You need to go under the ocean.

You need to go into the darkness into the pain.

That's where you will discover the true gift of the self.

If you never go below the surface, then you will never discover the truth of who you are.

You will only vibrate on the higher frequencies.

What should I do?

Where shall I put the attention?

Don't put it nowhere.

Nowhere.

Don't put the attention Nowhere surrendered.

My world with degree means I do several things I don't want to do each day.

Like I go for a run of the dog Do Brazilian jiu jitsu.

I pray and I meditate on forever plunging myself in the cold liquid Thanks.

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Half feel like I've not done my day.

They do eat e think I used to be quite lazy when I was signing on and taking drugs the whole time I couldn't really be bothered to do anything.

Don't you basically think I'd like Thio not go anywhere ever again or do anything else?

Like what about the rock and Mark Walberg getting up at three in the morning to do exercises and going cryo chambers and all those.

I mean, that's that's why I suppose they're so successful, their absolute willingness to get up at three AM I love to be cozy.

Don't you just want to be sort of cozy and snug with a nice cold Easter egg or cozied up under a little?

Do that and just watch things.

Sometimes when you're actually doing that, don't you feel a little bit anxious and depressed like you should be doing something else?

Dream of individualism and heroism that somehow resource from your inner self.

You make manifest these glorious on heroic lives work and endeavor the apex of human achievement.

But then he sounds like a cat and dog.

I don't think we're not doing anything at all.

Look at them and they're still is about, basically is good as you.

But I suppose what you don't want to do is lethargically sluggishly, slouched on a couch, inert, hopeless, surrendered my will, Absolutely thought Awakening is I'd like to go back to sleep now.

I'd like to stay in bed.

I think all sorts of mad, crazy narcissistic things about myself.

But that ain't the person I'm interested in building.

When you're building a house, how would you if you go right, this is the room that I'll sit and crying.

This is the room where the where the burglars who eventually smashed the window and come in if you plan for that house, that's the house that you're going to create.

A person I want to become is free from those kind of lateral comparisons about our cool I am around.

Nice.

My haircut is, they say that guilt is because of what you have done, and shame is because of who you are.

I felt guilty about a lot of things I've done in the past to feel like I could have been a better person.

I should have behaved better.

I've also dealt with a lot of shame, feelings of worthlessness, low self esteem, the way out of shame for May has Bean Thio Address is where possible incidents in the past, where I feel my behavior was not as it should have Bean to ask for forgiveness and to be willing to forgive others for being less than perfect.

I think that one's reality is a result of your intention and your attention.

Well, what's the point in doing anything?

I think it's okay to relax.

I think it's okay to rest.

I think it's necessary to spend time in quiet communion with your true self so that your conscious activity isn't entirely governed by thinking mind that you have time to get in touch with you.

In true, it's true itself.

Your emotional self.

It's good to be rest for and in repose by.

For me, it is important.

Have discipline.

Don't take enough of people's ideals about what you should be doing.

Of course I'm lazy because I'm not, you know, sort of roaringly successful stockbroker or on the upper free AM doing push ups in the cryo chamber.

But do find your own standards and abide by them.

Do take advice and counsel from those you admire and help and let them help you to establish a routine that you could live by because I suppose laziness is only relevant if you feel like you're not fulfilling your potential because some animals don't do back or all, they don't seem to bother them.

Anxiety is fear in three syllables.

Fear is awareness.

Fear is potentially wisdom in your fear.

There could be truth in anxiety.

There could be truth.

We don't wanna live lives of continue anxiety.

Do we?

That feeling in your gut?

I check in with myself each morning and I say, Oh, where is the fear?

Where is it?

What is it that I visit my life being like, What is it that I want to achieve thes things These events, parties, gatherings It can feel sort of sad to not be included.

The answer is not to try and be included in things.

Three answer is Thio.

Address the sadness The fear of missing out is a illusory thing is a distraction from the truth of the disconnection within.

You maintain as your priority your connection with who you truly are on your own personal and ethical code.

I've always felt this even Price being invited to sort of swanky stuff, I thought I bet it ain't no good.

Really.

All I ever really wanted was nullifying pleasure that obliterates consciousness.

But that's a supposed because I'm a drug addict.

I've always wanted things that sort of smash you out of awake nous.

But that is because I deeply and essentially crave a transcendent state that is truer than the variants of material reality which were forced to endure.

I have to necessarily let go of four.

We narrative eyes, this feeling of fear.

We've those with the tendency to addiction, the tendency to the invisible realm, the spiritual realm, those of us that are disillusioned with the material world.

We have a tendency to fear because we're trying to intuit incense.

People don't talk enough of the ambivalence of mindfulness, the cost of being awake, the cost of continually seeing on observing every single gesture on how close spirituality sits.

The superstition fear is energy, as surely as craving is yearning, and all yearning could be used to drive you to pull you closer to the truth of who you are.

So fear contains wisdom in it.

Asked to see that don't narrative eyes the fear with your mind that this is merely mad fear migrating around in my mind, creating unnecessary narratives of terror.

The fear of missing out foam oh is the daft acronym suggests, is a is a illusory thing.

It's a distraction from the truth of the disconnection within you.

It's like people feel a bit ashamed of being lonely.

I used to be really lonely to quite late in life.

Actually, I suppose loneliness implies that you're not happy with your own company.

My solution to that for a long while was to use drugs.

When I was alone.

It was only a temporary solution.

What I ever then done, because I learned to be on my own in a more peaceful and harmonious way just by trying it.

It's a sort of thing you have to have practice with.

If you're on your own and it's a choice, it could be okay.

But human connection it's so important.

It's so important to have a group identity.

It is said that grief is the price we pay for love if we're gonna love people and adore them, that grief is an unavoidable consequence of that.

Everyone has the capacity for awaken nous when you get the things your culture tells you you should be doing and you experience them now, you know, now you know you can stop chasing the carrot because you've had a buyout.

It takes a while to recognize on what this is the emotional cost on me the spiritually cost on other people.

The fact that is preventing me from becoming a father from becoming a husband from settle in from becoming rooted from becoming actually whole from becoming a man from becoming connected.

But it resonates with swing.

Someone is willing to sacrifice themselves is because it temporarily makes us recognize when someone's, like, willing to die for what they believe in.

Malcolm X knew he was gonna die for doing that, and he did it anyway.

Gandhi had a good sense that he was gonna die.

He did it anyway because what he believed in was more important than what he was as an individual.

I think that when that happens, it reminds us it puts breath into us.

It reminds us we have the capacity for greatness on.

We are not just contained by our body.

We are these streams of energy in that moment back.

There is no disconnection between Connor McGregor in that crowd.

There is a oneness of purpose in that single punch punching for all of them.

In that moment, I was so lonely for so long, you know, you were famous and stuff just lonely evenings and addictive behaviors indulge to try to placate my own loneliness.

Or we can all reach out and join communities, places where we can be honest.

We must try to find the wisdom within fear.

Don't read.

Too many newspapers don't pay too much attention to the superficial gloss glazed across reality.

The odd polarity that leads really nowhere.

Just disruption frequency broadcast across the mainframe.

Stay deep.

Stay true to yourself, observed the wisdom within your fear and pray that you will meet your guides.