On March 7th, around 5 o'clock in the morning, I safely arrived to Moscow with several project ideas in my head.

But on March 9th, Thursday morning, after being in Russia for two days, my brother texted me and told me that my father had suddenly passed away.

I collapsed in my room.

I came back to Taiwan the summer of 2013 from the U.S.

I didn't really find any job that I liked, so I had no choice but to create one on my own.

In the beginning, my father was always concerned about my YouTube gig.

Lack of views and income allowed him to raise many doubts about my choice.

Lucky enough, I was able to grow my channel gradually and found a way to finance it.

I knew this day would come, maybe 10 years from now when I visit him with my future wife and kids at the hospital, telling him how much I love them.

You know, the typical cliche.

Two days before going to Russia, I had some visa issues, so I was very anxious about the trip.

When he came to talk to me on Sunday night, I completely ignored him.

The conversation didn't last more than 20 seconds.

On the following Monday, I thought about going to say goodbye to him before leaving, but

I didn't want to be late.

I figured I could just tell him about Russia when I came back.

And that's my point of this video.

The way we spend our time defines who we are.

For the last three and a half years, I did only one thing, which was stop kidding.

I'm a workaholic who shoots, edits, does everything by myself.

I gave everything I had to Stop Kidding Studio.

I never really wanted to spend more time with my dad, because my dad and I were always bumping heads and because I always thought I still had time.

While I was so busy building the SESCAS family, I completely left my own family behind.

My dad's past taught me how I should appreciate things while I can, and that is also one of the very same reasons why I do what I do, to remind people how great Taiwan is and to appreciate it.

I don't regret the things I've done.

I regret the things I didn't do when I had the chance.

My dad used his death to show me that there's nothing more important than family.

In conclusion, I have to apologize to my dad and you guys, even though I didn't have enough time to finish filming everything I wanted to do in Russia, but I would try to put whatever

I shot together in the next few weeks.

Also, I have to thank Alina, Valerie, and Sainshel for being my angels.

After we realized that I had to fly back to Taiwan immediately, they tried everything to help me to interview as many people as we can in the last few hours so I wouldn't go home with nothing.

So please take time today to appreciate someone who does something you take for granted.

I was checking my dad's wallet the other day and I found my card.

I was told that he would give it to whoever he met.