

It's just a tiny bit though so… progress?

Please order often from your local Chinese owned businesses because they are not doing

so well right now. Thanks.

2. People respect our healthcare professionals more. As someone whose continued existence

is very much thanks to the National Health Service and comes from a medical family and

is married to an NHS worker, I have a deep respect for those in the medical field especially

at times like these. We often hear politicians talking about cuts to the NHS like it's

just something tiny and insignificant and we have to get over it

but it's a vital part of the UK and we're

very lucky to have it.

If there is one sure good thing to come out of the coronavirus it's a renewed appreciation

for healthcare professionals and those who support them.

As such, on the 30th April I'm going to be taking part in a huge fundraising livestream

with many other YouTubers to raise money for the NHS. It will be available to everyone

for free on the YouTube Originals channel. There will be lots of challenges, performances

and surprises from 4 until 8pm!

I'll keep you updated on Twitter but make sure you subscribe to the YouTube Originals

channel and turn on notification so you don't miss it.

1. Walter and Tilly. Thank you to my dogs for doubling the number of souls living in

my house right now and being a great source of inspiration and… comic relief. Mainly

that. Sometimes I'll just be standing there brushing my teeth, and I turn around to see

Walter (who moves completely silently) standing there glaring at me from the dark like a furry

waxwork Dobbie the Houseelf. And then I scream in surprise! But then I laugh so…

- I guess that's more of a horror movie than a comedy.

But they are also really, really cute. So please enjoy a montage of my dogs…

[happy jazz music]

Thank you so much for watching this video, even if it was essentially a glorified favourites

video. I hope you've really enjoyed it. I release new videos on Tuesdays and Fridays

so I'll see you in my next one.