MY YOUTUBE CHANNEL IS DYING? - GRAV3YARDGIRL - VoiceTube: Learn English through videos!

Subtitles section Play video

you to name is Graveyard girl in a social media sensation.
She has four subscribers on YouTube.
3000 people waiting in line for a long as six hours to meet this moment.
Bunny Meyer, I would love an analysis of wide money.
Myers Channel isn't doing well.
Does anyone having?
I really wanted to try a serious went with you to get a little frustrated.
Why they should do to switch it up.
I feel like I've been in lately.
I feel like I need something like my mood about everything again.
I can't have fun because I feel like the whole world is watching me.
We're talking about a graveyard girl.
I love graveyard girl.
She doesn't get as much does this thing really works?
Even get a 1,000,000 fusing what's wrong with channel or channel dying?
And I don't know how to let it go, buddy.
She goes by the name of money and no meter tomorrow.
Okay.
We're really close to our house.
I'm nervous.
What is he gonna look like?
I don't know, but I'm also nervous because like we've never gone to somebody's house, it's always somebody coming to arms.
Oh, wait.
Be lifted agree, Yard girl.
What are we gonna do without our couch way?
Honestly, though, I'm nervous because every collab by diarrhea, like, three times and I'm in my house.
So it's fine, but I have to do is hurt.
You were just talking about hanging a huge diarrhea.
Her thing is like swamp queen.
So I guess I'll just match your study.
We have swamp ass.
It's humid here.
Okay, I'm getting risky, girl.
I think there's teenagers getting anonymous.
Whoa.
What do we say?
We say, like, greetings.
Yeah, that's a good idea.
Let's say greetings right outside of God.
What is this, huh?
That's right there.
Hold me.
Oh, just okay.
Wait.
Oh, my God.
They're so living thing.
This one knows where the women dies or no, the baby dies.
And that she recreates they Yes, Very happy thing.
Oh, my God.
I relate his form.
Wow.
Did you make this China love way?
Love way in my life.
Wait.
No way.
I like really, It's Yeah, it's going great.
We're just gonna talk way can.
Okay, So you're like my Dr Philips today, Dr Shane.
First of all, what?
I made these their actual.
There are those actual babies are Okay, so police have to show you the body.
So?
So my baby's getting you got arrested for saying things.
Babies.
So in order to make some of the chandeliers, I caught the baby weight.
What are you single?
You haven't met my favorite e have a favorite.
What if she's a real one?
Exposed baby?
My price, baby, what does it do?
You does it.
So it was a crazy thing until I bought this doll.
Everyone said that the eyes wouldn't open anymore and then I bought it.
I brought it home.
I think it's because I So I think over time the glasses just like a little bit.
Yeah, there was no spark Gonna be single with me for a long way.
Moved here.
I don't have enough stuff because I just kind of recorders up Ever.
I just need like this.
It is my vision back here, like this is completed.
Right?
But all these are unfinished in my mind because these are just things with no meaning.
But these fun fact the floor You're standing on Woz on the original Creole A factory.
Oh, so that's why I like you see like colors because this is the pain from the pigments used to make the colors of the grounds.
I'm sorry.
It's kind of like I wish I could work at Starbucks Victory.
I was getting just okay.
Did you steal it?
I got friends that were good Starbucks, and she had an extra one, and I was like, That's under a blanket on April.
I don't know why I'm on the floor.
Did you?
So gross stuff is from the 18 eighties.
That is my sweet spot.
That's like my favorite 18 18 eighties.
Yeah, like I have a part of me I love like old, like wildlife.
He's like, I'm actually from the way I feel like sometimes I'm like was I did.
And now in life, that's him.
Maybe right now, because I have so many.
Like we're always like when I was a kid, I, like, walked on my tiptoes because I thought I should be wearing with time just weird.
What?
That's what Never talked right?
He's just gave way.
I don't think it was scary.
I mean this room I know nothing couldn't compete.
No, no, Like, I don't like things that are no one more thing I've ever seen through.
This is a cluster of and this is a cluster of regulates.
Babies are dead.
Once only thing grew up, But they could also contend there from the 18 0 no, this is probably, like, probably 19 thirties.
Really?
If you were a baby in the 30.
Yeah.
Yeah, I guess you won't.
You might be queen.
There's some stuff in here that is really over 100 year, like standup mirror.
What's behind?
Like weird.
Yeah.
You acted like this was normal.
What's her name?
I What does that say?
Queen?
I mean, great girl.
I love it when they put my name on the way.
You have your own Is your Yeah, your name here is the black iron.
Oh, my God.
Everything.
Yes, just one path.
That's really all you need is in Walmart.
Target player.
Kmart pulls about Payless Amazon 7 11 Like crazy way.
You take that picture.
Wow, That's Tanis Instagram.
You look here.
You hear what's stopping dog?
So I pulled all these games out just in case we wanna play them because I have so many were games.
So I think this is a dog.
That was submerged in water, and then it shakes.
And don't step on it, which is the game.
So you blindfold each other, not stepped in poop that you sculpt out of play now.
Okay.
What is the toilet flushing one when you're trying to get in your face.
You know what?
All of these just drunk nights this'll is what I sometimes used to film on a plastic way.
I assembled it.
I could rebuild it again.
What's this?
So these are actually, like, designed like a push, pops, open him up in the new way.
Wait.
I don't know if I could do this with my weight.
So you pull pop and push, which sounds excusing way one another one.
Wait.
All right, Well, hold on, Herr Linz.
Like me.
Oh, what is that?
I'm sorry.
I extracted I've never acted way.
Make it alive.
Okay.
What's making love?
Okay, I think everyone's the same ways.
Like the hotter version of your babies.
You know, maybe I need to upgrade.
Oh, my gosh.
Yeah, You could move around his old mouth.
Sorry.
All right, well, let's have somebody go get some batteries, walk the batteries, and then we'll figure that out in the back.
I want to talk to you.
Let's go somewhere.
Do you feel miners?
You're You, like, really nervous.
Okay, Yeah, that's me.
Great.
We're just gonna talk.
I know.
I don't.
I feel like I don't talk about, like, real.
Wait, You're like my Dr Philips today, Dr Shane.
Nobody wants that.
All right, let's go to the bathroom.
Way all we got.
Let's just talk ways are gonna hurt me, Dio.
See, when I get nervous, I'm like one of those people that's like like, you know, you're being like Angel.
You're moving like, enjoy your movie, too.
I died.
No.
Really?
Yeah.
Feel free to cry.
People love you.
Maybe a little closer together.
Just cause if I ever want to get you with Dr Shane What if you do that?
That's all there is.
Transition.
I'm just scared of me.
Say too much.
Tell me why you're so let's start with that.
Because we've been relieved.
Talk too much about yeah, everything.
Well, I feel like I had a really bad year last year, and I feel like I have no coping mechanisms.
I feel like maybe I'm scared of the camera.
You know, Let's let's go, Seo Completely.
I always feeling I should, like, save it answers.
Don't think about it for me personally, Like I've only been here for an hour or something.
But this person who I'm hanging out with is so fucking cool and like, so completely different than what I was expecting.
Nothing.
I was expecting crazy thing, really.
But it's funny, not enough room on my scalp for, like, 100 Tampa e always and curious.
Like how I read to other people.
I feel like that's been one of my biggest downfalls.
Is all of a sudden I was starting to like Like how I just asked you like, yeah, a while ago, like I wouldn't have even, like, cared.
Sometimes I'm like, I just I don't I don't even want to care about, like the numbers and the views and the subscribers and whatever, like, I just wanna have fun.
But it's like I feel like I can't have fun because I feel like the whole world is watching me fail.
You know, you've been on YouTube for as long as I have, and I think when you start even well, I started my channel December 20 times, but I really start start insulting February 2011.
Hey, everybody, it's bunny.
And today I'm going to be blogging about a new thing.
I just learned how to dio like I knew about you.
Like when I never thought I could do you too when I thought it was like just for talented people You are like I believe in here for an hour and you beat yourself up so much.
You're good, I e So I have this thing which I will say to you because I feel like he won't interpret it weirdly.
But I feel like there's been periods of my life where I just have to, like, die and start over because it's like you get into such a bad place that you just almost have toe almost transform into a different person.
And so I feel like after my grandpa passed away and after, I wasn't like that really bad car accident and I just like I did not know what I was gonna do with my life.
And then I came to YouTube and it was just, like, always, just such an amazing, wonderful place to go and like it really just turned like every negative in my life into a positive.
It's just like I didn't feel like so lonely anymore.
I didn't vote like, so directionless like I didn't know I was doing my soul, but not like with this past year and just everything.
Like I just came back in that place.
It's almost like I don't remember how I fixed it before, so I don't know how to fix it.
Now.
How are you?
If you could, like, sum up how you feel about your channel right now?
How would you sum it up?
Um, I feel like I've been kind of like I don't know if I want to say, like masking my authentic voice or whatever it is.
I don't feel like I, like, lost myself entirely, but it's just like it became or feeling in often, maybe like not really knowing what I want to do, like wanting toe branch out into something different, do something more like not really knowing, like whenever there was like an algorithmic change, I guess, is what everybody calls it future fast.
How would you fix the outer of them?
Rhythm stresses me out.
It's like I felt like I just became somebody who was so like, desperate to keep everything the way it was and like Like, I have 2014 built up in my mind so much that it's like I have that year as, like, the pinnacle of my life.
And I feel like I'm always trying to get back to 2014.
What 20 I just felt like so I felt like I had it all together.
Like, I don't know.
I just used to always have the feeling we're like, Oh my God, I have a product and I can't wait to go home Rip it out of the package And little does this thing really work, you know?
And it's just like I don't know, I just felt like the least worst I've ever felt about myself.
Like I always want to make people feel like just be yourself.
Like even if you don't have any friends and even if, like, nobody loves you like you love yourself, you know, I think I lost that, and that's been the worst thing.
I feel like there are a lot of people that oh my God, no one relies on me, you know what I'm saying.
It's not that, but, like I feel like people do, like come to my channel to get away and just have, like, a moment of, like, entertainment and escapism and fun.
And like, I feel like so many people have seen it this past year.
I feel like I've let everyone down.
I'm just so like the disappointment, Okay?
Oh, no, you don't feel like everybody, you know, Like they're like Why?
Like I thought you were like a confident person.
Like I thought like, I didn't think you'd care about what other people think, you know.
And it's like there's almost like two people.
Let me get a beautiful under.
It's almost like there's like, two people, and there's like, the one person that, like, feels so bad about myself.
I just feel like, you know, you've let everybody down.
I just stopped being fun, like, you know, but at the same time, like I just been so like broken myself.
And I don't mean, like, bring this up because I know like sometimes you struggle with this, but it's like I never had, like, body confidence issues or anything, and, like literally like all I wear I always like to use.
It's in Sophie shorts every day was like I just like, don't I just don't get dressed anymore.
I think it's just so I don't really like, get into the explanation.
I just told you were like, I've been in a really dark place and I don't even, like, get dressed in all these cool, funky outfits like I used to do because I've just been feeling so bad about myself in, like, over indulgent eating all the snacks.
And so I just feel See all of this, even the spit, all of that.
Yeah, but all of that is what I would be like talking.
Click, click, click, click, click.
Oh, my God.
Yeah, when you look at 2014 and you look like the views you mentioned that you didn't really look back.
Yeah.
No, you don't even have a comprehension of Oh, really?
People.
All these people are watching these videos.
I mean, it's really when people started saying stuff to me like I would have like people like, Oh, you're one of the fastest growing channels.
2014 like that.
Somebody had to tell me when I had a building.
It was like I didn't even know that I had a 1,000,000 views.
And so then it was like, Oh, well, this is how other people in this industry which I cringe every time I sing industry See, I feel like that's what's really like got me into a bad like I like to make people smile.
I like to make people laugh like it's not really like an industry.
Do you know what I'm saying?
I feel like just how now everyone, just like, looks at it, has a career and has a job, and like everybody now is like like using numbers and metrics like Measure, success.
And it's like, Oh, well, you know, everybody's looking at you and wondering, Oh, does this thing really work?
Doesn't even get a 1,000,000.
Using what's wrong with our channel doesn't owe her channels dying.
And I'm just like, Is that something you think about like, Yeah, Channel die.
And also I don't feel like it's dying.
I just feel like I'm in a really bad place right now, and I feel like anybody that's on you too long enough, like everything can be like a 10 you know, and I feel like right now I'm out like a four, and I'm just like, how do I get it toe like an eight?
The reason especially I want to talk to you about this is because I really to it so much I was doing you to for so long.
And I think around 2014 I've used we're going down.
I was comments about it.
I was seeing everybody else rise.
I was seeing like all this shit happened and I was just like, Oh, my God, like I'm old, you won't hear any more.
Whatever, whatever.
And I realized why they were watching because I wasn't completely in it and I was hiding elements of myself and I wasn't really being myself anymore.
I was thinking too much about the numbers and thinking about what other people think about me rather than like making something that I would actually click on.
That was also the same year that I came out and it was the same year that I, like stopped worrying about like, Oh, am I seeming to feminine in this video?
Is my voice too flamboyant?
Am I saying things that are alluding to me liking guys in my Am I being too crazy or two offensive or to this, right?
Like once I came out and I like, I was like, Fuck it.
This is who I am.
It completely changed my channel, my videos.
So we may not tear everything else putting out to the world cause it was, ah, 100% authentic.
Not you need to come out.
But you do, in a way, because there's so much of your life in your personality and your everything that you Hi.
Yeah, And as a viewer, I've noticed it.
And like, I'm gonna be honest.
I was, like, really obsessed with your videos, Like in 2015 ish.
I love River Girl.
I love her reviews.
I just think she's really cool.
And I started noticing little things like, Oh, well, this thing happened.
I can't talk about it.
Yeah, well, I'm going to this thing, but I don't want to talk about it.
And it was just constant.
And I was just like I wanted to connect, and I couldn't Yeah, meeting you.
Now I'm hearing more about your struggles where you came from, where you are.
Oh, my God.
Who is this thing?
This is This is you.
And like this is who I want fantasy and who your channel should see.
You're more than just, you know, funny products.
At some point, I did just start watering everything down.
So, like when I just got my channeling, I just felt like I had nothing to lose.
Like, you know, we talked about the whole graveyard friends think you said to me, which is something I didn't know.
I was like, where did the name graveyard girl come from?
When you were like, I used to go ghost hunting all the time.
And it was one graveyard in particular in Galveston, where I just basically lived in it.
Like I would go there all day and I wouldn't literally Is this too crazy for you to know?
It's two things when you just start doing that.
This Well, okay, So before you started, you too, right?
I would like, sit on tombstones and take pictures and whatever.
And this is why I say I never knew that these kinds of things were like disrespectful people would be like, Oh, what if that was like, you're I thought your grave this is gonna sound so insane.
I know.
But like, I was just so lonely and like, so sad that I would just, like, go to a graveyard and hang out all day and literally, like, talk to dead people.
I thought they were like my actual friends.
Like I felt comfort there.
Like I felt like people were there.
I felt like like that graveyard in particular is like all super old hymn stones, like probably their next generation is all dead.
So I feel like nobody remembers these people anymore, like no one comes to visit them, and I don't know who they are, But I'm just here, like hanging out because you like to give people attention and love who literally don't get it.
Like those people who like nobody comes to see them like you were.
And that's when you started your channel.
You were making videos for people who nobody want to hang out with them like they were misfits, like That's when I started watching and making videos.
Yeah, you know, sometimes I don't understand how I'm the same person.
It's like I feel like I just lost everything about myself.
That was myself, but I feel like it's just cause I stopped showing people that side of myself because when I first had a channel like I would feel like when I was having an actual panic attack.
But I would fill during it because clicking on that ship, guys like I just want people to know that like they're not alone.
Like I go through it, go through.
Do you happen to like, Do you have, like, a group of people that you can rely on?
You said things with Starbucks.
Oh, yeah, but I feel like that's like Well, yeah, but that's like, Really?
Yeah.
No, I mean and I don't know, see people like, kind of throwing up my fingers because they're like, Well, she does nothing all day except go to Starbucks 66 times a day, But it's kind of like that's my social interaction, you know, it was like I refer to them as my friends, but it's not like I don't make me cry.
It's not like friends that I would like hang out with.
I just think they money mostly.
That's true.
Why wouldn't they?
Your family?
Because, like, I just think like sometimes in real life like I feel like it works great for you to write because I can, like, package it all up and, like, just be, like, funny and like, kind of cool and interesting and like, just intriguing enough, or you want to watch it for 14 minutes.
But I feel like when I'm face to face with people are, like, really like a word and like and I don't I don't know.
Oh, I don't like crying people.
Um, does this might turn to cry on you too.
Um, I don't know.
I don't know why.
I think I guess it's just cause I, like, never really had, like, friends growing up because I was, like, just too weird for friendship.
Um, it's not like I'm like that weird.
It's just like, I don't know, like, sometimes I have a hard time.
Like how you just, like, express like, Oh, I love collecting old shoes tied together with a string.
Like unless people really want to sit down and get to know you that doesn't make things I don't know.
I just like the whole thing we were talking about earlier, where it's like, I don't like to feel what I let people down and like sometimes, like, I just have a bad day or hard timer and just want to, like, just sit down and, like, maybe, like, hang out with somebody but not like do anything and I just feel like that's boring.
I don't try and be like, Hey, do you want to be my friend?
We can watch that way because, like, I realize I don't do anything.
Ah, that's a shirt that will sell.
Here's my analysis.
You're thinking too much.
Sometimes you're uploading too much.
Really.
Just do it every day.
That's not No, no.
Uh, no.
A lot of old school YouTubers and I put myself in the same category because I fell down this drop.
Feel like you have to upload more and, like what actually is more meaningful and impactful is like when you spend time but your soul and energy into something and release into the world.
I think you need to focus your energy on making things that you literally would like be like.
I believe in this video.
I love this video.
Also, I think you're not taking risks, you know, of course.
Does this thing really work works, of course, like that series is great.
I love it.
But like I would love to see as a fan, I would love to see you do something completely out of your element.
Also, the audience on YouTube has changed.
You know, like so many people saw me in public Nearly.
I used to watch every day.
Don't ask that because the land Oh, my God.
Yeah, I would never I just Well, the truth is, the reason they stopped watching is mostly on them, but it is sometimes on us.
You have to capture a new audience of people who loves all sides of you, who isn't just looking for a cartoon character to talk about a product and who isn't just looking for a panic attack.
They want all of it.
Yeah, and like that audience is out there.
And I think you could 100% capture this.
Which is why I wanted to do this year's.
Because fuck you are so good and such a good spirit.
And I love being around you.
And I love your energy and your defective stuff.
But you're not like crazy, But you're crazy in a good way.
Sorry, things not thinking about if it fails or any of that, because it doesn't matter because like, you'll be excited again about, you know, like if you could just so good to talk to you because I feel like I feel like it's not even other like viewers.
I wouldn't say this.
I feel like it's like other YouTubers that were like, I feel like this might be utterly untrue But I feel like a lot of people in the industry probably like, looked at me and they're like, Well, she's a beauty guru doesn't know what she's doing like no talent, no editing, no nothing.
You know, and I think that now it's just like the whole world is like like I don't know.
I feel like there's like probably a lot of people that are happy to see me like not be competition in the marketing out everything that is 100% your head.
And I understand that feeling trusting.
Yeah, but like first fall e thought you would maybe see No, because, like like you know what he wants to collab with life a dying accomplished.
Let me tell you something about those people.
Some of them are probably watching.
Those people who think like that will disappear and are unhappy and go fuck themselves.
People who are like I only glad with this with this or this or my numbers and their numbers out This this is all of those people I haven't heard from in a long time.
And the reason is because they're not authentic because you're making sure nobody cares about their too many brand deals.
They're having too many products, and they're just literally walking, talking money that sucks.
Fuck those people.
You are not that person.
You are really a person just like me.
And that's why I love you.
And that's why I watch people like you.
Because, like for me and this was one of the most exciting collapse I've ever ever done or even thought about, I traveled.
I fucking hate flying.
Had to take a first time in my whole life so scared of dying in a plane.
But I came because I was like, but yeah, fuck you like this is my dream.
Like sitting with somebody who I admire who I love, who I think is fucking good.
Who just needs somebody to be like.
Let's fucking take a risk.
Come on, let's do this graveyard girl too.
Yeah, You need to live your life.
You need to live in your videos because, like, even little tiny aspects of your life, But you hide okay, We're right outside, But like you can't God, What is this, a piece of your house?
That or things like that.
It's like I was watching your channel, and I grew up watching you.
I'd be like, how come she hasn't evolved or changed?
Like she seems to be the same person that watch when I was 12?
That's kind of weird, but you have changed completely.
Just have todo There's a few things I noticed in your house you show.
And I'm curious why I'm gonna point to some nails and then we'll see what the audience thinks.
According 1st 1 click or ignore, I would ignore way What block are Oh, my God, that's so crazy.
Because, like they want to see there's a ghost here that if they say you're bringing, that's smooth.