Yeah, we need to, okay, so basically we went to London over christmas and we made, that's what I just said, Michelle, jesus, christ made it shocking discover.

Let's be careful.

All right, it's a very nice color.

Anyway, we're here to bring the good word to America like missionaries of a religion that there's no such thing as being an alcoholic in England, there's just constant day drinking.

It's like you start in the morning and then you have, and then you just sit at the table and talk for an entire day.

need European to bring back breakfast wine to America wine wine.

We saw little old ladies drinking a huge pint of beer 11 am inspiring.

We just need to be more european is my thought, Michelle, be a little careful, it's kind of wow, wow Michelle, why don't you tell us the origin of party emoji?

That's a tough, that's a tough oh, okay, here we go.

It's embarrassing.

It's not my proudest moment.

Anyway, so, uh, and I actually went to a pride event and I saw my ex there and she was with her current partner and she had unfollowed me on instagram a few years back and so later that night I was and watching the show modern love getting really ignited about it, really just angry about it and then I started messaging messaging her on instagram, which was, you know, not a great decision, but it was best for her and she was not responding?

So and I could see that it said see so I was like how dare you, what happened?

How dare?

And she was like after 20 and same message as she was like hey sorry I was getting ready for bed like oh and I was like all good and then I sent um party emojis, a bunch of party emojis in a row, just party party party party emoji.

I screamed kappas and sent it to these gobs and they were like oh like I can't lie.

That was like a very cringe conversation at the moment.

So then ever since then it's been known as a party emoji moment and I know we've all had party emoji moments.

I mean obviously except for melissa because this bit was married to her high school sweetheart has never had an ax in her entire life, she doesn't have an X.

Good for you Melissa, good for you Melissa Melissa just had one guy was like this is it?

I'm one and done one and done one and one and one and done.

Oh okay now what about you?

What about your party emoji story?

Leo would ever reach out to N.

X.

Wow.

Hey baby girl, what you are you texting josh?

Yes baby girl.

Actually do you think we should just drive by his house?

Hey guys you'll see what are you doing, are you naked?

Oh my God Okay.

Oh look at that.

Oh God, I gotta go, go, Go, Go, go, go, go, go, go, go, go, go, go, go, No, no.

Okay.

Yeah.

I've reached out to a lot of, a lot of them.

But you know what?

My therapist actually was talking to my therapist recently about what it means to like reach out to people from your past and why we do that.

And she had like really articulate and good advice.

What is it?

Hi wise.

Everyone is everything okay?

Your text messages sounded urgent.

Well, we were talking about exes and why we reach out to them and, and I remember you just have this very sage advice that I can't quite articulate in the same way to get it.

She forgot.

Well sometimes we have to go back to the well to know that it's dry.

The well really symbolizes our mother wounds.

And even though we know that this well or this relationship doesn't nourish us anymore.

It's just simple human nature to periodically need to check to make sure and remember.

Oh, mm hmm.

Yeah, finger looking good.

Oh man.

So it has nothing to do with whether or not we're like a good or a bad person.

And if we send party emojis, no, this is all part of the spectrum of the human grief experience as you're processing something.

It's not a linear path.

The stages of grief are one framework for looking at a past relationship, but it's not a straight line, it curves it exit flows well, I love you so much.

Thank you.

Thank you.

Thank you.

I feel so regulated already.

You can call me any time.

See you next.

Therapy to understanding Refreshing Breakfast one cannot wait to have my therapy appointment tomorrow.

It's like cause all your issues with your the one dude that you've known forever.

What are you doing?

one you texting Jeff?

No.

Is she texting Jeff girl?

Give me, give me that.

Give me that.

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