As I say, I aminloveandpeopleoftenwillsay, Wow, that's awesome.
Congratulationson I'm likeNo, no, no.
Like I amintheenergy I amintheessence.
I ambathingwithinthequalitythatisloveitself.
Yes, ofcourse.
I lovecompanionship.
I lovefallinginlovewithother.
That's a funexperience.
Buttorecognizethat I amactuallyheldbytheessenceofloveitself, thatis, I wouldsay, notonly a rareexperience, it's ananomalytothenorm, but I wouldassertitsActually, Whatwe'reallhereforistoawakentothefactthat I amheldbythecontaineroftheessenceofloveitself.
Anduntilsuchtimethat I getthat I willinvariablybeseekingitthroughtheyouknow, theadorationorthevalidationorthereassuranceofother, forwhichreason I willconstantlybedependentonwhattheydoorsaytothepointthateverythingisnowperceivedthreaton.
Forthatreason, I willbeperpetuallyin a stateofexhaustion, whichisreally a futilebattleformetoovercomethefactthat I believethatthere's fundamentallysomethingwrongwithmethat's notlovableonthereinlies, thebiggestpretenseofallthat I somehowbelievethatthereissomethingwrongwithmeon I'm lookingtotheexerciseoftheoutsideworldtocompensateforthatortoreassuremeotherwise, whichisagain.
It's a futileplightbecauseifthat's how I'vedefinedmyself, thenitdoesn't matterhowmanymillionsofpeoplemightlovemeuntilsuchtimethat I reallygetthatformyself.