I waskindoflostinterestindrawingandpaintingwhen I starteddoingmyownmakeup, becauseitwaswaymorefulfillingformetobecreatingthelooksinthree D andbringingthemtolife.
Oh, myGod, Superclose, notmeanttobeonyourface.
I createdthismethodmyself, so I don't actuallyknowhowyou'resupposedtodoit.
Ifyoulike a prostheticmakeupartist, ifyou'rewillingtojustpushyourselfandnothaveanykindofjudgmenttowardsyourlikeinstincts, youcankindofjustmakewhatyouwanttomakeandcreatesomethingbeautiful.
OhmyGod, it's wasitforthefantasy.
Someofthethingsthat I thinkinfluencedmewhen I wasyoungerkindofinspiredmewasjustwatchinglikevideosonYouTubeoffashionshows.
I wasobsessedwithAlexanderMcQueenshowsAndivideosofpeoplelikelyBari.
I wouldrewatchlikeLadyGaga's musicvideoslikeHundredsandHundredsoftimes.
Foundationsimportantpartofmymakeupjustbecause I shavedmyheadandeventhough I shaveituntotheskin, theirstoreshadow, thatstuffand I reallywantto, like, hidethatshadowasmuchaspossibleandmakeitlooklikemyheadlineisnaturallyuphereratherthanasifmyheadishalfshaved.
I justwantedtolooklike I have a giantforehead.
Essentially, I'veneverunderstoodAh, lotofpeople's obsessionswithhaving a smallboy.
I thinkbigger, sobeautiful.
MovingtoLondonformewas a veryimportantexperiencebecause I kindoffound a hugeamountofconfidence, Andifreedomlivingtherebecause I wasjust I wasn't beingdraggeddownby a lesadnessandanxietythat I kindofdevelopedWaasbeinginWales.
I hadquite a aboutexperiencegrowingupandwithbeingbullied.
I'veneverreallybeeninterestedindoinglookspurelyforandtheInternetpurelyfor a projector a creation.
Myvoicelovedjustlookinglikethisjustformydays.
Theyliveif I'm dressedand I'vegotmymakeuponit.
Sometimesjustlivingandgoingoutandinteractingwiththeworldcanbeitsownperformanceanditsownartpiecebecauseitcanbesotheatric, a NBAbeautiful.
I thinkeverybodyisdoingthat.
I don't thinkthat's somethingthat's exclusivetome.
I thinkeverybodyjustthatintheirownway, partoftheinfluenceofmyeyeshapeis a trendthat I stillhappeningincareer, wherepeopleithighlightthat I badandcreatesmoreshadowunderneathon I.
Justwhen I saw, I thoughtitlookedsocute, anditalsokindofresemblesthewaywithyoureyeswhen I didpaintings.
I have a verystrongvisionofwhat I wantwhiteconsidertobebeautifulformyselfandformyownworld.
I rememberthefirsttime I triedusingwhiteeyelinerandwhitemask.
Are I wasquiteblownawaybyhowbeautiful I felt.
I guessitwasamazing.
I definitelygetfrustratedsometimeswithhowlimitingphysicscanbeandbiologycanbe.
I don't thinkthereshouldbereallyanylimits.
Nellois a project I createdwithmypartnerpartnerHam, andit's essentially a mixturebetweenfetish, ourfashiononperformance.
I thinkinordertolivelifein a waythat's that's fulfilling, it's possible.
It's important.
Thioaddressyourfearsandkindofpushyourself a Sfaraspossibleandneverreallystop.
I thinkthere's alwaysmoreboundariesandmorelimitsandmorefearsthatneedtobeaddressed.
I thinkmydrivetokindofaddressfearscomesfrommypersonalneedtoegetoverfearsthat I havedevelopedduetomyownexperiencesandthewaythat I'vebeenaffected, I guess, bysocietyandbytheway, I grewupinWales.
I thinkatnighttimeiswhat I'm mostcreativeusuallysoquiteoftenstayupallnight.
I'vecreated a lotoflikeprojectsandimagesthatarebasedinmygarden.
I feelverysafeand I feelathomethemostlike, ambitiousthing.
I guess I'vedoneinmygardenwasbuilding a bigwoodenframeandthenkindofhuggingmyself.
I oftenwas.
Therehavemultiplesofmyselfcause I wanttodotoomanythingsaregoingtostartwithputting a shadowdownthecenterofmylife.
I'vestruggled a lotwithbeingcensoredonlinebecauseoftheway I expressedmyselfisso e guessextreme.
I canmake a lotofpeopleveryviolentandangryandshocked, and I'llhavepostsremoved, theantsexualpost, theonviolentoraggressive, reallyinanywaynext, somethingtobeadding a darkereyeshadowontothekindofdetailstoe, enhancehershapes.
I want I'm gonnaputhighlightsinouronmycheeksunder a littlebitonmyprobowntomakemyselflook a bitmorealienand a bitmorewax.
I wanttolookkindofnewbombfinalstuffofmymakeupisgoingtobeputtinginmysquarecontactlenses.