My name is Billie Eilish.

Billie Eilish.

Billie Eilish.

Billie Eilish.

Billie Eilish.

Billie Eilish.

I'm Billie Eilish.

I'm looking at all the frozen years past.

Love you all.

I'm Billie Eilish.

I think it's October 18th.

It's October 18th.

October 18th.

I'm 15.

16.

17.

18.

19.

20.

21.

I'm 22.

This is the first year in my life that I keep forgetting how old I am.

257,000.

6.3 million.

40.7.

67.5.

94.1 million followers.

106.

About 110.

120 million.

Another year.

Seven years.

This is the eighth video, right?

But it was seven years ago today that we started this.

We didn't put out a video last year.

It's true.

A big, big year.

Just the whole, the whole Barbie thing.

Swarm.

Tour.

I finally played Brazil.

Labyrinth.

Yep, live at the O2.

Yeah, Coachella.

Bad guy.

Went diamond.

I'm back on my bullshit.

I want to do more.

What does that mean, I want to do more?

Wow, I was like yelling.

I've spent a lot of time in the last, like, this summer looking at videos and photos from, like, this month.

Since then, so much has happened.

It's nonsense.

I have the most monthly listeners right on Spotify in the entire world.

So I surpassed 100 million monthly listeners.

And then now I am the most streamed artist in the world on Spotify.

I released my album.

Went on tour again.

I made so many new friends.

Adopted another dog.

It's been a friendship-filled year.

I and Phineas won an Oscar for, what was I made for?

I can't even really describe how amazing that was.

And then it was like we were the youngest people in history to win two or something crazy.

Ooh, did I predict it?

Am I gonna win the Oscar?

I don't know.

We're manifesting, but we're also not gonna be disappointed and angry if I don't.

And I do think, objectively, it is one of the best songs I've ever made.

I don't, I think it's crazy that we would win again.

Again.

Yeah, I kind of can't believe that happened again.

I feel proud of it and I'm proud to have made it.

Proud that it is of me.

I want to rescue some horses.

Maybe skydive.

Like a bungee jump off a cliff or something.

I really want to do stuff like that.

Things that I could die because of.

I want to adventure so bad.

I do want to skydive.

Haven't done that yet.

Be doing racing.

Be doing stunt driving.

I definitely want some more piercings.

I want some more tattoos.

Another dog.

Be hanging out with your family.

Be making new friends.

Be having new friends.

Be having good...

...sex.

Got there.

I've done nothing but make friends all year and...

...gotten so close with people that I wasn't with before and...

...became friends with people I used to be friends with again and...

...just like...

It's just been a year filled with friendship which honestly...

...even though I was saying a lot of things that I want to do...

...that was the real...

...that was like the thing that I wanted to do.

And I really did it and it was awesome.

And yes, I've had a lot of good sex.

So, you're welcome, Billy.

I want you to have fixed the little chip.

You can see it.

2018.

Did it to me.

And when I'm smiling, my tooth is so ugly.

Whiten those suckers.

I'll let have you know, Miss Red Hair, that I chipped another tooth.

So not only did I not fix the other chip, but I also chipped another one.

So now I have a chip here and a chip here.

I also remember really wanting me at that time to fix this little gap as well.

And...

I'm in the process.

Okay.

God.

Hopefully, keep doing what you're doing because I hope that what you're doing is...

...good.

Don't do that thing again where you...

...just do what somebody else wants to do.

We're not going to let somebody...

...take away my sparkle, as they say.

Solid advice.

And I haven't done that.

That really has stuck in my head.

And I think that I used to pretend like I was doing that.

But I think, since then, I really have been doing that.

And I don't...

I'm really...

I really trust myself.

And I think, like, especially that 2022 girl.

I don't think, like, I trusted her.

So I really trust myself now.

And I'm not going to let any of that stuff happen again.

And it hasn't happened again.

And I've been very cautious about that.

And it's always scary when you, you know, fall in love.

Or you're, you know, seeing someone.

Or you like someone.

Or whatever it is.

And it's hard to know what the hell is going on.

Because you're kind of blinded by this, like, curtain of, like, you know, lust.

And love and admiration.

So I was very cautious.

And have been cautious.

I'm currently cautious.

And I've been really a good girl.

So, not disappointing you.

I promise.

Brockhampton.

Tierra Whack.

Techno.

Arlo Parks.

The Doe.

Cake.

The Cardigans.

Dora.

You Know Who.

And then also...

Me.

Deftones.

A lot of Deftones.

Mazzy Star.

This album called Sunburn by Dominic Fike.

Honestly, I've been listening to a lot of Lady Gaga.

Like, old Lady Gaga.

It's so good.

Alejandro.

And Poker Face.

And G.E.Y.

And Born This Way.

Fruitvale Station.

I Origins.

Ferris Bueller's Day Off is a solid choice.

Sicario.

That shit is fire.

Fruitvale Station.

That movie's fucking fire, though.

It's a great movie.

But Secretary.

I feel really good about it.

I think we're, like, 85% done.

Maybe 90.

It's very genuinely, like, what I wanted to make, I think.

It's true.

Like, it was just such a drag.

It was so punishing.

But I feel like it is the best thing that I've—

Phineas and I have ever made.

And I'm so endlessly proud of it.

Like, you don't even know.

I used to have this feeling with my music.

Like, I liked it, but I was kind of embarrassed for people that I thought were cool to listen to it.

Like, anytime somebody that I thought was really cool said they listened to my song,

I'd get all embarrassed and nervous and kind of frustrated and annoyed, honestly.

I'd be like, no, don't listen to that.

Like, that's private.

And I think I wasn't as proud of it.

And I think that now, in my life and where I am in my career,

I really stand for my music.

Like, I feel really proud of it.

There's this one song called Lunch that I think people might like a lot.

There's a song called Birds of a Feather.

Damn, I'm giving you titles.

Whoa.

My prediction then, that I don't know why I didn't even say, but it was what I was thinking then, was I thought Lunch would be the hit, but I also remember being like, but watch, Birds of a Feather is going to end up being the real hit.

Lunch was, like, big when this album came out.

And then, Birds...

Birds is number one.

Lowest point of the year was probably in January.

I had a meeting with, like, my managers and stuff.

They were showing me the schedule for the whole year.

And I sat there and was totally silent and totally still and just tears, like, just streamed down my face.

That was a horrible, horrible day.

Gosh.

I mean, you know, I was, like, had just turned 17 and life was seeming very daunting and ended up being even more intense than I ever cried about.

If I had really known how it would all go,

I would have been bawling my eyes out for days, but also I would have been excited at the same time.

The reason I was crying in that story is because I was looking at my touring schedule and it was, like, you know, it's horrifying to see your life planned out like that two years in advance.

It's, like, especially for, like, a little girl,

I wish that I hadn't had to deal with that, but also, like, my life's fucking awesome and I'm really lucky at the same time.

Touring used to be something that was extremely unpleasant and I would dread it and I would only dread it.

And the only reason I, you know, did it at all was because I love performing and I always have.

And even when I dreaded those tours and, you know, hated the whole process,

I loved performing at the end of the day.

I had this moment, like, a year ago or two, a year ago, I think, where I was kind of like, touring doesn't have to be miserable and I don't have to just sit through it and take it.

I can make it fun.

I mean, I'm the fucking boss, for God's sake.

And I sat down with my touring team and I was like, let's figure out all the ways to make this fun because this is my job and it's my life and I want to keep doing it and I don't want to, you know, be so tortured by it that I end up never doing it again because I'm resentful of, you know.

And so I've created a, you know, surrounding that is just, like, joyous and filled with laughter and love.

And for the first time in my life, once again, the words are coming out of my mouth that are,

I wish this tour would never end.

Ugh.

I do have a concert tonight, yeah, and I had one last night and the night before that and tomorrow I'm on SNL.

Three show nights in a row is, like, a lot, but it's okay.

It was at the Crocodile in Seattle and it was, like, 500, I think.

Was that me saying that was my biggest show?

Wow.

It's impossible to try to, you know, take in and acknowledge even.

I mean, it's so, I can't really think about it too much because it'll make me cry and then it'll also give me an existential crisis, but I can't believe the way my life has gone and where it is now.

I mean, it's just, like, the craziest fucking thing in the world.

No one.

You listeners don't understand how unpleasant it is to collaborate with people.

It is not a fun experience.

The back-to-back.

Oh.

I mean, it's Charli, though, but it's Charli.

Also, like, Charli and I did this collab in, like, the greatest way possible, like, my ideal way, where, you know, she put out her amazing album,

Guess was on the extended version, and I heard it because somebody posted it because it came out, and I remember being like, hot, wow, such a hot song.