John had everything going for him.

約翰一切都很順利

He had just signed the contract

他剛剛簽了一個合同

to sell his New York apartment

以6位數的價格

at a six-figure profit,

賣掉了他在紐約

and he'd only owned it for five years.

僅僅買了五年的公寓

The school where he graduated from with his master's

他碩士畢業的母校

had just offered him a teaching appointment,

剛剛提供給他了一個教職

which meant not only a salary,

這個教職不僅意味著一份薪水

but benefits for the first time in ages.

還有多年以來頭一次的福利

And yet, despite everything going really well for John,

然而，即使所有事情看起來都很順利

he was struggling,

約翰仍然在掙扎中

fighting addiction and a gripping depression.

與他的成癮和無法掙脫的抑鬱鬥爭

On the night of June 11th, 2003,

2003年6月11日的夜晚

he climbed up to the edge

他爬上了曼哈頓大橋

of the fence on the Manhattan Bridge

欄杆的邊緣

and he leaped to the treacherous waters below.

縱身一躍跳入了莫測的河水中

Remarkably --

奇怪的是

no, miraculously --

不，奇蹟般的是

he lived.

他生還了

The fall shattered his right arm,

這一跳摔碎的他的右臂

broke every rib that he had,

他的所有肋骨都斷掉了

punctured his lung,

還刺穿了他的肺

and he drifted in and out of consciousness

他在清醒跟昏迷中晃蕩

as he drifted down the East River,

沿著東河向下漂

under the Brooklyn Bridge

穿過布魯克林大橋

and out into the pathway of the Staten Island Ferry,

進入了斯塔騰島渡輪的水道

where passengers on the ferry

渡輪上

heard his cries of pain,

聽到了他痛苦的叫喊

contacted the boat's captain

乘客們聯繫了船長

who contacted the Coast Guard

船長聯繫上了海岸警衛隊

who fished him out of the East River

警衛隊把約翰打撈上來

and took him to Bellevue Hospital.

送到Bellevue醫院。

And that's actually where our story begins.

事實上，這只是故事的開始。

Because once John committed himself

因為當約翰決心要

to putting his life back together --

重新開始他的生活之後——

first physically, then emotionally,

先是身體上，然後是情感上，

and then spiritually --

再然後是精神上——

he found that there were very few resources available

他發現很難找到資源來幫助

to someone who has attempted to end their life

自己這樣的

in the way that he did.

試圖過自殺的人

Research shows

研究表明

that 19 out of 20 people

在試圖自殺的

who attempt suicide

20個人中

will fail.

19個會失敗

But the people who fail

但是這些失敗的人

are 37 times more likely to succeed

在第二次嘗試的時候

the second time.

有37倍於從前的可能性會成功

This truly is

這些人毫無疑問

an at-risk population

是處於危險中的人群

with very few resources to support them.

並且只有極少的資源來幫助他們

And what happens

這樣

when people try to assemble themselves back into life,

當自殺過一次的人們試圖重新開始人生的時候

because of our taboos around suicide,

因為我們對於自殺的忌諱

we're not sure what to say,

我們不知道該說些什麼

and so quite often we say nothing.

所以大部分時候，我們就對這件事一言不發

And that furthers the isolation

這就加深了像約翰一樣的人

that people like John found themselves in.

陷入的隔離環境

I know John's story very well

我對約翰的故事非常了解

because I'm John.

因為我，就是這個約翰

And this is, today,

今天，這是

the first time in any sort of public setting

我第一次在任何形式的公開場合

I've ever acknowledged

談起我

the journey that I have been on.

經過的這段旅程

But after having lost a beloved teacher in 2006

但是，我在2006年失去了一個親愛的老師

and a good friend last year to suicide,

在去年又出去了一個好朋友，都是因為自殺之後

and sitting last year at TEDActive,

還有去年參加TEDActive（行動）會議

I knew that I needed to step out of my silence

我意識到我需要從我自己的沉默中走出來

and past my taboos

突破我自己的忌諱

to talk about an idea worth spreading --

來談論這個值得散播的觀點——

and that is that people

那就是這些

who have made the difficult choice

作出艱難的決定

to come back to life

開始重新生活的人們

need more resources and need our help.

需要更多的支持資源，以及我們的幫助

As the Trevor Project says, it gets better.

就像Trevor項目所說的，一切都在變好

It gets way better.

一切都會變很好

And I'm choosing to come out

並且我今天也算是出櫃

of a totally different kind of closet today

一個不一樣的櫃

to encourage you, to urge you,

就是為了鼓勵你們，敦促你們

that if you are someone

如果你曾經

who has contemplated or attempted suicide,

考慮過，或者嘗試過自殺

or you know somebody who has,

或者你認識考慮過或者嘗試過自殺的人

talk about it; get help.

談談這個問題，尋求幫助

It's a conversation worth having

這是一個值得進行的談話

and an idea worth spreading.

一個值得散播的觀點

Thank you.

謝謝

(Applause)

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