? ? But I'm not a good liar, this couple thinks too much ? ? Blurred my vision till I can't see the ? ? Last mistake, the choice I made ? ? Staring in the mirror, myself to blame ? ? Sometimes I'm afraid of the thoughts inside ? ? Nowhere to hide inside my mind ? ? I'm here to make sure, compare ? ? And I'll look alive to our past revenge ? ? I step and gasp myself to death ? ? I resist at every step ? ? What if my words are meaningless? ? ? What if my heart's misleading this? ? ? I try to capture every moment as it comes to me ? ? Bottle up your memories and let them keep me company ? ? I'm here to make sure, compare ? ? And I'll look alive to our past revenge ? ? I'm here to make sure, compare ? ? For the love of morning stars to find in me ? ? I don't care what darkness of the day will bring ? ? And the call of morning makes me want to fight ? ? I cannot be given in tonight ? ? When I'm old and gray or flirty ? ? Or whatever happens first ? ? I'll need you to reassure me ? ? I do waste on words ? ? Or worse, what if my life's worth reduced to just myself? ? ? I'd never let you get a word in ? ? While I dissect my mental health ? ? Or lack thereof, whatever it is ? ? Too many things to check ? ? I really can't remember if I'm insane or if I'm the act ? ? And now these all the kids want crazy ? ? Wanna diagnose them so ? ? Straight up, made up epidemics pass around ? ? Prescription pills ? ? The night is shorter, can't be cured ? ? But I've got a plan ? ? I'm done with all this disgusting selfishness ? ? Time to hold me all to be close ? ? But I don't wanna let you see that ? ? I don't want my friends to know ? ? How disgusting selfishness ? ? Can take me everywhere I go ? ? When the fog of morning starts to find in me ? ? I don't tell a darkness how to find in me ? ? And the fog of morning makes me wonder why ? ? That I will not be given time ? ? Try as I might to keep it together ? ? Why is recovery taking forever? ? ? Fool the whole world just until I get better ? ? I'm terrified I'll be faking forever ? ? On and on, I wonder what went wrong inside my head ? ? I don't have to have the answers, but to know ? ? I wish I did ? ? All's plain I can't explain the way you won't fade ? ? All the secrets found by the shame ? ? Don't make me say it ? ? Don't make me say it ? ? Don't make me say it ? ? Don't make me say it ? ? Don't make me say it ? ? Don't make me say it ? ? Don't make me say it ? ? And the hope of morning starts to fade in me ? ? I don't dare let darkness have its way with me ? ? And the hope of morning makes me worth the fight ? ? I will not be giving in tonight ?