My teenage years, I think the first woman I ever loved.

We had big break up and that breakup sent me down in depression and suicidal planning.

And it's tough to dispense advice to people other than get help.

And I'll share why?

Because that time in my life I had so many people coming up to me, you know, my friends would come into my dorm room.

Brennan.

Let's go do something and you just They're just the hope is lost.

And what people I think the mistake of trying to do is height people up.

Everything's gonna be okay.

Great.

The most important thing is when you are super down outside of finding that emotional reasoning for where you are is to start getting momentum because with momentum comes hope.

With momentum comes motivation.

With momentum comes, uh, you know, that feeling that there's a reason for tomorrow and so it's a simple is just saying, Okay, what are three things I'm gonna do today, dude, Sometimes that first goal is I'm gonna shower today.

I'm really in shower today.

Uh, I'm gonna walk to the library on, Come home on.

That's all they got way literally.

That's all they got.

And you gotta honor that struggle when you're in that place.

Like know that where you're at it is okay that you're there, and now you're gonna need help.

And now you're gonna have to set up some daily practices just everyday win a little bit.

Not like when your dreams not like, crush through goals.

Not like me.

That ass Not like no, just Momenta, man.

Mhm, gloomy and bad.

Dark days.

Trust that those are going to be there, they'll get less and less and less is you learn how to cope but they're gonna be there.

And so when they're there, it's one of the e outside of teaching people to bring the joy in my life e teach people honor the struggle Honor the difficulty when we honor the struggle instead of hate the struggle waken really achieve extraordinary things because our mindsets in the right place in your hands this very moment is your journey the journey that allows you to be someone fueled by your potential Take the risk that allow you to become something more that allow you to change your view on life that allow you to look through a different pair of eyes, one that grants you the power to see something.

And they know how to change it, to look at life as an opportunity, an opportunity to feel like somebody knew someone with the potential that can keep moving forward.

Set yourself your own rules.

Like why play by someone else's rules when you consent?

Rules that help you become the best version of yourself rules that don't hold you back but rules that pull you forward.

Be grateful for the position you're in and be grateful for the chance to give it one more go.

This opportunity could be wasted, but being here gives you the drive to put any effort for your future.

She's so many people, um hmm, stuff in the same routine and they hate it.

They hated they're not happy in life.

They're not happy with whatever they're doing.

You know, Andi, if you advise from me, if that's your lie right now, go find something else.

Just try.

Try something else out.

You know, if you're miserable in Alive and Andi, I've actually been miserable people, people can.

Naturally, even though they have everything, you know, you see super successful people in life, and you think there's no way they are miserable.

But that's that's not the case, you know, even though you are.

So it's also doing while you can still help about this.

I have gone through some very difficult times.

The ones with you, Andi lately.

In the last 23 years, I've been going through so very hard times so very, very hard times on board.

I haven't been very open about that.

Um, yeah, it's been very tough for me.

I e had to deal with some some some difficult things that I I couldn't control less life like I'm human like everyone else.

I have feelings.

I go through hardships like everyone else, and sometimes you put into difficult positions on that's life.

It's very unfair.

E The more things were talked about, more comfortable, we are, and the more we can understand them.

Uh, when I woke up one morning and saw that in a tweet that Prince Harry came out talking about his depression, it made me really happy because I have been places and someone who said, well you lost normal legs.

So you have the right to be depressed.

And I stopped him.

I was like, depression is really?

You don't You don't have to go through something traumatic.

Some are caused by you know, something traumatic.

Some could be a chemical balance in the brain.

And I feel like if you had heart problems and sorry, cardiologists, well, everyone will be concerned about you would know you're doing better.

And it would be open and honest with the crew Anybody you worked with, but the most complicated organ in your body If you have a problem with it, suddenly there's a We don't wanna talk about that.

No.

And you can get over it.

And that's what people need to realize you can be cured.

You can get past it.

Today is your day to tell your story to speak your mind.

To tell the truth about your future.

To speak about the power you've always had, the potential you've always had.

This is how you succeed.

You will be your power.

You have this power.

Communicate your problems, communicate the power You know that you have.

This is the beginning of your power.

The start of your progress Take every day as an opportunity to be better every day toe Have the power to try something new to become something new.

This is where your progress can be.

Kick started.

Accelerate your life into your direction Now isn't the time to wait Now isn't the time toe waste Let this be the power that takes you towards your success.

This is the opportunity you've earned.

This is the potential you've always had.

Step out of the crowd and step into your success.

E would lay in my bed on Just want to die e didn't want to exist.

I wanted to anesthesiologist to come and give me a shot Like my soul was just on e At the time, I was in a belief system where there was an afterlife and so that wasn't possible.

You couldn't get you couldn't be gone.

You were around forever, no matter what you did.

And in fact, if you took your life, you you're not behaving in a way that this belief system, you know, reward you.

And so I was trapped in existence and it was the worst feeling the entire world.

But I had no out but not only that, I had kids, so I had, like, I felt responsible for being a father on.

So I was building Braintree on, you know, I had challenges at home with my significant other on.

I had kids who are sleeping.

I was myself 24 7, having companies break and like, all the pressure and just drove me into the ground to a point, I just I was just delirious.

I mean, I was broke.

Um, I climbed Mount Kilimanjaro at the tail end of the situation and I got sick.

I got a stomach virus and, like, three or four days and I had the virus through a couple days.

Plus, I was out.

I was sick with altitude sickness on.

I just felt terrible, like the worst I've ever felt.

And we got to base camp.

There were 15,000 something and e had to make a decision where I'm gonna climb to the top of the next morning.

And I thought still it I'm not going to back down from this.

And so I did it.

And the four hours the sum.

It changed my life where the mountain became my problem and it became a representation of my life.

And I start listening to Eminem, my favorite artist, and his his defiance against the problems.

Anyways, I e committed to the top, and I just broke down and cried.

And it was It was the mountain was my depression.

It was my marriage.

Um, it was my belief system on, um mm.

I went home and I was changed.

I sold.

I sold my company shortly after Braintree.

I got a divorce.

I left my religion and I was back at my 21 year old age.

And I said, What am I like What?

How did I rewrite myself from scratch?

What I care about what matters, what exists.

What's true.

It's not true, E.