I feel like I like, briefly touch on this topic sometimes but like I'm too afraid to like talk too much about it

because like I don't think it's a real problem but I guess just like my own level of dependency

I like guess I feel like bad that I'm, like I've gotten to be like very dependent

Are you scared of it?

Well, I'm not used to it [laughing]

yeah

I like factor you in to like almost all my decisions that I make, which is really weird

We had this issue with study abroad

Yeah

No it makes sense

I mean, you know that I, this is new to me too and I'd tell you like every minute of our first couple of months

Like, you terrify me

I know

I'm getting used to it, I think I'm getting better

Yeah, you're good, you're good

But it's like hard

Yeah

Do we have enough sex? No

[laughing]

I'm sorry. Do we have enough sex?

Thanks for letting me answer the question

No, answer it, answer it

No, I don't think we do

We're also really tired and busy lately, which I understand

But like, I feel like it's not because

But I try

[laughing]

How do you think the fact that I was adopted influences our relationship?

It does. I don't think it does on a large scale but I think like what happened last night

Yeah

is a prime example of like how things that I I mean I, I think it's more, I need to be more aware of what I say

It's just hard, no one understands

Well it's part of it. I know that I can't, I know that I can try but I never really will be able to

Yeah

And I think that's like, it's hard for me because I like want to be able to help you

Yeah

But there's only so much I can understand

Yeah

So...

It's okay

Who sacrifices more in our relationship?

And how do you feel about it?

Well I feel like I do

like for sure

I agree

Like I definitely do

My life has changed a lot compared to like before we like really started dating and now are dating

But I know that no one made me do that, you know what I mean?

Yeah. What can I do to even it out?

I wish you would sacrifice more but also don't want you to do it because I told you to

Like I want it to be natural to you in the way that it is to me

But I think like part of it is I can't take care of you the way

you take care of me when like I'm in your home. And I don't ever wanna ask you to

be somewhere that you feel uncomfortable in but like

I wish it could be more equal. But once again like I don't want you to be there

and like not be happy because I know you like your way, and like how your life is set up.

I'm just like, I'm super like OCD

Exactly!

and my apartment is really clean, and yours isn't.

[laughing] I know! But I also

And like it has nothing to do, like I love you

But that's okay, but I'm just saying like, I feel like obviously outside there's stuff I can do

but the things you do in your apartment, when you take care of me. When you cook for me,

when you like offer me any of your clothes

Like I can't even do that for you.

Yeah

Because there's just like no space in which

I agree with that but I still think there are other ways

I think there are other ways I can, yeah, no I agree

And like, I just definitely, sometimes feel like kinda lame because like,

I just like would do anything for you, like really, like mostly anything

[laughing] You know?

Aw

Do you want to marry me?

Yeah. But like I'm terrified of the answer

That's a fast answer!

Huh?

You were like "yeah!"

I mean didn't I just say?

Yeah! Yeah!

I mean like one day, like, 7 years from now? Like

7...

Can you wait that long? [laughing]

Why? Do you think you'll marry me?

Yeah, for sure.

I can't imagine like, not...I don't know. Yeah, for sure, definitely.