And I waslike, No, I reallywanttomakesurethisisperfectandhow I wantedtolook, youknow, Soaboutthesongs I puteverythingoutandinmyheadtherewerecertainsongslike, I hopethisonepops.
I hopethisonepopsandthere's certainsongsonthe E P that I onlyputontherefor, like, mylittlelikeartisticflair.
Like I wantedpeopletobelike, Oh, cool, Like, youknow, hewritesmusiclikethat.
He's only, like, 15 toandagain, I hopeheplaysforwhat?
Hewasplayingsmallroomsatthetime.
No, I mean, hewasplaying.
Hewasplayinglike a like a tentedstagewherepeoplelikelovinghimthen, Yeah, peopleworriedpeople.
I don't know.
I feellikehewasbiggerbackthenthanheisnow, Butnowhe's directingChrisRockspecial.
Howcrazyisthat?
I don't thinkso.
Proudofhimforthat.
I wouldonlyknowaboutthatbecauseyouposteditseriously.
Thatmakesmesohappy.
SomedudeactuallycameuptomeatDelilah, and I waslike, Hey, I'm gonnabetotallyhonestwithyou.
I couldn't givelessof a aboutyouoryourmusic, Anythinghe's like, I reallydon't care.
He's like.
But I thinkyou'resodopethatyouwatchRickandMortyandBoBurnhamandNathanFielderand, likeallhe's like, that's reallysick.
And I waslike, ThankyouthinkBut I waslikeandwetalkedfor, like, anhourand I waslike, Thankyou, thisreallydopeHewaslike, Yeah, I alwaystrytofindgirlsthatarelikeintoevenevenyouwatchanythingforyou.
I havewatchedyoulike I loveNathanFielderhurls I heardthat's howhejustis.
Justtakesthecakeforme, though I justthinkhe's solikehejustpushestheenvelope, butinlikebecause I feellike a lotofcomedianspushingawful, buttheycangooffensivereallyeasily, youknow, liketheycouldjustswayontheoffensiveside.
I'llhave a bruiseonhisfacebecausehewasatFightClubandthebosswillhavecut, youknow, sojustkindoflikecold D andit's it's reallyyoushouldjustwatchitjustforthelike.
Sohowdoesthatrelatetothissong, though?
Becausebecauseit's likesayinglike, I'm inlovewithTylerDirtAndthat's whynoneoftheeverworking I'm inlovewith a fantasythathe's notreally.
I'm inlovewithsomethingthatthey'reinlovewith a fakecharacterthatdoesn't existinrealize.
But I feellikethatguy.
That's manythingslike, I thinkyou'reinlovewithBoBurnham, butwe'remakingtimeinlovewithIshewithsomeone I don't thinkhelikedpubliclysaysthatheisoryouwillbemarried.
Five.
Wannasayhe's withsomebodythatbreaksmyheart, butlikeheplays a character, you'reinlovewiththecharacteryou'reinlovewith a heightenedversionofhistrueself, 100% definitelyinlovewithlikehisstagepersonaandlikehiswholeweirdstickthathedoes.
But I alsolovethathe's justsoadvanced, likehe's soadvancedcausehe's a youngstill, right?
Yes, 2025 young, Yeah, for a longtime.
Yes, hehasyouknow.
Yeah, andmakehappy.
Hemightbe 26 now.
Doesitmakehappy?
Hehas a lineon a songwhenhe's like, I knowallaboutlove.
I justturned 25.
Yeah, looking.
Buthe's just a geniuslikeyou.
A lotofyouknow, everything.
I'm notkidding.
I knowthat I lovehimsomuch, Myfriend.
Myfriend's dadisJuddApatow.
Andshelike, hethrew a wholecomedythingon a littleDid I knowBowasperformingandthen I metupwithherandmyotherfriendthatwenttotheshowandtheywerelike, Yeah, therewasreallycoolpeoplethere.
Thisone, thatone.
Whatever.
BoBurnham.
I waslikewhat I waslike, Whydidn't noonetellmethathewasperformingin L.
Actuallylookedlikenotesinmyphonenametitlesthat I wasgonnagowithitasyouplease, as I pleaseIsshepleases, aswepleasetogetherandunison e tryingtofigureitout.
Andwhen I firstpitchedittomyteam, theywerelike, itsoundsreallysexual.
I waslike, Doesit?
I waslike, I don't know, I didn't takeit.
Isthattome?
Itwasmoreoflike, youknow, I wantpeopletoknowunderstandaboutme, Isthatlike, I wassignedveryyoung, and I wasforcedtogrowupveryyoung, and I was, youknow, like I hadtobeindependentonmyown.
For a longtime, I'vebeenlivingbymyselfwithnofamilyin l.
A.
So I waslike, 16 like, youknow, I meanlike I havehadtogrowupreallyfast, and I justwantpeopletounderstandthat, like, I wasputin a boxat a reallyyoungagethat I knew I wasmorethanand I knewthat I coulddosomuchmore.
I wasmorecapableofcertainthingsthat I wasn't beingallowedto d'ohbecauseoftheblocksthat I wasputin.
Sowhen I brokeoutofit, finally I waslike, Youknowwhat?
No, I mean, when I gotsigned, I wasjustmakingmusicthat I wastoldtomakebasically, and I was, youknow, like I said, likeputinthislittleboxofpopandthings I cansaythings I can't sayhow I coulddress, how I couldactAnd I feltlike I wasjustbeingsocontrolled.
Andwhen I brokeoutofthat, ittookme a whiletofindmysoundandfindthingsthat I wasproudof.
I'vemadeprobablyatleastfivealbums.
I'm notgettingwiththeamountofsongsthat I haveundermybeltatthispoint.
But, youknow, goingfrom 15 to 19 yearsold, yougrow a lotof a humanbeingregardlessofanartist.
Sobeingunderthespotlightorhavingpeoplewatchingeverything I do, it's beenlike, reallyhardtojustfindmyselfandfindthesoundthat I wantedtogoforcausemymusictasteisalsosoallovertheplace.
Andthen I gotintothestudiofor a fewmonthsand I foundit.
Andwhatwouldyousayyoursonwas?
Becauseeverysongonthe E P has a differentsound?
No, Yeah, totally.
I just I trytoadd, likemydark, weirdlikeelementstoit, likeinmysongTeenagerinLove.
It's a fifties, obviouslyinspiredsong, buteveninthebridgelikegetsdarkerandhas, likeitslittlemomentandwhatever.
But, ah, I don't know.
I feellikemysoundisit's justme.
I don't evenwanttosayitsoundslikeanyoneelsebecause I feellikeit's.
I trytojustdothingsthataredifferent, likeTylerdirtandliketheinspobehindthatwassleepwalkbySantoandJohnny, whichis, like, I think, alsofromthefifties.
Andthenthere's thisothersongthat I actuallysawonVineyearsagothat's calledlike I wanttowalkaroundinyourmindsomedayandit's such a simplesongandit's justonestrumof a guitar.
I thinkthisissuch a coolwaytomake a sign.
I thinkthisissorarethesedaysandwithout, likealltheproductionandthisandthatandlikethetrapbeatsfine.
And I waslike, I'm justgonnado a simplesongthat's kindofdoesn't reallygoanywhere.
Juststayslikeonenote.
That's howTylerDurdencamealong.
I likeTylerDurdenit.
It's a reallygreatwriter.
That's likemyfavoriteone.
It's myfavorite.
Wanttoperformtolive?
I dosomethingverycoolwithitandyou'llseeTeenagerinlove.
There's noHoneymoonAvenueinspirationthatArianaGrande A song.
Yeah, sheinspiresme, period.
I mean, doesitdothisonsomewhere?
I wasinthehoneymoon.
Haven't evensolong.
I lovethatsong a littlebit.
Sounlesssomethingislike, subconsciously, I totallycouldhavebeen, likechannelingyourYeah, definitely.
And I loveAriannaand I people, like, saythat I soundlikehersometimes.
Whichmakesmesohappy.
I thinkshe's themosttalentedpersonever, but, umlikethat's notaninsult.
That's a compliment.
No, I know, anditmakesmesohappytohearthat.
But I just I neverwantanyonetothink I'm copyinganyone.
I thinkit's okaytopullinspirationbecauseeveryonepullinspirationfromeverywhere.
Andthat's what I'vesaidabouteverysinglethingmytour, my e p everything I'm like I wantwhenfanscometomyshowtobelikeOhmyGod, I sawthatcliponherInstagramLike, youknow, it's likejustfluidthroughoutthewholething.
Youdon't have a showinAmsterdamforwhateverreasonwhere I agreedwiththem, I waslikeEveryartistgoestoAmsterdamwhentheygotoyour, uhSotheguys, let's putup a roominAmsterdam.
I waslike, Evenifitissoout, likethefansthatwanttogo, it'llgo.
Andtheywentonsaleat 10 a.m. And I wasrefreshingthething.
At 10 01 thewebsitecrashedand I called.
Theguywaslike, Dude, thewebsitecrashed.
Noone's beenabletogettickets.
Waslike, No, it's in a crashlikeitsoldoutinliterallythreeseconds.
Huh?
What?
Itwasthefastestshowtosellout.
SochallengeAmsterdam.
That's reallyspeciality.
Yeah, itwascrazy.
I knowweweren't gonnaout a showthere.
Soforittobelikethefastestsellingonewascrazy.
I'm alsoplayinginmyhometown.
WhichLongIsland?
Soit's likethebiggestvenueinLongIsland.
Whichoneyoulike?
TheParamount?
Ofcourse.
I knowtheNAFTAlike, Yeah, I know, butit's likeforcedar, youknow?
Yes.
Um, howmanypeoplethat I thinklike 1918 100 size?
Yeah, I thoughtthesea 1000 butthatsomethingcouldbeclose.
I mightbetotallywrong, butthen I'm playingGrabMissytowithhim, sothat's great.
I'm sopumped.
Doyoufeellike a lotofpeopledoubt a deal, then?
Think I wouldneverdothis?
Areyoukiddingme?
When I, like, wasn't signedanymore?
Peopleprobablyreallygo.
She's donewhatever.
But, youknow, I feellikeinlifeyou'regonnahavestumblingblocksputinfrontofyou, like, regardlessofwhoyouare, whatyouare.
I mean, I wanttoJustlike I said, makeitveryobvioustopeoplelike I'm notjust a girloninstagramthat's likemy I wish I couldgetridofallthepeoplewhofollowmethatdon't, like, notdon't likemymusicbutdon't careaboutmymusicoranythinglike I justdon't reallycareaboutlikefollowers.
Ifitdoesn't likeIf I caredaboutfollowers, I'd befeedingmyfollowerswhattheywanttosee, whichisselfiesandhotphotos.
Orit's like I justdon't It's like I don't careaboutgrowingmyfamily, myfollowers.
Butjustjustmaking, like a shiftofbeinglikeanartistratherthansocialmediaandgetherwhich I amnot, aretwodifferentroles.
Yes, they'rebigtimein a way, evenifyoudon't wanttokindofareno, I aminthelikeliteralsense, butlikesocialmediawise, ifyoulookatreallyinfluencerspagesinmind, it's verydifferent.
Evenif I havefollowers, youknow, It's notlike I'm postingthingsthatarelike, gobymyflattummy t Youknow, it's just I hatethelastlasttimeyoucameonyouandDanhadquitethebonduntil I sawthatheflirtswitheveryoneand I waslike, Oh, yeah, shewasveryoffendedasyouflirtedwithLizGilliesand I waslike, n pa p m I textedyouaboutPoppy.
I wassoseriousbecause I methersolongagowhenshewas, howeveroldsheis.
Shedidn't tellmeherage, ofcourse.
And I waslike, itwasn't happening.
I know I metherbecauseshewillsignwiththesamelabelandshewasopeningupforme a beautycon, like 34 yearsago.
Andwe'reonthebusandshewascompletelyactinglike a normalperson.
Whatever.
Andthen I waslike, Sowhereyoufrom?
I thinkshesaid, likeNashville, whichapparentlyisn't true.
No, she's fromnatural.
Butlike I sawsomethingonlinethatwaslike, She's notwell.