I havebehindMayAh, I'vegot I'vegot a coupleofmyfavoritebooks.
So a fewofmyfavoritebooksthere.
YouhaveAlanSmith.
Got a headsupbookmustearlyon, butCarajustseemstoreadit.
Haveyougot a vinylcollectionthere?
Atthebottomaswell?
Yeah.
Youseethat?
Yeah, I couldseethat.
I'm onmybikedownhere.
Youknow, I dolikethevinyl.
So, people, that's it.
Thattakesme.
But I justsawyouknow, youalmostthereferee.
DidyouknowJohnmustreferee?
He's got a violinshopinLeedscoldthat I know.
Countthere, Bigfinalman.
Joe, I didn't knowthat, but I dorememberwhen I wasyoungeron a Sundayafternoonthatwouldgointothefrontroom.
Wehadthebanks.
Theylifted a twoup, twodownterroristsandwelivedinthebackroom, offthekitchen, diningandtheninthefrontroom, whichwouldnevergo.
AndweallgoinonSundayafternoonanditwouldbeABBAorsheWaddyWaddybasicallyplayedonplayingonvinylon a SundayafternoonwiththeKentuckyThat's KentuckyFriedChickenTakeaway, whichdon't takeawayshopnearisatthetime a simplepleasure.
Somesimplepleasure, son.
Now, I I'm notreallysure I followthenextbitbecause, um, wecangettogether.
Is a greatwordon, I think, saynototheoriginaloffer, probablyfromPeterwhenheaskedmetodoitwithsuchofus a shorttimeframestoreactfromitondhe.
Probablythinkingthataboutpeopleinyourbusinesspartnerisyourpartnerofthenumberofdifferentthings, andititwas a verydifferentscenario.
It's notlikethechairmanoftheclubnowringyouupandsay, God, I wouldliketospeak.
Yeah, thisisis a closepersonalfriendandalso a businessassociate.
Soyouprobablyviewedtherequestin a completelydifferentfashiontobeingoffered a jobinfootballasitwere.
Yeah.
I mean, I turneddowntopermanentlyenquiriesandtwochampionshipenquiries, andprobablythe 18 monthsbefore I hadnointentiontogointomanagementon.
Obviously, I wasworkingas a coachunderRoy, but I wasdoingMaur.
ThevideoworkedwithRoy.
RoyandRayweredoingthecoachand I wasdoingthemoranalysistypestuffthatwasdoingonSkyonDhewhenPeterrightMay.
I justfeltthathe'd supportedmeandtheladsinobviouslysoldfortheendofthebusinessventures.
Andyouknow, hedidn't wanttobring a managerinpartwaythroughseasonbecauseheknewthatyouwouldn't getthemanagerthathewanted.
Hedidn't wanttoripthesquaduponhim, costhim a lot, andhewantedjustsomebodytonavigatehimtotheendoftheseasonthathetrusted.
And I said, I saidno.
Initially, I didn't thinkitwastherightthing, buttheneventuallyobviouslywantedtodoitforhim.
So I thinksaynoonbeinginstickingtowhereyouare.
But I thinkalso a littlebitofarrogance, a littlebitofego.
I thinkatthatpoint, ifyouremember, I'velivedthreemonthsto 92 20 years I'vegonetoskyandgonewellandyoufeel a littlebitonbreakable.
Youfeel a littlebitsooffin a positionwhereyounothing's gonnagowrongwhenyou'reunprepared, you'renotworkinghishardestsomethingisallthepeoplearewhenyoutakesomethingonthatyou'renotqualifiedinarenotasqualifiedasyoushouldbe.
Thenyouget a slaproundtheface.
Andtobefair, when I lookbacknow, someofthedecisionsthat I madetheinitialdecision, obviously, Butthenthedecisionsthat I madewhen I gotthereitwas a massivelearningforMay.
I thinkit's helpedmay, eveninthelastcoupleofweeks, inrespectofwhat's happenedwiththiscrisisinmybusinessisandthehotelsonthefootballclubnowactfarmordespitedecisively, I knowatfarmoredefinitelythan I'veeveractedbeforebecauseofValencia, Wheretobefair, I fluffedaround a fewdecisionsthat I shouldhavemade, and I knewinstinctivelyatthetimethatshouldhavemadebigdecisionsand I didn't do.
I sortofthought I couldgetawaywithitandgetittotheend, theseas, andthenjuststeertheshiphometothesoundthatletsomeoneelsetakeitbackouttosortofseeagain.
Butitjustneverhappenedlikethat.
I'vegot a massivebloodynosewhenwhenyousayitwas, uh, egodrivenandoverlyconfident.
Sowhenyousayyou'refluffingaroundandtryingsocajolingalonethatthatdiametricallyopposedyournaturalcharacter, Jeff, I plannedeverythinginsortofthreeandfiveyearback.
Butwhen I wentoverthegoingovertherethinkingthat I wasgonnaputthissortofframeworkinplaceforpizzatosethimupfornextseason.
So I introduced a wholenewdatacapturedepartmentwithananalystthattookover.
I givealltheplayersiPodsandwantedtosortofrevolutionisedthewayinwhichweconsumedinformation.
I wantedtosetupmeetingsweeklywithsportingdirectorintheacademydirector.
20 short.
Thestructureswereinplacebeyondme, beingtheresothatthenewmanagercominggamewasgoingtoYeah, I evenwenttocommercialmeetingswiththeclub's commercialdirectorsabouttheclub's brandingandthingsthat I wantedtolookatitas a business.
I wasn't theretolookafterthebusiness.
I wastheretogetbasicallytheclub.
Thefirstteamresultstotheendoftheseason.
I justcompletelyapproacheditinthewrongmotherbookfromher.
From a purepointofview, I shalldotherightthings.
But I neverdealtwithwhatmyprimaryrolewas, whichwaswinningfootballmatchesquitequickly.
Yeah, results, results.
Yousee, I willsaythatthemanagers, youguysontheresultsbusiness.
Look, whenyoutrytogetplayersout, wonderin a JanuarytransferWindows.
I wentthereinsortofmidDecember.
Essentially, it's goingtobe a bitof a firesaletypething.
Ifyougetinplayersoutofthattime, let's tryandkeeptheshipstudytotheendoftheseasonand I shouldhavemade a coupleofreallybigdecisionsonplayersthatweren't committedtotheclubatthatpoint, eventhoughtheywereforthenonfootballingreasons, bothofthemand I rememberspeakingtostarAlexonthewayhomefromtrainingquiteearlyononeday, and I'm sayingtomayjustgetridofthem, son, hesaid, Don't eventhinkaboutit.
Well, I adoptedthatapproach, butifyoulookatwhatyou'redoingclockdidn't live a pillwithBenTakesorJoe.
Hi.
Oh, happenedtoJoeHartwithGuardiola.
Thatmeantthattheminutethatmanagergoalsinto a clubnowadays, he's justgottogettherightpeopleonthebusthatarrivedforhimthatarrivedfortheclubthatwillgethimresultshebelieveswill I went.
I don't thinktheapproachofeveryone's got a cleanslateanymore.
Isthatmoney?
Wehaven't gottimetobeabletogive a yeartoapplyittoworkoutwhethertheregot a goodleadonor a badlad.
Oh, no, youjustgottabedefinite.
I understandexactlywhatyou'llsign, butthere's a bigpartofmeisthatitisthinking, andyoucanalsohearinyourvoicetodegreewillbeitfortherightreasoninyourmind, you'veignoredoneofthegreatestmanagersever.
Doyouknowwhat I did, Jeff?
I lookedatSirAlexFergusonintermsof, youknow, I rememberthepartofSirAlexFergusonthatexistedatManchesterUnited, wherehewasincrediblyloyalandkept a lotofplayersattheclubfor 10 years, 15 years, eightyears.
I forgotthepartthatbasicallywherehewasbrutalandhewasclinicalandmadedecisionsthatwereatthetimehefeltrightfortheclubthatsurprisedeverybodyelseontheoutsideandeventhoseontheinside, sometimesbyplayersleavinginsuch a shot.
Youknow.
I alwaysrememberSof, Mark, MarkHughes, AndreiKanchelskisandPaulintoleavingonesummerwhenwebrokethroughandthekidsbrokethroughanditwas a roarthateven I wasshockedatthetimeof a zooplayerthinkingthathedonethatandthenobviouslythereareotherplayersthatleftover a 10 yearperiod, someofthemveryquicklyandin a shortperiodtimethatsurprisedeverybody.
I almostrememberedonepastralliesFerguson, butdidn't remembertheotheronthatdaywhen I heardhimspeakonthephone.
If I gointomorrowandgettwocaptains, whatwillthatdototherestofmyaddressitandwhatwedo, too, Therestoftheplayers, youlikethoseplayerswell, theythinkthat I'm justcominginheretomake a a statementanddosomethingthat's essentiallyquiteunpopularseasonand I went I wentweakonDhe.
I promisedmyselfwhentheleftValenciathat I wouldnevergo a weekonthebigdecisionagain, and I wouldalwaysbedefiniteand I wouldalwaysbeclinical.
And I'd alwaysactdecisivelyandquicklyonDhe.
That's whatValenciaitallmay.
I wentweakfor a periodof 34 monthswhere I lostmyconfidence.
Eventually, I'llcomeontothatin a bit.
I generallylostmyconfidence, so I went.
I wokeupinthemorningnotwantingtogototradein.
Itgottothepointwhere I didn't wanttotaketrainingsessions, actuallyhandedovertobaccoIrisdownandfillitandtheothercoachesbecausehonest f l embarrassedindoingthesessionsinbrokenEnglish, where I hadtostopwiththetranslatorthatthey'renottobetranslatedtotheplayer, theplayerthencomebacktotranslator, thencomebacktome.
And I wasactually, tobefair, losingmyownwilltolive, letalonetheplayerswhowerestandingaroundwaitingandintheend, I justcompletelylostmyconfidencebecause I justmywholelife, I'vecommunicatedwell, I'vebeenabletospeaktopeoplewell, buttheideathat I couldn't communicatetopeople.
I couldn't getthemessageacross.
I wasnaiveinthedecisionsthat I wasmakingmen.
Itjustallcameontopofmequitequickly.
Well, youstoodtherethinking I can't dothisbecauseofthelanguagebarrier.
ThisisnotworkingourCongressoryouactuallystoodtherethinking I can't dothis.
I knowfootballcoach.
I foundoutintheworstpossiblecircumstances.
I cannotdothis.
Whatwe'rethinkingthe I thinkboth I thinkthatthe I wasn't thinking I couldn't dothisbecauseofthespeakinglanguageinthesensethat I wasdoing 45 lessons a week.
Butyouknow, whenyou'vegotfourmonthsin a job, youhaven't gottimetolearnSpanish.
I hadtwoshouldnothaveeven I I shouldhaveputthetheSpanishlessonstothebackburneronWashington.
Don't wasbringingintwoorthreereallyexpectedexperiencedEnglishstroke, JewlanguagespeakingEnglishlanguagethatbasicallycouldsensetodothejobformein a threeformonthepigs.
I thinkthere's nochancethat I wasgonnalearnSpanishinfourmonths.
Eventhough I wastryingmybestand I wasdoingeverythingthat I could, itwasimportantthatcommitted.
So I took a familyover.
I learnedthelanguagebook, thethingsthat I'm, thethingsthat I knewbefore I wentovertherelike I didn't speakthelanguage.
I didn't knowtheleague.
I didn't knowtheawaygroundsandalltherefereesandallthemedia.
I neverlookedatthoseexcuses.
I knewthosebefore I tookthejob.
What I wouldsayintermsofdid I think I wasn't a goodcoach, what I wouldsayif I wentinto a coachingroleinthefuture, whichwillneverhappen.
Butif I wasto, I wouldgointherewiththebestinclass.
Coachiswhat I dofeel I candoiscommunicatetopeopleandsee a footballmatchandunderstandthefootballmatchbook.
Theabilitytocoach a footballteamof 20 footballsquadof 22 playersrequireshundredsofhoursofpracticeonthegrassand I didn't havetheunderthehundredsofhoursofpracticeonthegrassbehindmetobe a footballplayermanagedto 1920 years.
I practicedforthousandsofhoursplayingfullbackcomplaint.
Perhapsitbeingdefender, beingit, beabletopasstheball, tothinkthat I couldgoon, be a coach, havingnotdoneanyhoursonthegrassbecause I wasn't doingthatwithRoyHodgson.
I wasonlydoingthevideoanalysisweremainlythatwasjustcompletelynottoonaive.
Betweenarrogance, I needtobringinthreeorfour.
Youknow, I hadwantedtoalreadythatwerethere, but I needtobringinprobably a coupleofothers, reallyspecialistsincultureandfootballteamsto a philosophythat I wanted.
Andthat's why I thinkStevenGerrard's doneorputrages.
I thinkhe's broughtinreallygoodqualitycoachingaroundhim.
AllofthesoulshardsthatmonthsunitedRyanGiggshaveseenthatobviously I knowwasdoingitwithwhales.
Ifyoubringgethighquality.
Yeah, Look, looknofurtherthantheexamplewasinfrontofyoufor 20 years.
I rememberCristianocomingovertomehonestlyis a truestorycameoverhimbeforethegame.
Isn't gasgot a disgraceisindisgrace.
Cookthepitch.
Thepitch.
I saidyouhavenochanceofbeingcaughtinthehonestly.
Itwaslike a farmer's field.
Honestly, Iwasweleftitthatlong.
There's nothere's nowayhewasdriventhatnight.
Uh, butshedoesn't thinkatthatpoint I havetothoughtthat's intheplayershadanything.
Cristianosheadsthatbeforethegamethiswaas I thoughtthat I alwaysknewwhenweweredistractedbefore a game, maybeunitedthetimewherewethoughtmaybe I rememberonceatBradford.
Had 56 playersthatyoucouldsayWe'rereallysortofgoodplayersonDhe, somedecentyoungplayersaswell.
I justfeltthatwewouldgetinthereandthingswereimprovingandthen I thinkthat's whenthesevennilcameagainstBarcelona, probably a coupleofweeksafterthat, andhestartedtogetreallybadquitequickly.
Youth, yourhugelyexperience, theyeven a playeryou'vealwayscomfortableto.
Honestly, um, I willstandinfrontofanycameraandspeakanytime a cz, Manytimesafter I havedonethatthroughoutmycareer, youknow, inEnglandgotknockedoutoftheWorldCuporEuropeanchampionshipsatshow I standupanddothepressconference.
Youknow, ifitwas, youknow, withEngland, youknow, I wouldbeoneoftheplayersthatshouldsay I wasoverthere.
I think I 30 matchesontherulesinSpainareastheyareinEngland, thatyouhavetodo a pressgovernmentofthedaybeforeeverygameandobviouslystraightafterthegame.
Fullpressgovernmentsexactlysaying I wasoverthere.
I think 120 days, 130 days, somethingstupidlikethatand I did 60 pressconferences.
I don't havepeople.
I don't knowifpeopleremember, theywon't rememberwedidnotbecausewewereinthecopperattheCopadelReyontheontheEuropaLeague, tothepointwhereby I left.
Wehad a gameeverymidweekwhilst I wasthere, soweplayedSaturday, Wednesday, certainlyWednesday.
Wedidn't haveonesinglefreeweekfromthemoment I arriveduntilthemomentthat I left.
Andthatwasoneofthebigmistakesthat I madethatPeterrangmeupaboutJanuarymidJanuaryandsaid, uh, otherthantheChristmasbreak, whicheverybodyhard.
Sobasically, everytimeweplayed a gamewiththegamethreedayslater, everysinglegames, there's neveranytrainingtime.
It's allwhichisoneofthebigfrustrationbecausewejustfelt I justfeltlikeweneededtojumpofftheroundaboutthatwasspittinginjustrestandgivetheplayers a coupledaysoff.
What I shouldhavedonethatactuallywasprobablygivetheplacetoherthreedays, oftenturnupforthegameonWednesdayjusttogivehim a break.
But I didn't know I alwayswentthroughthesameroutine.
I'vebeensurroundedbythisallmylifeintermsofsoul, foodormonthsunitedandagain, just a reallyweakdecisionnottoplaythekidsin a gameintheEuropaLeagueandcarpetElReygettingupoutthecompetition.
Taketheinitialwhatwouldbehitintermsofcriticismandthatgetsyou a priority.
Wherebyweretheweeksrecoverybeforeeachleaguegame.
Sowejust I justmade a massivemistakewiththatintermsofpriority.
Anditwasthepressconferenceswererelentless.
Everysinglegame, thequestionsweredetailed, and I'm notbeingcriticaloftheEnglishpresshere.
Thequestionswere a lotmoretactical.
Ah, lotmorepointed a lotmorespecificaround.
Whydidthisnewgame?
Whydidn't dothatinthegame?
AndifyouhavetothinkoftheMariahanswer, youget a follower, whichwouldactuallychaseitdowntheroadwithyou.
Well, okay, I thinkitisbecausetheysaidthey'd giveyousomesaltwillbeblondedown.
Soprobablythe B O.
However, inSpainitwouldbeitwouldbe a completelydifferentitwouldbe.
Thatwas a ridiculoussubstitution.
ThatwasThatwas a highlyquestionablesubstitutionthatyoumadebyputtingquarrelKyleWalkerinsteadofthepoor.
Whydidn't youputBernardorSilveronthecrowd?
Wereaskingforit.
Thebigbeatyouwereaskingfor?
Everybodyinthestadiumcouldseeit.
Itwouldbe a lotmorepolitical.
Maybethatwasbecausetheyweregoingformeaswell, becauseobviously I wasthestrangerintown a littlebitand I wasyoung, and I thinktheyrealizedtheycouldpotentiallygoforme a littlebitmorethansomeoftheexperiencedmanagers.
I mean, theoneaftertheoneafter, say, friends, gameslikeit's BillbyawarelastdooragainstotherTicoMadridoragainstBarcelona, thesevendeal.
Obviouslytheywerebrutalpressconferenceswhereyouwalkoutafteranothersoftsmirksmyself, thinking, I knowthatthatis a It's a prettyseveregrillingthat I'vejusttakenand I'm Therewasnoforgiveness.
YouthinkyoucouldjustpickuphereinLaLiga, be a topclasscoach, takeawayyourideas, yourmediacareer, dowhateachofyousomeofthat I thinkyoulookwhetherhe's likethatanyway, I don't knoworwhetherit's justsomethingthat, likeyousay, thought I think I needtoleave.
We'renotnew.
And I thinkyouneed a lessonafterthegame.
I rememberyouallthesethingsthathappenedtome, theworld, thegamesthat I rememberlikerealBetty's away, andthat's when I knewthat.
That's what I knew.
I wasgonethemomentthemoment I knewthat I wasgone.
Whenwhenyougofromwhenyougoldfromstartingoffice 433 thenwentandplayedVillarrealawayand I wentto 532 and I don't evenlikethesystemhatesit.
I thenwentto 442 um, withthenarrowmidfieldforaboutprobablymidFebruary.
Andthen I wenttoreallyBetty's away.
I knew I wasfinishedas I wasdoingtheteamtalk, probably, but I knew I wasfinishedduringthegame.
If I wasn't sureduringtheteamtalk, I actuallyputtwobigmenoutfrontand I thought, Let's godirect, Let's beat, let's beat, Let's beatthepressthattheyhaveLet's gofullonandgetupbehindit.
Let's gooldfashioned.
Let's beawful.
Let's beaggressive.
Let's gomessy.
Let's let's gowintacklesandyouknowwhenyoudothat, yourealizeyou'verunoutofideasandessentiallyyouwerepreparedandatthatmomentalone, I knewafterthatgamethat I hadtobesacked.
I knewthat I wasintroubleandyouthatthisjustwassomethingthatwasn't rightformeatthismomentintimebecause I'veliterallythat's exactaroundlike I wasonthewallsaysforfourmonths, changingsystems, tryingdifferentthings, thatplacejustneedthatconsistentmessage, thatmessageofthatdirectionoff.
Ifallof a sudden, after 34 games, youchangetheteam, youchangethesystem.
Youobviouslyitallovertheplace.
Andittaughtme a lotintermsofittaughtme a lotand I thinkthat's wherethereweretheselotsoflittlemessages.
I I thinkagainstyourbetterswastheworldworded.
Theteamtalkwhere I thinkAlvaroNegredocameuptomeinthemorningofthegamewere a fromhomeand I gotto a pointwhere I couldspeakreasonablefootballSpanish.
I wasliving.
I say I wasdueforlessons a weekand I was, youknow, I wasreallytryinghard, and I alwaysmadesurethattheteamtalkswereinSpanish, and I alwaysmadesurethat I called.
HismeetingswereinSpanish, and I alwayswantedtoimmersemyselfinthecourtbecause I'veseenwhathappened.
Intermsoftheprinciplesofthat, I allowedallowingotherpeopletotakethelead, allowingotherpeopletodothings, notnotreallystandingupthereandbeingfrominCentralandsayNo, I'm takingthecoachingsessions.
I'm doingit.
Everybodyelsemovedtoonesideand I remembersayingtopackonPhilonedaytherewas a pointwherebythetrainingwasprobablystoodstillforaboutthreeorfourminutesonDhe.
Itwasstoodstillforthreeorfourminutesbecause I wasgoingtoget a messagetoWon't playthatwasaskingmequestionsbackandyou'vegotRemember, if I answerforwhatif I answer a questionwiththe 2nd 6 30 secondstotranslate, hethencomesback.
I remembercomingoffthesideofthepitchonit, beenstoodintheplayersinvestedaroundsomewhere, joggingonthespot, someonekickingballs, someonetalkingbecause I wasdealingwithoneortwoplayersand I remembercomingoffthesideofthepitchandsayingFilledPaco, I wantyoutofeelhavebeenoutthereforabout 89 monthsofspoke a lot.
I think a coupleoftimesathalftime I think I lostmytemperwiththeplayersfellas, thoughthereweremomentswheretheretheywereisoneofthethingsthat I learnedfromthatsessionfromthatfromthatexperience.
Sorry, butwhenmaybefoundsometimesandmaybewhen I wasinthemediaLook, a groupofplayersandwethinkarethey'renot.
Sure, mediumandlongtermyouknowsomethingatonce I was, umSoonce I waspsyched.
I havetosaythatbecauseofmyexperience I hadwhen I wasyoungerandfootballwhen I lostmyconfidencearoundtheageof 23 24 aroundtheworld, theEuropeanchampionshipsin 2000 andgivingthegoalagainstVascodeGamatheseasonafterthetrouble.