I just want to give you guys quick update.

Uh, it's been a while on, and I need to tell you guys what's going on.

Uh, because it's been a little bit crazy.

As you can see from my last video school.

Takes up a lot of my days.

Uh, my days a little, made a lot of my days, Takes up a lot of time.

A little bit of honesty times.

Ever since about two months ago, some things have just been going wrong in my life that out of my control, I just have to Well, not wrong.

It's just certain things in my life have changed the course of it and kind of shaped it a little bit.

And I'm just getting used to it.

Things just kept happening.

Things just keep happening where I keep trying to just push forward, Uh, and I keep trying to keep up with my life changing, and, uh, I haven't been able to keep up with so many things.

I have been able to see as many friends as often.

I haven't been able to keep up with work or, uh, but I do some work, but it's just It's just kind of a train wreck.

Lately, I've just going school Holiday side the way As of today, it's Monday.

I'm now officially on school holidays.

Now, I have two and 1/2 weeks, really.

Just sort things out and enjoy myself and get back to my roots of Emma because, um, honestly, I had a really tough time.

Uh, my mental health wasn't doing so well, so I ended up actually seeing a therapist and just talking things out with them and having a good time, which has really helped, even though really mean for one session.

It's already, uh, pretty helpful.

So I just want to let you guys know I'm okay.

Just being going through some stuff on dhe.

I am seeing someone about it, and now you're just being kind of more of a stress for me than a joy.

Lately, I've really felt worried about that.

I need a key, pop because people keep coming to 70 people that come in my channel.

Hello.

And it it scares me because I'm like, Oh, they're coming from this kind of video in this kind of video, and it's gonna be Japan related.

It's gonna be this and or it's gonna be a problem related.

I don't know what to do.

And I felt uncreative, and I haven't really had the need to.

I haven't had the one till the joy to produce content, which is, you know why I do you two.

It's It's a place where I can release myself of the course of bad things happening.

I feel that I've kind of lost the spark of of Emma.

I still that it comes out sometimes, but overall, it's just being like, Oh, the past two days have been great.

I feel great today.

It's been really nice, but yeah, lately it's been a bit of a Strug.

So for the holidays, I really want to focus on making content that I want to make, uh, and try not to think about what the public wants.

I don't know.

I don't have the public what my view is, want what the incident wants, Whatever, cause I'll never be able to please him.

If I'm just them, you, it's difficult.

We have a weird relationship.

Yeah, if I always aim to please viewers, then I'll never make content.

That makes me happy, So I just want to make stuff that I enjoy, really.

Soon I will upload a video that is something maybe even the same time as I am like this, but really saying L a played a video.

That is something that I really want to make, and it's bit wit.

And every time I've said, Oh, I'm a bit worried I just need to upload stuff that I enjoy every it's always been really supportive.

I think in a lot of it's in my head on a lot of it is just I can see differences in numbers, you know, analytics will get you in everything.

So I just I just need to say a big old f it and just make something.

I just need to create quick updates.

I got new plant.

It's a money tree.

You're supposed to get three of them, put them side by side and then plant them and make it really nice.

But I just go one little bay because he was 100 years crying.

She's really good.

Yeah, she's good.

Just living that life, which is very sweet.

Okay, Thank you.

But also tonight, I've known to see cigarettes.

Uh, the I didn't hear that.

They're really great band.

Anyway.

I'm gonna go see them by myself.

Uh, Tokyo International Forum or something?

I'm so excited.

I wanted to see them since 2010.

I think it is.

All right, well, that's quick update.

I hope you guys well, much love to you.

And Oh, and if you want to keep up, I'm mostly active on Twitter.

To be honest, I'm really active on Twitter.

If you guys wanna interact or check out what I parts to cause, it's just little updates because I think on YouTube, it's like, Is she still alive?

I'm still I just post on Twitter, mostly.

Thanks.

What you guys?

I'll see you next video, John.