(upbeat Christmas music)

- Hi, this video starts in a car on the way to Portsmouth.

'Cause I wanted to show you a little bit about what I do

kind of off the internet, most of the time.

Which is I go and I give talks to people

about how to use the internet.

Is what we're doing today.

We're gonna go and talk at the special lovely Google place

that is called

- The Digital Garage in Portsmouth.

- The Google Digital Garage and we're helping people

who are freelancers or have small companies work out

how best to use YouTube and Google

to help their business grow.

And I'm also tired, already. But it's gonna be good.

I feel peppy. Clara also feels peppy.

- Oh sorry I didn't, yeah I'm excited I like these things.

We usually meet really nice people who are just really happy

to learn so, yeah.

- She doesn't love driving though.

- I don't mind it now, just wait for the traffic

and then I will hate it, it's coming.

(bouncy Christmas music)

- YouTube creator, Jess to our space.

Would you please come and join us.

(audience applauds)

- That's not me.

- No that's not you.

(audience laugh)

(bouncy Christmas music)

- And that's why I still make videos, because

I want the little teenage me who didn't have

anyone to look up to, who didn't have a role model

that she could see who was disabled or had a chronic illness

or even just you know, a fem lesbian.

I want her to be able to have someone

that she can look up to.

And know that she can get there too.

So that's why I make videos.

(crowd members exclaim)

- Wow. Thank you.

(audience applaud)

(bouncy Christmas music)

- So, let's get some light in the situation.

Oh, look you can see Clara's highlight.

(laughs)

Wow you fancy.

(laughter)

So it's the end of our working day.

We are done. I am done. I have a headache.

But I was gonna go home and edit the video

that's supposed to be going out today but

I don't think that's gonna happen.

Because, it requires a lot more work

than I feel I'm able to do. I think my head hurts.

So I'm gonna go do a Q & A

with my wife.

And then that'll be today's video.

So, welcome to a different video. Hi.

This is now today's video, it's a Q & A. Enjoy.

Thank you for watching.

And bearing with me.

Hello lovely people.

So, this isn't actually the video I had planned

for the day. But things just got away with me, you know?

It just got a bit too much and I was like

oh, I'm not going to be able to edit this one on time.

Okay and then Claudia came home and I was like

come and do a Q & A with me.

So that's what we're doing right now instead.

We're gonna answer some of your festive and not so

festive questions that I asked you

on our Instagram @jessieandclaud

which you can go and find in the description a link to that

go and follow us, we're cute and currently festive.

And considering my pent up feelings of the day

it's rather appropriate, basically I push myself too hard.

Let's be honest, I do.

I would like to be able to detach my sense of self worth

from my productivity levels, but that's a work in progress.

We'll get there eventually.

And also marvelously appropriate that today's advent

calendar gave the beautiful, give yourself a break

about that thing, that's been stressing you.

And that's what I'm doing right now with this video.

If by the way you get confused about how I am somehow

able to understand my wife despite the fact I'm deaf.

I actually have a video which explains that too and

you can watch that, that will be in a card above.

If I remember because let's be honest I'm exhausted

and I have brain fog.

But one thing I really like about Vlogmas is filming

everyday kind of gives you quite a fair

gives you an idea of what life is like living with a

chronic illness because throughout the rest of the year

only (stumbles over words)

I make videos and post them and only film or do livestreams.

When I'm feeling well, when I'm feeling good.

And my brain is making its connections so then it's quite

interesting when we do Vlogmas to be able to show you that

that's not everyday. That's not everyday.

I can't always think in a linear fashion.

And I can't always stay awake for a while.

We'll see, I've been pretty exhausted today.

But hopefully I'll make it through this video.

I mean, I really hopefully, I shouldn't crash out

because that's just rude.

Hello lovely people and welcome.

Why actually

- I'm wearing my Christmas jumper!

- Oh, yes.

I look apparently according to Stevie

like a Mrs Claus dominatrix.

- Yeah, this is, when this dress was hanging up

in the spare bedroom, Stevie was like I really liked

your black dominatrix dress, we were like.

She doesn't have a black dominatrix dress

What's she talking about?

- Okay, anyway go on to my Instagram today and you can see

the whole dress in full because I can't really show you

because we're really close right now.

But you can see the whole thing in full and then please

leave a comment underneath with whether or not you think

this is a dominatrix outfit and that's really gonna

confuse the people who did not watch this video.

That's fun.

- Yeah that's true.

(laughter)

But like it doesn't look like a dominatrix outfit at all.

- Right, it doesn't?

- People are like why are they even mentioning that?

Anyway.

- Anyway, so I had a different video that was supposed

to go out today, but I got a bit overwhelmed.

Got a bit much. Can't even speak now.

- I've got something to cheer you up.

- Okay! What is it? Don't actually even know

- Ta da!

- Oh!

- Sugar free, hazelnut syrup. Look, smell it.

It transports you to Christmas.

- Anyway, so instead I asked you guys on Instagram

for some good questions that we could answer

to do a little Q & A

So you can learn some fun things about us.

Some of these are festive, some of these aren't

because not everyone stuck to the rules.

- Okay.

- It just is how it is.

- Yeah, read me some.

- All right.

- Mistletoe at parties, for or against?

- For! But without the

- Tradition? Just decorative purposes only. No kissing.

She puts mistletoe up and signs with big like X's

- You don't have to act on this.

- There's the like photo of my face

with a green circle and a tick.

And then there's like any other face is like no!

- So I am for mistletoe without any expectations.

That's brackets, that has to come after the mistletoe.

I think mistletoe is fun, it's a really cute excuse

to kiss someone who wants to kiss you.

Consent people.

Can't just grab someone, like

- No.

- Oh I saw you under that mistletoe

three and a half hours ago, you're mine now.

Inappropriate.

- Interesting facts about mistletoe.

- Go for it.

- I mean, it's not really, well it is a fact

but I think people know it.

- Claudia's very into trees.

- I am I'm reading the The Hidden Life of Trees, it's great.

- And what did you learn the other day?

- Trees are not always that fascinating to us human

because of the fact that life to them is so much slower.

So like, they're on a different realm basically.

Trees live to a hundreds of thousands of years.

Apparently the oldest tree on earth

is about 9,000 years old.

- That's very exciting.

- It is, just think of all the things it's seen.

Trees can't survive without leaves for chlorophyll.

But they've worked out that like old stumps

where people have been logging, have still got life in them

and then they're like, how is this happening?

It's because the other trees around us still supplying

them nutrients through the root system.

And I'm like what is the purpose of this?

And it's because forests are a whole organism of trees.

And they are one living being together.

- They talk to each other.

- Yeah because they survive strongest in a group.

I'm so sorry I'm boring you.

Like, the second time you've yawned and you've told me to

tell this boring story about trees.

No one finds this interesting.

- I find you fascinating I just have chronic fatigue.

What are your favorite Christmas traditions?

- I like having a big Christmas dinner.

- Oh yeah you love anything involving food.

- I mean, I'm not a big fan of turkey but I do quite like

having a roast turkey on Christmas Day.

I think it feels traditional.

Oh my God.

You can have like a time out?

- I don't know that time out would make it better.

- Okay, we're just like let's do these fast.

- I really like St. Lucia.

- Yeah.

- The Swedish tradition where I wear a crown of candles

I say I, the youngest girl in the family.

It doesn't just have to be me.

But I don't have a younger girl so it's just me.

I will. Eventually.

I intend to set our child's head on fire quite early on.

November, December or January?

This is difficult because November, Autumnal.

December, Christmas.

January, my Birthday!

- December's my Birthday and Christmas.

And at least everyone's feeling jolly and there's like

nice lights around.

November is just like leading up to like, December

and it's a bit like

Ah, it's too far away to get excited

and it's just dark and cold.

And no one's put their decorations up yet.

And then January is just like

oh this is so depressing, so yeah.

- Thanks Walter.

- I think we should do Vegan January, whatever it's called.

- Veganuary.

- Veganuary.

- Oh my God, do you think so? Really?

- Yeah.

- Okay.

- If you think we should do Veganuary please comment

especially with things we should eat / that I can eat

because I can't eat beans and pulses.

- I've been cooking quite a few Vegan meals recently.

- We have, inspired by our friend Charlie who is a Vegan.

Red, green and gold or white and silver?

Easy choice, easy choice.

- Neither.

- What's your choice?

- Just red and gold.

- Oh yeah. No but the tree is green.

- Okay fair enough.

What are your favorite Christmas songs?

(sings) All I Want For Christmas Is You.

(chair squeaks)

Your chair it's like

- Oh.