I went to make Q&A video with my mom

because it's something we've done before and

I think people like seeing how

great she is with dealing with me being gay

and just even being silly like how normal our relationship is and how awesome our relationship is

and I think people really

get a lot of hope from that and anyways we went to make another video

half way through recording the video my camera ran out of room

so I'm deleting stuff from it and in the middle of that me and my mom just started to have

a conversation

a pretty personal conversation and

she didn't know but I started recording a part of it

and um it's pretty emotional

but uh

I couldn't spread a better message than

what she said and I think

I dont know

it's just.. I'm amazed that that's my mom

and I'm so proud that she's my mom and I just think

it's something a lot of people will benefit from hearing

so even though it's super personal

I decided I'm gonna upload it

so here it is

We've got a better relationship than anyone else

Well I mean I felt so bad for you when you called me that time and you're like \"I've got everything going for me. I'm smart and I'm pretty and

people like me\" but I've got this thing about me and

you know I was like you don't have a thing, everybody has a thing

it doesn't matter you know. I was trying to make you feel like

that's nothing you know that's just everybody has a thing

and that's just a thing. It doesn't define anything about you. You know?

You're perfect just the way you are.

You know?

You're the best.

You are. You're just like a perfect girl. All that stuff, it doesn't matter. Why do people care about that?

Why are people so involved with your life that they've got to like, make that a big deal.

What is the big deal? Why do they care?

It's not a big deal.-me I know it's not - mom

and people don't get that. I don't think people get that unless

like if somebody has somebody in their life

you know that has that, I mean then they start to get it.

But it's like, until they are in that situation. Some people are just so close minded that they are like

nope this is how it is! and you know,

and it's like no that's not how it is. That's not how it has to be.

We'll teach em' - me But I mean yeah it's getting better and I think it's kind of cool that - mom

you do your

videos. And I mean some people in your situation commit suicide I mean and

then it's over for them and they can't change that

you know then it's done and if you let them know that

yes you're in a bad place, I was in that bad place

you know I felt the same way

What way do I have out of this? But it's like if you just

go with it and get comfortable with yourself and

you know you'll get to a point where you're like, this is okay

you know it doesn't matter - mom yeah it's true - me

but you know some people don't make it to that part

They commit suicide or just

I mean hopefully they get to that and can get past that and don't do that

Mac wants them to make it too

I just feel awful that there are people out there, GOOD people out there in that spot

and then they do that to themselves

and it's like, that didn't have to be that way you know? or other issues, whatever people deal with

that make

you know young people get to the point where they might kill themselves

they don't understand, this can change.

it's like I read that book, It Get's Better

if they don't make it there then you don't know

you don't have the chance to get passed that. If you just think there's no end, there's no way out of this

and that's your choice then you don't have a way to get beyond that and say

Wow, it could be okay and I

can actually be happy.- mom It's so easy to fall into that -me

yeah I mean if you feel trapped

like with you being able to talk to these people

it gives them hope that, Oh wow there's someone who was in my shoes

And she worked through that, and look how happy she is now.

It gives them the opportunity to see, that's not my only option.

My options are wide open.

yeah

what's it like having the best daughter ever

I don't know you'd have to ask my mother.