Everyone's gonnabethereandneedtoputon a clinicbecauseatthattime, everyonewassayingtheywerethebestfightintheUKButthenobviouslyhe'd stoppedme.
So I'm like a membermember.
Liaminethatgood?
Maybehe's justbeingfoundouthere.
Sothen I wasthinking I'vejustbeenfoundout.
I'llshutThesewasbeingfoundout.
So I waslikefightingagainstmyself, myowndemons.
I hadtostaymentallystrongtoshowthatourmorethanthat.
Andtheninthefirstfight, I satdownafterround.
Oneofmylegwasinagonyandbytheendofaroundfiveofhim, stillkickingoutfightintherematch, I couldn't feel a thingstill, butmymindsetwassawmentallystrong.
Then I thinkhecouldhavehitmewithanironbarinthatfighting, I wonder.
FeltitAfterthefight, theambulancehadtocomeandtakemetohospital, passedoutintheafterpartyand I gottohospitalstayingovernightand a reallybadconcussiononThatwashowhardhehitmeinaroundfour.
But I wasinsuch a mentalfocusthathedidn't evenhaveanyeffectofafterthefight.
So I usedtoloveit, usedtowalkaroundschoolandplayground, justdaydreamingaboutwhenthenextfight, where I'llbesatinclass, notpayinganyattentionwhatsoever.
All I couldthinkaboutwasgettingout, goingtothegym, andeventually I startedonthedinnerhourrunningfrommyschooluptothegym, doingsomequickpadsofRichardandthenrunningbacktoschool.
Andthatwaslikemymydinnerandstufflikethat.
So I wasobsessedbythespot, and I wasobsessedwithfireinwhen I walkthroughthisdoor, I didnotwanttojustfightto, like, turnuptofightsandmakeupthenumbersoranything.
I wantedtobe a champion, andthatwasthat.
Andi.
I'd alwaysstayedbehindafterwards, andaftertheclass, I gotinthebagupstairsonmyown.
I usedtousemyDidyoucomewiththoserecorderandstuffandjustfillmyselftomakesure I thoughtmystancewereokayandstufflikethat, Andthat's like, I think, sortofmentalitythattakesyoufrombeingjust a fighterto a champion.
I hadmyfirstfightat 14 e.
Nooneeverquestionsbecause I lookedquiteoldformyageandeso I gotawayofitthen.
But I endedupwith, like, fightingmen.
So I waslike 14 fightingmen.
I thinkwhen I was 15 or 4 2028 yearold I thinkyouare.
I knockedhimourdid.
Never, everusedtocrossmymindthat I willfightin a fullygrownmanalltheway, which, likethisisthefight, and I lovedit.
Itwasaftermy 29th, my 30 yearfight.
I went 29 fightsonbeingmy 30 yearfight.
I fought, I jumpinandhewaslikeeliteleveltoptoplevel.
May I rememberWhen I droppedhiminthelefthook, hiseyesrolledintohishead, andthenhecamebackupandhestartedsmilingatmeandhedidn't have a gunshieldinandhadbloodalloverhisteethforthisguy's crazyandhejustabsolutelydestroyedme.
Butmeand I rememberafterthefight, I wasthinkingright, If I wanttofighttheseguys, I needtobeabletoknowhowtheyfightaswellasour I fight.
Andif I couldmixboththestylestogether.
I justsaid I wasseeing a girlforthetimeaswell.
I'vebeenseeingherforthreeyears.
I justwentonwhen I'm sorryit's over.
I mustliveinThailandonthat.
Shewasdevastated, and I said, a momenttomomentoff.
I wentonthe 15thofDecemberbeforeChristmas, soeveryonemadatmeforruiningChristmas.
But I saidthis.
Thatsaid, I can't havethisinmyheadoverChristmasbecauseme I'm justgonnago.
I needto, like, gooutthereandmakesurethatandseeif I canliveatthatlevel.
I don't wannabelikethenearlyguy I said.
I wanttogetthatlevelon.
I wannabetheonethatgetintheringknowing I'm gonnawinatthatlevel.
I don't wannabefightingtheseguysthinking, um, I goodenoughornot I wanttogetinthere.
Andso I justwentouttoThailandandledtofighttheirway.
And I probablyabout 15 fightcenterofitsspecialtwoyears.
I saidbefore, I don't wannabelike a bigfishin a smallpond.
I wantedtogooverthereand I wentto a gymcalledJiJimandithad a lotofThaichampionsandatthetimeandtoplevelguys, so I wantedtoeliveliketheydid.
I wantedtotrainalltheydid.
Andforthefirst, like, 34 weeksuntil I gotusedtoit.
Itwillhelp.
I waslivingon a mattressonthefloor.
Theyhavebeenfightingevery 34 weeks, Butyeah, itwasHegottougheratsomepointsbecause I wasouttherefightingformoneyaswell.
I wasonly 18 when I went.
I'm nottoomuchmoneysavedupfrombodies, A bitbangedup.
I'm injured.
DeMariatofight.
Sothat's what I did.
I justusedtofight a zoo, oftenas I couldasregularas I could.
There's a biggamblingcultureinThailand, soif I had a bigfightoutthere, they'reprobablygonnagetsomemoney, gambledonit.
They'regonnabebackin.
Soiftheyfought, I wantintopshipwaspossible, thentheywouldn't metwithmeintheship.
I mean, liketheylovemewillputsixrunningand I'llbethelastoneoutthegymat 6 p.m. Atnightandthenmakesurethatouronpoint, like I said, I wasthereformoneyand I said, Right, I'm gonnabetonmyself.
Soif I didn't win, I hadnomoney.
So I hadtowin.
E hadtowin.
Butonetime I betonmyselfandthewholegymbetonmeand I lost, and I'd betallmyrentmoneyonmyselfandeverything, and I lostthefight.
Andthenthreedayslater, I wasbangedupbadlyandhesaid, Look, youain't gotnomoneywe'regonnadois I'm gonnafightagain.
Sothreedayslater, I gotflowingdownandpull, keptoneoftheislandsandhadtofightagainformerentmoney.
I wonthatfightbyknockoutinroundfree, and I paymyrentfortwomonthsthen, butyouhavetofightthreedaysafterhaving a reallyhardfight.
I lostonepointandittogodownthereenoughtodoitagainthreedayslaterwasnotnice.
Mhm.
Myfear.
Isthatthetimewarthinking I wasn't asgoodas I thought.
Sothat's why I wantedtogoandputmyselfrightouttofacemyfears, hadtogotoThailandandtrainwiththeseguysandfighttheminThailandmix.
I thoughtmaybe I'm notasgoodas I think.
E thoughtwasonlyonewaytofindout.
Gooverthereandthen I justhavetofightthemeverytimeaftertrainingthemeveryday.