I have this urge, I have this urge to kill, I have this urge to kill and show that I'm alive I'm getting sick from these apologies from people with priorities that they're like, that is so much more than mine But I'm shuddering, I'm shuddering again, no one will listen and no one will understand Because suffering is contagious because no one likes me when I shrink, want to go back to when it all began So I flash the thought, to stay undone, I got this headache and my lips on the line I felt like I won, but I wasn't done, they're never ending since I've been pretend Got to keep on going, and carry on, so you'll wake up and the sun will shine But I'm not so strong, and I'm not gone, they're still out there to take what's left of mine