S: Good morning, my love.

S:早上好，我的愛。

M: So guys

男：所以，夥計們

M: Had a real rough night last night. Did not sleep well at all. Just had a lot of body pain

M：昨天晚上真的很難受。一點也沒睡好。只是身體很痛

and... I told Simon today that I really want to make this video because

還有...我今天告訴西蒙，我真的很想做這個視頻，因為...

I keep telling you guys about building a ladder, and about the importance of how it's little steps.

我一直在跟你們說搭梯子的事，說它的小步驟的重要性。

It's not necessarily like huge epic trips to Hawaii.

它不一定像巨大的史詩般的夏威夷之旅。

And you've only seen me in my videos bei positive and happy.

而你只在我的視頻中看到過我積極快樂的樣子。

So I want to show you guys how I get through a really hard day and how I build that ladder.

所以我想告訴你們，我是如何度過非常艱難的一天，以及我是如何建立那個梯子的。

Just so that you guys can look at this video and go:

只是為了讓你們能看著這個視頻走。

"I know those days," and like, "okay, I can follow some of those steps." Or

"我知道那些日子，"並喜歡，"好吧，我可以按照一些步驟。"或者

people who don't know what you're going through; you can show them what it's like to build a ladder. So

不知道你經歷了什麼的人；你可以讓他們知道搭梯子是什麼樣子。所以

I'm starting my ladder

我開始了我的階梯

to build myself out because I'm feeling so down and depressed, and my body is killing me that I just wanted

建立自己的出來，因為我覺得這麼下來，鬱悶， 我的身體殺了我，我只是想。

to stay at home in bed all day and not leave the house, but

整天呆在家裡躺在床上，不出門，但。

I'm starting my first step: I'm getting out of bed, and that is a really big base ladder step.

我開始了我的第一步。我要下床了，這是一個非常大的基礎階梯步驟。

Then I'm gonna go pick out some colorful clothing,

那我就去挑選一些彩色的衣服。

something that makes me feel happy to wear, and something that I think people

一些讓我覺得很高興穿的東西，和一些我認為人

looking at me on the street might smile if they see.

在街上看著我，如果他們看到，可能會笑。

And then we'll see where we're going from there.

然後我們再看看我們要去哪裡。

Two very important rungs on the ladders, guys.

兩個非常重要的階梯，夥計們。

M: Thanks for getting through this with me, ducky. S: I'm always there for you, girl.

M：謝謝你陪我度過難關，小鴨子。S：我永遠支持你，姑娘。

M: Alright, let's go.

男：好了，我們走吧。

S: Okay.

S：好的。

M: Okay.

M：好的。

M: -sniffs- My tears steamed up my glasses, and I couldn't see where I'm going.

男：--嗅--我的眼淚蒸騰了我的眼鏡，我看不清自己要去哪裡。

M: I'm down! S: You did it, girl!

M：我下來了!S：你做到了，姑娘!

M: Ladder!

男：梯子!

S: I love you, mum!

S：我愛你，媽媽!

M: He's the worst possible therapy dog, because he smells so bad.

M：它是最糟糕的治療犬，因為它的氣味太難聞了。

M: I'm sure most therapy dogs like smell good, but Spudgy just is like

M：我相信大多數治療犬都喜歡聞到好聞的味道，但Spudgy就是喜歡。

You're just like moving your mouth away from him when he tries to rub his slimey face on you.

當他想把他那張黏糊糊的臉蹭到你身上的時候，你就像把嘴從他身上挪開。

M: Thanks, buddy; it does make me feel better. I love you.

男：謝謝你，哥們兒，這確實讓我感覺好多了。我愛你。

M: This is my pig hat,

男：這是我的豬帽子。

and my pig hat I use to get extra strength when I'm having a real hard time

還有我的豬頭帽，當我很難受的時候，我會用它來獲得額外的力量。

So when I've acknowledged that I'm having a hard day,

所以當我承認我今天過得很辛苦的時候。

Simon puts the pig hat on me, and it gives me more power because the pig hat is filled with the power of the pig.

西蒙給我戴上了豬的帽子，它給了我更多的力量，因為豬的帽子裡充滿了豬的力量。

M: Kogi does not like the pig hat.

男：小吉不喜歡豬帽子。

S: Why do you have two pigs, by the way?

S:為什麼你有兩頭豬，順便說一下？

M: They're different. This is a pig, and this is a pig /hat/.

M：它們是不同的。這是一隻豬，這是一隻豬/帽子/。

S: Question: Why do you have three pigs?

S:問題：你為什麼要養三頭豬？

M: [in Meemer's voice] What the-?

M：[用Meemer的聲音]什麼--？

M: Well, we were gonna film and open

M：好吧，我們要去拍攝和打開

the fan mail. I can't even -- S: live stream. -- a live stream today, but I'm feeling a bit too down.

粉絲郵件。我甚至都不能...-- 今天的直播，但我感覺有點太沮喪了。

Uh, my original plan for when I wake up feeling miserable is usually lying in bed and not doing anything all day.

呃，我原來的計劃是，當我醒來感覺很痛苦的時候，通常是躺在床上，一整天什麼都不做。

I usually just like lie on the couch all day and watch Netflix and literally chill, because I put ice packs on my body. Get it?

我通常只是喜歡躺在沙發上一整天，看Netflix和字面上的寒意，因為我把冰袋在我的身體。明白了嗎？

M: Chronic pain joke~ S: Netflix and chillll - what what? M: Netflix and chill~

M：慢性疼痛的笑話~ S：Netflix和chillll--什麼什麼？M: Netflix and chill~

M: Today, I'm gonna push myself. I have

男：今天，我要逼迫自己。我有

serious shoulder pain. My shoulder's been dislocated for how long ago, ducky?

肩部嚴重疼痛我的肩膀脫臼有多久了，小鴨子？

S: Probably like three weeks. M: Three weeks. I can't get it back in. I'm seeing physiotherapists; it's not working.

S:大概三週吧.M：三個星期。我不能讓它回來。我在看物理治療師，它沒有工作。

My elbow hurts; my knees are shooting.

我的手肘很痛，我的膝蓋在射。

Everything is just in so much pain, and

一切都是那麼的痛苦，而且

When you're in pain, it mentally affects your mind as well and so it's real easy just to stay at home,

當你痛苦的時候，精神上也會影響到你的心態，所以真的很容易就呆在家裡。

but it doesn't make you feel better, and I think we can all agree to that.

但它不會讓你感覺更好， 我想我們都可以同意這一點。

Whether you're depressed or you have chronic pain or whatever you're going through, staying at home does not

無論你是抑鬱症還是慢性疼痛，或者你正在經歷的任何事情，呆在家裡並不。

necessarily make you feel better. It's good sometimes, because you need to rest your body.

一定會讓你感覺更好。有時候是好事，因為你需要休息身體。

But in this case, for my mental well-being, I'm gonna try real hard to get out of the house.

但在這種情況下，為了我的心理健康，我要努力走出家門。

To add a different rung to my ladder that helps me pull myself out of this pit.

在我的梯子上加一個不同的階梯，幫助我把自己從這個坑裡拉出來。

M: Hey, never underestimate the importance of music.

男：嘿，千萬不要低估音樂的重要性。

I've been enjoying what Simon calls "shitty George Michael." You don't know anything about music!

我一直在享受西蒙所說的 "低劣的喬治-邁克爾"你對音樂一竅不通！

This is, ladies and gentlemen, "The Best of George Michael," and I love George Michael, and

女士們，先生們，這是 "最好的喬治-邁克爾"，我愛喬治-邁克爾，而且... ...

music makes you feel really great, but you have to try to avoid the dark music. Because man, do I have a whole, entire playlist

音樂讓你感覺非常好， 但你必須儘量避免黑暗的音樂。因為夥計，我有一個完整的，整個播放列表。

dedicated to dark music. But on this day - this is not the day. This is the day that you listen to something that makes you smile.

獻給黑暗音樂。但在這一天--這不是一天。這一天，你要聽一些讓你微笑的音樂。

Something that makes you want to dance. Even if you're just like elbow dancing, 'cause you can't support your weight.

讓你想跳舞的東西。即使你只是喜歡肘部跳舞， 因為你不能支持你的體重。

So that's a - that's a big rung on my ladder is listening to music to kinda get me going.

所以，這是我的一個--這是我的一大階梯，就是聽音樂，讓我走起來。

M: My hair is soaking wet.

男：我的頭髮都溼透了。

Um, but I just do not have the energy to blow dry it. So what I'm gonna do is some loose braids.

嗯，但我只是沒有精力去吹乾它。所以我要做的是一些鬆散的辮子。

I'm not lifting my arms up high. I'm keeping them down as low as I possibly can, and I'm just gonna do some real

我不會把我的手臂高高舉起。我把它們放低，儘可能的低，我只是要做一些真正的

loose braids. It still looks cute, right? S: You're a cute girl -- M: Looks cute~ -- I like your little braids!

鬆鬆的辮子。看起來還是很可愛的吧？S：你是個可愛的女孩--M：看起來很可愛~--我喜歡你的小辮子!

M: So I'm gonna try to do one more on this side here.

男：所以我打算在這邊再試著做一個。

A lot of people have been asking me about what this like blue, sticky stuff they see on my knees and legs are.

很多人都在問我，他們在我的膝蓋和腿上看到的這種像藍色的、粘稠的東西是什麼。

And it's KT tape, which is like a athletic wrap or athletic tape. Doesn't cure it.

而且是KT帶，就像運動包紮或運動膠帶一樣。並不能治癒它。

It doesn't make it feel like super better, but it keeps me from damaging it /more/.

它並沒有讓它感覺超級好，但它讓我不會損壞它/更多/。

Mobility aids: These are all different types of aids that are important to help you out, and I used to be really embarrassed to wear these out.

移動輔助器具。這些都是不同類型的輔助工具，對你的幫助是很重要的，我以前真的不好意思穿這些東西出去。

This is so ugly! I asked them if they had it in black or white, and they're like, [in accent] "No, only skin color beige!"

這是如此醜陋！我問他們是否有黑色或白色的， 他們說，[口音]"沒有，只有皮膚顏色米色！"

Ugh. Anyways, so I added some Sailor Moon charms that I got from some of you nasties in the mail.

唉。總之，所以我加了一些水手月的符咒，是你們一些討厭的人給我寄來的。

But it like doesn't even - I can't even draw on it. It's just so ugly. I'm trying real hard not to use a heavy bag

但它就像沒有甚至 - 我什至不能畫上它。它只是如此醜陋。我試著真正的努力，不使用一個沉重的袋子

or something that will pull my shoulder throughout the day. This I can easily just sling over here. Alright, I think we're ready to go!

或者是能拉住我肩膀的東西，一整天。這個我可以很容易地只是吊在這裡。好了，我想我們可以走了！

M: Butterfly!

男：蝴蝶!

M: You see him? S: It's a little butterfly in a rosemary plant. M: He's like omnomnomnom~

M：你看到他了嗎？S：是一株迷迭香裡的小蝴蝶。M：他就像omnomnom~。

M: When I'm having my... like lowest of days, I try my absolute hardest

M：當我有我的......像最低谷的日子，我就會盡我最大的努力。

to look at things around me and try to observe some thing that's like

觀察周圍的事物，並試圖觀察一些事物，就像是

interesting or cool or beautiful. Like this Morning Glory plant, like climbing up and just spilling over.

有趣的或酷炫的或美麗的。就像這株晨曦花，喜歡爬上去，就會溢出來。

And like this butterfly eating. If I just walk like constantly and I just think inside my own head that I'm just like

而像這樣的蝴蝶吃。如果我只是走喜歡不斷 我只是覺得我自己的頭裡面 我只是喜歡。

looking inside myself and seeing all this darkness. So I try to like

看著自己的內心，看到所有這些黑暗。所以我試著去喜歡

turn the spotlight and face it outwards, so that I can see things that are like cool or pretty or nice.

把聚光燈轉過來，朝向外面，這樣我就能看到一些像酷的或漂亮的或好的東西。

So that's one of the big, strong things I try to do. And I'm lucky today that I can walk.

所以這也是我努力做的一件大事、強事。而我今天很幸運，我可以走路了。

'Cause you know, ducky, when I'm having a bad like leg or knee day -- S: Mhm.

因為你知道，鴨子，當我有一個糟糕的像腿或膝蓋的一天 - 嗯。

M: You know, me taking a taxi or I'm not leaving at all or I have my cane. But now I can like walk and like observe some things.

M：你知道，我打車或者我根本不走，或者我有我的手杖。但現在我可以像走路一樣，喜歡觀察一些東西。

M: Come observe with me~

男：跟我一起觀察吧~。

M: That's a big boy!

男：真是個大男孩!

M: A nice, salted salmon onigiri.

男：不錯的，鹹三文魚飯糰。

M: Made me really happy to open it up; felt like some big, happy childhood memories.

男：打開它，讓我真的很開心；感覺像是一些大的、快樂的童年回憶。

Added definitely a little rung to my ladder on this one.

這一次絕對給我的梯子增加了一個小階梯。

Really hard to eat with one hand.

真的很難用一隻手吃。

M: I strongly believe that it is extremely important to get out of the house, even if it's just going for a walk or going to the library or

M：我堅信，走出家門是極其重要的，哪怕只是去散步、去圖書館或。

going to a university campus or sitting in a coffee shop, observing people.

去大學校園或坐在咖啡店裡，觀察人們。

Seeing life existing outside of your own mind. Just so critical to your well-being.

看到生命存在於你自己的心靈之外。對你的幸福感如此關鍵。

I'm enjoying amazing coffee at Light Up Coffee, which is one of our favorite shops. A little bit of a walk from our house, but -

我正在Light Up Coffee享用美味的咖啡，這是我們最喜歡的商店之一。離我們家有點遠，但...

nice to get here. -sighs- Nice to enjoy, nice to look around.

很高興來到這裡。嘆息--很高興能享受，很高興能四處看看。

-groans-

-呻吟

Ugh, so pooped.

呃，好大便。

So, just got home after my big adventure out.

所以，在我出去大冒險之後，剛回到家。

I'm really happy that I went out. I think that my attitude changed a lot from the morning.

我真的很高興，我出去了。我覺得我的態度從早上開始改變了很多。

In the morning, I was just about to - just give up on everything.

早上，我剛要--就放棄了一切。

And now I feel like I'm all tuckered out from an adventure day, where I just went for a simple walk around the block,

而現在我覺得自己在冒險的一天裡，只是在街區裡簡單的走了一圈，就覺得渾身乏力了。

but I saw so many things and people - alive and people walking, and people in wheelchairs, and people on bikes, and...

但我看到了很多東西和人--活著的人和走路的人，坐輪椅的人，騎自行車的人，還有... ...

And I feel really happy that I left the house and I had a really good onigiri.

而且我覺得真的很幸福，我離開了家，我吃了一個非常好的飯糰。

But I have to know my limits, and my leg and knee and ankle started to hurt so I'm back home.

但我必須知道自己的極限，我的腿和膝蓋和腳踝開始疼，所以我回到了家裡。

I got my pig hat on, and I got my ice packs, and I'm gonna start icing my body down, and maybe just watch a...

我戴上了我的豬帽，我帶著我的冰袋，我要開始冰凍我的身體， 也許只是看一個... ...

A funny TV show to make me feel happy.

一部有趣的電視劇，讓我感到快樂。

-sigh- So

嘆--所以

I hope you guys can see the importance of like the small things, helping you to build a ladder.

我希望你們能看到像小事的重要性，幫你搭建一個梯子。

Even if you don't live in Japan and you don't live somewhere like that you think is super cool,

即使你不住在日本，你也沒有住在這樣你認為超酷的地方。

I think you can still get out there and start changing your perspective and start changing your mindset to see things in a different way.

我覺得你還是可以走出去，開始改變自己的觀點，開始改變自己的心態，換個角度看問題。

You know, rub your toes on the grass, or, you know, walk to the convenience store and get a lollipop or a

你知道，在草地上摩擦你的腳趾， 或者，你知道，走到便利店 並得到一個棒棒糖或一個。

popsicle or take the car, or call an Uber, or take your bike, you know.

冰棒或坐車，或叫Uber，或騎自行車，你知道的。

Get out there and change your mind.

走出去，改變你的想法。

Don't keep your spotlight shining inwards in a dark, dark place and let it consume you.

不要讓你的聚光燈在暗無天日的地方向外照射，讓它吞噬你。

Try to, try to turn that spotlight so that it shines out, and you start seeing the things that life has to offer you.

試著，試著把那個聚光燈轉過來，讓它照射出來，你開始看到生活給你提供的東西。

And you know what? You know you're gonna have another bad day.

你知道嗎？你知道你會有另一個糟糕的一天。

It might be tonight. It might be tomorrow.

可能是今晚也可能是明天

But at least you started to like build that ladder, to kind of get out of that pit.

但至少你開始喜歡建立那個梯子， 那種走出那個坑。

So I hope this helped out with you guys. Let me know in the comments section any

所以希望對你們有所幫助。讓我在評論區知道任何

tips that you do to help yourself build a ladder. What small things you do within your own house.

幫助自己搭建梯子的技巧。你在自己的房子內做了哪些小事情。

What you do with your body. What you do outside the house.

你用你的身體做什麼。你在屋外做什麼。

Umm, yeah. And I hope this video didn't make you guys feel too down, but I think it's important to share

嗯，是的。我希望這段視頻沒有讓你們覺得太沮喪，但我覺得分享很重要。

some of my bad days with you, too, so that you guys can get an understanding that it's not --

一些我的壞日子與你，太， 所以你們可以得到一個理解 這不是 -

it is not super easy. You know, I do struggle like you guys struggle, and I.. and I try to make myself positive and happy

這不是超級容易。你知道，我確實像你們一樣掙扎，我... ...我試著讓自己積極和開心

so that you guys can also feel the positivity, so...

讓你們也能感受到積極性，所以... ...

Pig hat and Martina out.

豬帽和瑪蒂娜出。