At the time of my last instagram close in Japan, I wasn't doing very well.

在我上一次在日本關閉instagram的時候，我做得並不好。

I know a lot of you were concerned.

我知道你們很多人都很擔心。

Hell, I was concerned as well, because this year has been, without a doubt, the most challenging year of my entire life.

見鬼，我也很擔心，因為今年無疑是我一生中最具挑戰性的一年。

I'm sure a lot of you could say the same thing as well.

我相信很多人也能說出同樣的話。

Yeah, but that's not a bad thing.

是的，但這不是一件壞事。

If things are easy, you're not growing.

如果事情很簡單，你就沒有成長。

So I leaned into the challenge instead of avoiding it or complaining about it or numbing it, and I feel that it's been really transformative.

所以我傾力迎接挑戰，而不是逃避它、抱怨它、麻木它，我覺得這真的是一種轉變。

I've taken a step back from making YouTube videos, and I'm putting my efforts into a whole new project.

我已經從製作YouTube視頻中退了一步，我把我的努力投入到一個全新的項目中。

It's a big one, probably my most important one ever.

這是個大問題，可能是我最重要的問題。

I'm spending a full year on my own wellness project.

我將用一整年的時間來完成自己的養生工程。

Instead of pouring my hours into planning and filming and editing and publishing videos, I want to spend that time on developing myself.

與其把時間傾注在策劃、拍攝、剪輯和發佈視頻上，我想把這些時間花在發展自己身上。

What is the best version of myself that I can be?

我所能做的最好的自己是什麼？

What are the ways in which I can truly flourish?

有哪些方式可以讓我真正的發揚光大？

And if you remember how our videos were like in Korea, when we used to publish eight videos a week.

如果你還記得我們的視頻在韓國是怎樣的，當時我們曾經一週發佈八個視頻。

You know that I know how to grind and I know how to hustle.

你知道，我知道如何磨練，我知道如何喧囂。

But now I'm spending that time grinding on myself.

但現在我把這些時間都用在了自己身上磨練。

That doesn't sound right, does it, though?

這聽起來不對，是嗎？

Maybe I'm level grinding my own character.

也許我是在給自己的角色磨級。

You might have noticed one of the big things that I've worked on, and it's that I've worked out Ah lot.

你可能已經注意到了我工作中的一件大事，那就是我已經鍛鍊了啊很多。

I lost £50 in one year.

我在一年內損失了50英鎊。

My face is very different.

我的臉很不一樣。

I am super shredded.

我是超碎的。

Now I have a six pack.

現在我有一個六包。

For the first time in my life, I finally feel comfortable shirtless.

生平第一次，我終於感覺到不穿衣服很舒服。

No, not on camera.

不，不是在鏡頭前。

You horn dogs.

你這隻角犬。

My mama watches these videos.

我媽媽看這些視頻。

Check Moshoeu.

檢查Moshoeu。

Another thing that you might have noticed is that I'm a lot less frenetic on camera.

還有一件事，你可能已經注意到了，就是我在鏡頭下不那麼狂熱了。

I'm a lot less hype right now.

我現在少了很多的炒作。

I am less agitated and all over the place.

我不那麼焦躁不安，渾身不自在。

I feel ah, lot calmer now.

我覺得啊，現在平靜了很多。

I feel a lot mawr emotionally resilience.

我覺得自己的情緒彈性很大。

I am at ease with what comes and goes, and I am open to the mysterious unfolding of my life.

我隨遇而安，坦然接受生命的神祕展開。

A k A.

A k A．

Sounds like Simon moved to Canada and smoked a lot of weed that z not it at all.

聽起來像是西蒙搬到加拿大去了，抽了很多大麻，根本就不是它。

It's actually, because I got a lot more into meditation like, ah, lot more Not, like, run away to the mountains and become a monk.

事實上，因為我得到了很多更多的進入冥想 像，啊，很多更多 不是，喜歡，跑到山上，成為一個和尚。

Or get one of those like breathy nama stay voices that some people tend to get.

或者找一個有些人容易得到的那種喜歡呼吸的納摩留聲。

I'm not at that level yet, but back when I was in Tokyo, I used to meditate for 10 minutes a day, and that was very, very transformative.

我還沒有達到那個水準，但是我在東京的時候，我曾經每天打坐10分鐘，那是非常非常有改變的。

But now I'm doing something like an hour a day on most days, sometimes even more.

但現在我每天大部分時間都會做一個小時的事情，有時甚至更多。

And that has been so great for me.

而這對我來說，已經是如此之大。

Just so good.

就是這麼好。

I feel like how I have a six pack on my body.

我感覺自己身上怎麼會有六塊腹肌。

I now have a six pack in my mind.

我現在腦子裡有一個六包。

Are you ready?

你準備好了嗎？

Watch me Flex.

看著我的Flex。

Mhm.

嗯

Think of a number between one and 10.

想一個1到10之間的數字。

You got it.

你說對了

Okay, I don't know it, but I got you to think of a number between one and 10.

好吧，我不知道，但我讓你想一個1到10之間的數字。

Impressive.

令人印象深刻。

Right.

好吧，我知道了

Okay, I know I'm joking about meditation, but truly I think this is the best thing that I have done for myself.

好吧，我知道我拿冥想開玩笑，但說真的，我覺得這是我為自己做的最好的事情。

I feel a lot mawr present when I talk to people.

當我與人交談時，我覺得自己有很多存在感。

My eyes aren't jumping around all over the place.

我的眼睛不是到處亂跳。

I can look.

我可以看。

People in the eyes.

人的眼睛裡。

I feel less anxious.

我覺得不那麼焦慮了。

When I talk to people.

當我與人交談時。

I feel less scared.

我覺得不那麼害怕了。

I feel like I'm connecting with people like I've never been able to connect before.

我覺得我和人們的聯繫是前所未有的。

Meditation, Truly ISS Super, Super good.

冥想，真的是ISS超級，超級好。

Highly recommended.

強烈推薦。

10 out of 10 would do again.

滿分10分，會再做一次。

But I'm not just practicing meditation for myself.

但我不只是為自己練習冥想。

I'm actually interested in taking this.

其實我很有興趣考這個。

Ah, whole lot further.

啊，還有很多。

I've enrolled in a lot of classes at University of Toronto.

我在多倫多大學報了很多班。

When it comes to mindfulness and meditation, I'm super interested in the neuroscience of it.

說到心態和冥想，我對它的神經科學超級感興趣。

What happens to your brain when you meditate?

當你冥想時，你的大腦會發生什麼？

How do you change your brain?

如何改變自己的大腦？

How are you developing that six pack in your mind?

你心中的六塊腹肌是如何培養的？

I'm actually really happy to be a student again.

其實我真的很高興能再次成為一名學生。

Curiosity is my strongest personality trait along with love of learning.

好奇心和愛學習是我最強的性格特點。

So this is so fun for me learning all this stuff, reading all about it.

所以，這對我來說，瞭解這些東西，閱讀這些東西，真是太有趣了。

I'm really interested in finding ways to share this with you as well.

我也很有興趣想辦法和你分享。

And as soon as I do, I hope I can make some good videos about it Truly.

而一旦我這樣做，我希望我可以做一些好的視頻關於它Truly。

I think YouTube as a whole can have a lot more mindfulness and well being in it, and I have some ideas that I think can change a platform.

我覺得YouTube整體上可以有更多的心態和福祉在裡面，我有一些想法，我覺得可以改變一個平臺。

How can you to measure Mawr than subscribes and likes and watch time and revenue and maybe start focusing Mawr on the well being of its creators and viewers?

你怎麼能衡量Mawr比訂閱和喜歡和觀看時間和收入，也許開始關注Mawr的創作者和觀眾的福祉？

It's possible.

這是有可能的。

I know a lot of you have probably seen some creators burnout.

我知道很多人可能已經看到了一些創作者的倦怠。

You might have even seen some of them fall apart.

你甚至可能已經看到他們中的一些人崩潰了。

I don't want you to to be a factor in their unwell nous or yours.

我不希望你成為他們或你身體不舒服的一個因素。

So I have some ideas as to how I want to change the platform as a whole.

所以我有一些想法，我想如何改變整個平臺。

And I'm working towards a vision, actually feels really good to set some goals and to work towards achieving them thing.

而我正在為一個願景而努力，其實感覺真的很好，設定一些目標，併為實現目標的事情而努力。

You get a big boy.

你得到一個大男孩。

No, you can't have any bacon fudges.

不，你不能有任何培根軟糖。

First day at the dog park s so small compared to this huge dog.

第一天去狗公園，和這隻大狗比起來，真是小巫見大巫。

Oh, he's so gorgeous.

哦，他是如此華麗。

You do a little buddy.

你做一個小夥伴。

You just hiding here in the booth.

你只是躲在這裡的展位。

What's been very good for me as well is that I've reconnected with my friends and family in Canada.

對我來說也非常好的是，我與加拿大的朋友和家人重新建立了聯繫。

I was super out of touch with him for like, more than a decade when I was in Korea and Japan.

我在韓國和日本的時候，和他超級失聯了十幾年。

But now that I'm back home and I can see them regularly.

但現在我回了家，可以經常見到他們了。

It's just been so good for me.

這對我來說實在是太好了。

It feels great.

感覺很好。

Toe have the love and support of people who care about you.

要有關心你的人的愛和支持。

I'm also spending a lot more time with my parents because they are getting older.

因為父母年紀大了，我陪他們的時間也多了很多。

I mean, we're all getting older unless you're Chiana Reefs.

我的意思是，我們都在變老，除非你是奇納礁石。

But I think you know what I'm saying.

但我想你知道我在說什麼。

I don't have that much more time with them and I don't want to squander any more of it.

我沒有那麼多時間和他們相處了，我不想再浪費任何時間。

And I am for sure, noticing how the more I understand my family, the more I understand myself, I see similar traits in my father and my mother and my sister and brother, and even in my nieces and nephews, I come from a very rich and deep context, and I feel that the mawr, I understand them and their stories, the more I could understand who I am as a person as well.

而且我肯定，注意到我越瞭解我的家庭，我就越瞭解我自己，我在我的父親和母親以及我的姐姐和弟弟身上看到了類似的特質，甚至在我的侄女和侄子身上也看到了類似的特質，我來自一個非常豐富和深刻的背景，我覺得，我越瞭解他們和他們的故事，我就越能理解我這個人。

So that's what I've been up to in these past for months.

所以這就是我這幾個月來的工作。

It's been, ah, hell of a ride to get from Japan to where I am now, and it's not been easy, but I feel really great.

從日本到現在的位置，真是，啊，地獄般的旅程，雖然不容易，但我感覺真的很棒。

I feel happy, deeply happy.

我覺得很幸福，深深的幸福。

I feel connected.

我感覺到了連接。

I feel at peace.

我覺得很平靜。

I feel very good and I just kind of wanted to share that with you and hopefully allay some of your concerns.

我感覺非常好，我只是有點想和你分享，希望能打消你的一些顧慮。

But I do know that some of you will not be satisfied with that.

但我知道，你們中的一些人不會滿足於此。

There are some burning questions that you have.

有一些迫切的問題，你有。

And so I'm going to address the elephant in the room.

所以我要解決房間裡的大象。

Namely, why haven't you seen my right hand?

也就是說，你為什麼沒有看到我的右手？

So let me explain.

所以讓我解釋一下。

I broke my hand last week in a pretty bad car accident in which I was completely not at fault.

上週我在一次很嚴重的車禍中摔斷了手，而我完全沒有過錯。

I was driving a rental car because I was given that rental car after a car accident I had last month, one block away from the accident I had last week.

我開的是一輛租來的車，因為我上個月出了車禍，離我上週出的車禍只有一條街的距離，所以就給我租了這輛車。

So fuck Adelaide Street in Toronto in particulate er I hate it.

所以他媽的多倫多阿德萊德街在微粒呃我討厭它。

I'm never driving on it again.

我再也不會在上面開車了。

Remember how much I used to complain about driving in Korea gnome or Korea?

還記得我以前經常抱怨在韓國侏儒或韓國開車嗎？

I miss your driving Toronto driving.

我想念你的駕駛多倫多駕駛。

But the point of this video isn't about the pains and the challenges I'm facing in an entirely new way of life, because really, this hand freaking hurts a lot.

但這段視頻的重點並不是關於我在全新的生活方式中所面臨的痛苦和挑戰，因為真的，這隻手怪疼的。

Instead, it's a message about how you congrats Oh, in the face of challenging times because I feel that challenges our tests given to us by the gods.

而是說你如何恭喜哦，在面對挑戰的時候，因為我覺得挑戰我們的考驗是上天給我們的。

Fortunately, there self rated tests.

幸運的是，有自我評級測試。

And at the end of your challenge, you can look back on it and see, Did you handle it with grace and dignity on E?

而在你的挑戰結束後，你可以回過頭來看看，你在E上處理得是否優雅而有尊嚴？

I hope that I could look back on this time and say that I've done just that.

我希望回首這段時間，我可以說，我已經做到了這一點。

Even if I had to do it single handedly get it e broke my hand.

即使我不得不單槍匹馬地把它弄到手，我的手也斷了。

Hold on other hand.

握在另一隻手上。

Yeah, that was a bad joke.

是啊，這是一個糟糕的笑話。

Thanks for watching everyone.

謝謝大家的觀看。

I'll see you in the future.

以後再見。

Hopefully with both hands working with big when you move your body.

希望在移動身體的時候，雙手配合大。

E wasn't able to do this last week.

E上週沒能做到這一點。

Wait, thumbs up.

等等，豎起大拇指。