How are you all?

你們好嗎?

So, I've been up since 3 AM.

我今天凌晨三點就起床了

I had a long day and am on East Coast time.

我的東岸時差還沒調過來，所以今天對我來說很漫長

So it's a little funky.

也有點怪怪的感覺

And I often get woken up at that hour because this is when

我經常在這個時間醒來，因為這是

the spiritual veil is lifted.

我們靈魂的面紗被掀起的一刻

This is a beautiful magic hour that 2 to 3 AM

凌晨兩點到三點是個美好的、奇妙的時刻

when we have this opportunity to connect to the divine energy around us.

此時我們有機會與我們周遭神明的能量產生連結

And I am often woken at that time to get to work.

我也常在此時起床開始我一天的工作

this is where some of my greatest work happens:

我最棒的成就有一部分就是在

3 o'clock in the morning.

凌晨三點完成的

And so I got the wake up call and I said OK let me sit up in my bed,

所以我設了鬧鐘，然後告訴自己要起床了

and I sat myself up, and I started to breathe and I started to connect

當我坐起來，我開始深呼吸，嘗試與能量做連結

and center in to my internal guidance system.

並且專注於我內心深處的引導系統

And I kept hearing my ego, my fear voice say,

然後我一直聽到自己用充滿恐懼的聲音說著

"18 minutes, 18 minutes, 18 minutes."

「18分鐘，18分鐘，18分鐘」

All we have is 18 minutes to speak to you.

我們僅僅只有18分鐘來發表演說

And then I kept hearing this other dialog of,

接著我又聽到另外一種對話

"You always have 2 hours. 18 minutes is not long enough",

「你之前總是有2個小時，18分鐘根本不夠」

and going into that negative talk of "only 18 minutes."

之後，負面的聲音開始說「只有18分鐘」

And then I just listened, I breathed into the discomfort of this future tripping

而我就聽著，專注於對未來挫折的不安感

and I just allowed myself to experience whatever that issue was

我讓自己去經歷這些，不論那是什麼內容

and within a few seconds it started to lift

不到幾分鐘，情況開始有了轉變

and I listened to my internal dialog, my inner guidance system

我聽見我內心深處引導系統的聲音

and that voice within me said,

那個聲音對我說

"Speak your truth and time will expand."

「說出你的思想，時間自然會過去」

And I took a deep breath and I said,

我深深吸了一口氣，並說

"Yes! Thank you that's exactly what I needed to hear as usual."

「沒錯！這就是我真正想聽的，謝謝你」

I closed out my meditation, stood up out of my bed

我脫離冥想，起身離開床鋪

went to my computer and deleted my TED talk outline.

走向電腦並將TED演說的大綱刪掉

(Laughter)

(笑聲)

I let go of the form. I let go of the "how to"

我放下一切形式與「如何去做」的方式

or the details or the time frame

還有細節及時間限制

or the "everyone else does it this way" crap

以及「大家都這麼做」的廢話

and I said, the way I do this is share my truth and time expands,

我告訴自己只要分享我的思想，時間就會過去

share my truth and my inspiration can speak through me,

分享我的思想，而我的理念就會透過我傳達出來

share my truth and I will be of the highest service I can possibly be.

分享我的思想，我就能做到最好

And so I listened, I got a few moments of sleep

所以，我又回去睡了一會

and when I was ready to roll out of bed I said my morning prayer

當我真的起床時，我開始晨間禱告

and I said, "Where would you have me go?

我說「祢將引領我至何方？

What would you have me do?

祢將帶領我完成何事？

What would you have me say?

祢將讓我說出什麼？

And what would you have me wear? (Laughter)

祢將讓我穿什麼？」(笑聲)

I did good, right? (Laughter)

我做得還不錯，對吧?(笑聲)

And then I began my day --

接著我迎接我的一天

and my TED talk outline is in the delete section

我的TED講稿已經躺在google文件的

of my google docs. And you are going to get my truth.

垃圾桶裡，而我將直接告訴你們我的思想

You will get it in 18 minutes.

18分鐘內你們就能理解它

And my truth, my truth is so connected to me today.

我的思想今日與我同在

I live my truth, I walk my truth I breathe my truth.

無論是呼吸、行走、生活，思想皆隨我而行

Of course there are many moments when I am disconnected from my truth,

當然，總會有些時刻，思想離我遠去

but I know where to go, I sit down on that meditation pillow,

但我知道如何找回它，我會坐在冥想墊上

and I reconnect, and I recalibrate and I come back home.

重新與它連結、重整，然後我就能重回港灣

As a result of living in my truth I've been guided to be a student and a teacher

由於思想與我同在，我被引導成為抽象的「奇蹟課程」的

of the metaphysical text of "course of miracles."

老師與學生

And, I have, as a result of being a student of the course experienced

僅因我是奇蹟課程的一名學生

many miraculous shifts in my own life.

我的生命中發生許多奇蹟性的轉變

And today I live a life far beyond my wildest dreams.

今日我的生活與我最輕狂的夢想相距甚遠

But it was not always this awesome.

但它並非總是著麼完美

About 6 years ago I lived a much different life, in a much different way.

大約6年前，我的生活方式與現在猶如天壤之別

I was emotionally and spiritually bankrupt.

我的情感與精神皆如死灰

I lived the first 25 years of my life really looking for happiness and self-worth

我人生的頭25年，真心在尋找快樂與自我價值

and connectedness in all the wrong places.

但總是連到錯誤的地方

I was looking for this connection and the inspiration in my credentials

我在我的證書、人際關係、錢財

or in my relationships, or in an amount of money

甚至是一雙鞋子

or in a pair of shoes,

或是某間我去過的，氣氛不錯的夜店中

or in the fact that I had access to some great night club.

尋找連結和信念

Who knows, I was just looking for it in all of these outside circumstances.

我總是透過外在環境尋找它

And It was a really tough search, it was an endless search, it was a difficult search

那真的是場艱難的、無止盡的、困難的

and it was terrifyingly difficult and sad.

並且充滿傷心痛苦的尋覓

I got to the point when I was 21 I opened my first business

我在21歲時找到一絲轉機，那時我剛創業

and I really felt as though I have arrived because now I have a credential

而我真的認為我找到了，因為我擁有一張

that says I am doing something great in the world.

寫著我正在為這世界做一些好事的證書

But meanwhile I just felt completely emotionally bankrupt.

但同時，我只感覺自己心如死灰

and so I continued on for about 5 years, living in this way,

我照著紐約人快速的生活步調

of running this business and living this fast paced New York City lifestyle

並以這樣的狀態持續工作了5年

and having all of the necessary trappings of what it took to be a happy person,

並經歷所有為了成為一位快樂的人、一位持續前進的人

a person who had "a lot going on."

所必經的困境

But in the midst of that I was anesthetizing as all of these deep rooted fears,

期間，我已對所有深植我內心的恐懼、焦慮

and deep rooted anxieties and terrible terrible thoughts,

以及一切負面的想法

thoughts of inadequacy,

自認充滿缺點

thoughts that I'm not good enough unless I have a romantic partner,

自認自己不夠好，除非擁有一位浪漫的伴侶

thoughts that I'm not good enough if I don't get this new client

自認為如果沒辦法接下這位客戶或擁有一些財產

or have that amount enough money.

就表示自己不夠好

I'm not good enough "because" --

我不夠好「因為」，我對這一切早已麻痺

I had a terrible case of the "when-I-haves."

我陷入一種名叫「如果我有」的糟糕境地

When I have that new client, I'll be happy.

如果我有新客戶，我就會開心

When I have that new pair of shoes I'll be happy.

如果我有一雙新鞋，我就會開心

When I have that new relationship, I'll be happy.

如果我展開一場新的關係，我就會開心

And when my when-I-haves became my I-haves I was still unhappy.

而當「如果我有」變成「我有」的時候，我依然不開心

And by the time I was 25 I was really trying to anesthetize

當我25歲時，我真的嘗試去適應

all this discomfort with all these different kinds of things

所有的不安

such as food, and alcohol, and romance, and sex, and money

像食物、酒精、浪漫、性、金錢

and worst of all, drugs.

以及最糟的東西，毒品

By the time I was 25 I picked up a very very bad cocaine addiction

我25歲的時候有非常嚴重的古柯鹼毒癮

and I was physically drained, emotionally deteriorating

我的身體已經枯竭，情感早已墮落

and spiritually dead.

精神也已死去

And then on October 2nd 2005, I went to sleep

在2005年10月2日晚上

and that night, right before I went to bed I said to myself,

我正要上床睡覺時，我對自己說

"God, Universe, Whoever is out there, I need a miracle."

「不論是上帝還是宇宙、或任何人在聽，我需要一個奇蹟」

And I woke up that morning, and I heard an inner voice

第二天我起床時，我聽見我內心的聲音

a very authoritative loud inner calling that said to me,

一個強烈的聲音像我高喊

"Get your life together, girl and you will live beyond your wildest dreams."

「重整你的生活，你就能跨越你最輕狂的夢」

And I have been listening to that voice ever since.

之後我又聽過幾次那個聲音

This past October 2nd, I celebrated 6 years of sobriety. Thank you. (Applause)

去年10月2日，我慶祝了戒酒六年的紀念日，謝謝 （掌聲）

And in that time I have been physically recovering through my sobriety

當時，我的身體已藉由戒酒、改變我對待自己的方式

and through the way I treat my body, and what I eat.

以及飲食調整恢復健康

I have been spiritually recovering, as a student of A Course in Miracles.

藉由成為奇蹟課程的學生，我在精神上已經重生

I found the course through the beautiful transformational teacher Mariane Williamson

我是透過我美麗的轉型老師Mariane Williamson知道這個課程的

and the way that she interpreted this text made it relevant for me

而她如何向我詮釋這項課程對我來說意義重大

made it easy for me to understand and it was very clear

對當時26歲的我來說，她使這項課程簡單易懂

by the time I was 26 years old that this was what I was here to do.

而這也是我現在正在做的事

I am here to be a student and a teacher of A Course in Miracles.

我到這裡來是為了成為奇蹟課程的老師與學生

And I went to Mariane and said, "How would you suggest

當我將這件事告訴Mariane，我說

I carry this message to my generation."

「妳建議我要如何將這些訊息傳達給我的世代的人們」

And she said, "Read the text, do the workbook,

而她說「閱讀課文、遵循守則、

read the teacher's manual and get on your knees and ask God

閱讀老師的手冊，然後跪下來詢問上帝

how he plans for you to carry this message to your generation.

祂準備要讓你如何傳達這項訊息」

And I did just that.

而我照做了

And so when I went out to pick up A Course in Miracles

所以我出去尋找「奇蹟課程」

and allow this book to come in my life in full form

並允許它完整的降臨在我人生中

I walked over to my local metaphysical book store

我走向附近當地的形上學書店

and I walk in and there is a huge display of A Course in Miracles on sale

當我走進店內我看見大量特價的「奇蹟課程」陳列在店中

and I said, "That's right".

我說「這就對了」

And then I walked over to the display

我走向陳列架

and I picked up the book and I held on to the book

我拿起並抓住書本

and a huge force of energy behind the book

一股強烈的力量說服我

dragged me physically to the counter to buy the book.

將那本書拿去櫃檯結帳

This force of energy physically dragged me to the register

這強烈的說服力牽引我來到收銀機前

and so once again I took the universal memo and said OK,

所以我再一次拿起萬用筆記本，然後說

let's get to work.

讓我們開始吧

I walked outside on to this busy New York City street

我走進繁忙的紐約市中心街頭

and I opened the book and it said, "This is a course in miracles,

打開這本書，書中寫道「這是奇蹟的課程

this is a required course."

這是一項必要的課程」

And I said all right, show me what you've got.

我說好吧，讓我看看你有什麼能耐

And so I have been a student and a teacher ever since

因此，每當我練習「原諒」的時候

practicing the principles of forgiveness.

我都能成為一位學生和老師

The primary principle of the course of miracles is

奇蹟課程最基本的信念是

that a miracle is a shift in perception.

奇蹟是知覺上的常變者

The moment that we choose to perceive our life with love,

當我們選擇用愛來知覺人生

we can create a miraculous change.

我們就能創造奇蹟般的改變

And through the experience of forgiveness, the miracle occurs.

而經由去「原諒」，奇蹟就會發生

And so one day at a time, one thought at a time

在過去某時某刻

I have been re-programming my thoughts form fear to love.

我改變我害怕去愛的想法

I have been choosing forgiveness as my primary function

我選擇用愛來當我的根基

I have been allowing myself to settle into that truth, which is love.

我讓我自己去適應那個名叫「愛」的思想

One moment at a time, we experience what the course refers to as

曾經某個時刻，我們經歷過課程裡提到的

"The holy instant" -- the moment that we make that shift,

「神聖的一瞬」，一個我們做出改變

the miracle occurs.

而奇蹟發生的時刻

The holy instant is when an ancient hatred becomes a holy love.

「神聖的一瞬」發生在當舊有的仇恨轉變為愛的時候

That moment when all of that anger, and that past resentment just disappears

那是所有的憤怒和仇恨都消失的一刻

it goes away, it no longer matters.

它走了，而你不再在乎它

in that moment you recalibrate that energy of peace

那時你會重新獲得平靜

you recalibrate that energy of inspiration, of source.

當然，你也會獲得思想

In that moment, you are ready to serve.

那時，你會準備好去奉獻

What happens to each of us, each of us in some way shape or form

我們每個人都在某個地方

have chosen the ego, the fear based mind

選擇我們的自我，而心靈上的恐懼

have chosen what the course refers to as the tiny mad idea.

也會選擇課程中提到的小壞點子

Each of us, at some point in time and in some way

我們每個人，在某個時刻或以某個方法

we have chosen that tiny mad idea

選擇了小壞點子

and as the course says, we detoured into fear and it was like

課程說到，我們繞進了恐懼之中，那就像

a descent from magnitude into littleness.

從廣大無垠墜落至滄海一粟

and that negative voice, that fear based voice

然後那負面的聲音，那基於恐懼所發出的聲音

that one tiny mad idea

那小小的壞點子

becomes like a virus in our mind, it takes over our reality

變得像我們心靈中的病毒一般，接管真實

and it blocks our truth.

然後阻礙思想

And so what I'm not here to do is I'm not here to teach you

所以我在這裡不是會了教你

how do you find your truth --

如何找到自我

I'm here to teach you how to release the blocks to the presence of that truth.

我在這裡是為了教你如何為自我破除障礙

Of course, a miracle is an unlearning.

當然，奇蹟是一項「反學習」

It's the unlearning of the ego's false belief system.

它需要去學習自我的錯誤認知系統

It's an unlearning of the negativity of the lack of the comparing, of the separation.

它是一項對消極性，對限制，對比較以及對思想的反學習

The ego wants us to see everyone as separate.

自我想讓我們視所有人為個體

The ego wants us to see the speakers on this stage

自我想要讓我們認為台上的說話者

as much more special than those people in the audience.

比台下在座的各位特別

The ego wants me to be sitting in that stage all day long looking at everybody else

自我想要讓我坐在台上一整天，看著每個人說

saying, "Oh my god, they are more special than I am."

「天啊，他們比我還要特別」

Or saying, "Oh, I am so much more better than they are."

或是「我比他們好多了」

And so this is how the ego works. Ego works in so many vicious ways.

這就是自我如何運作的，自我以各種不同的錯誤的方式在運作

A Course in Miracles says the ego is

「奇蹟課程」說自我是

"Suspicious at best, vicious at worst."

「在最好前猶疑，在最壞前墮落」

And each of us have this horrifying belief system within us.

而我們每個人身上的有這樣恐怖的認知系統

And so it is our job, it is our duty, to release those blocks

解放這些阻礙、解放這些因認知系統而起的恐懼

release those fear based belief systems.

是我們的工作及義務

One loving shift at a time. One miraculous change at a time.

在某個改變的時刻、某個奇蹟發生的時刻

We release the blocks to that presence of love within us

我們解放心中被重重設限的愛

and we reconnect to that inspiration.

然後重新與思想連結

When we reconnect to that divine inspiration within us

當我們重新與神聖的思想連結時

then we have more energy. Then we have more vitality.

我們就會擁有更多的活力和生命力

Then we have more health Then we have more direction.

然後就會更健康，更有人生的方向

Then we can hear.

最後我們就學會聆聽

When we're thinking in fear, we cut off communication with that inspiration.

當我們心中充滿恐懼，就表示我們自行切斷與思想的連結

When we open up to think with love and we allow the voice

當我們心中有愛，並讓我們心中的

of our inner guidance system to come forward

引導系統發聲

we reconnect with that inspiration and that inspiration becomes our guide.

我們將會重新與思想連結，而思想就會成為我們的指引

When inspiration is your guide, you become a miracle worker.

當思想成為你的指引，你就會成為一位奇蹟創造者

And so, the work for each of you to do, to begin to release the blocks

為了要解放你們心中重重設限的愛

of the presence of love within you is to first and foremost become willing.

你們首先要做的就是變得「有意願」

All I needed on October 2nd 2005 was the slightest willingness

2005年10月2日我最需要的就是說出那聲

to say, "God, Universe, whoever is out there, show me what you've got."

「不論是上帝還是宇宙、或任何人在聽，我需要一個奇蹟」的小小意願

And that slight willingness was the catalyst for my greatest change

這小小的意願造就了我最棒的轉變

and is the reason I am standing here today, speaking to you

而這也是我為什麼要站在這裡

in my full truth, without an outline.

說出我未經修飾的、真實的思想

And just allowing source to work through me, allowing this divine inspiration

並讓神聖的思想源泉藉由我

to speak through me.

傳達出來

Before I came out here on the stage

在我站上台之前

I said some prayers with some of my sisters and we were in the back and I said,

我與我幾位互相扶持的姊妹說了幾句禱言

"May all the Goddesses of the highest truth

「最崇高與仁慈的女神

and compassion come speak through us now,

可會透過我們來傳遞思想

may our body be a vessel to carry an empowering message to serve the masses."

我們的身體能否成為承載給予自主思想訊息的容器，並以此服務大眾」

(Applause)

(鼓掌)

Get out of my own way. Stop checking my hair out in the mirror,