I don't wanttocreate a portraitwheresheseesherselfwaslikeuglyordifferent.
It's no a partofmybodythat I normallyshowshowingitsomeonethat I don't know.
We'llbescaryformeSowhenyou'reready, ifyoutakeyourgunoff I wasinjuredwhen I wasabout 1.5 yearsoldand I was a birdwith a reallyhotwater, myscartocoverhalfmyface, mylefthand, myleftshoulder, mostoffmybackonmychest.
Sometimes I feelquiteheldbackbytheneedtoexplainwhathappenedtome.
I thinkbecausemystorycouldbequitedifficult.
I justrealizedthat I justhavetosay I gotinjuredas a teenager.
I struggledquite a bit, wasjustfindingwho I wasandhowotherpeoplesoldme.
I'm hopingthatbygettingtheportraitdone, I'llbeabletoseemyselfin a differentlight.
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I feellikethisispartofmyjourneyofregainingmyconfidence.
I don't usuallycreate a paintingor a pieceinsuch a smalltimescale.
Usuallygot a bitlongertoworkonit, soit'llbe a bitof a challenge.
Howwasthatwhenyouwenttoschoolfortheotherkidsareacceptingtowardsyourscarsorlike, wasit a difficulttimeforyou?
I thinkwhat I definitelyfoundhardgrowingupwashavingtoevalidateit.
Otherpeoplethink I struggledwiththebattleofWhatdo I needtotellthem?
Cantheyjustacceptthefactthat I have a scarthat's parfaitandwho I am?
Whathavepeople's reactionsbeingnice?
I wentonholidaywith a friend, andsoshewasjustputting a bitofsomecreamonmybackon a ladywalkpastandsaidthat I shouldcoverupbecausenobodywantedtolookit, which I thinkwasquitehard.
Itquite a shocktomebecause I wasn't quitereadyforthat.
I think I wentfrombeingquite a confident, happy, chirpylikechildtolike, justsuddenlylosingallofmyconfidence.
I feltreallylow.
I wasinsecureand I justdidn't wanttohaveanythingtodowithanybody.
Wastherelike, a particularpointinyourlifewhenthingsturnedaroundforyou s?
Oh, I think I spend a lotoftimeinhospitalfrom a reallyyoungage.
Forme, theteamofthehospitalbecamequitelikefamily.
When I gotadopted, itwasactuallymyplacespecialiststhatadoptedme.
Soshehadbeanthere, likeallthewaythrough, metme.
Thefirstday I cameinon, I wasactuallyoneofherfirstpatients.
And I thinkmyparentshavealwaysencouragedmetodothingssothatinsteadofjustgivingup, itwaslikeactually, if I willstufftochange, I'm gonnabetheonethathastostartdoingit.
I usuallyuseinstagram, butthat's onlybean.
Inthelast 6 to 9 months, reallyItgavemetheopportunitytorestartand I couldbewho I wantedtobay.
Andit's definitelymend.
I cansharepicturesofmedoingnormalthingswithnormalpeopletohighlightthefactthatjustbecause I have a scar, itdoesn't meanthat I'm livinglifeparticularlydifferent.
Anyother 20 yearolds I thinkthatwe'redonewithtodaywe'vedone a goodfewhours, so I'llbeworkingonthistonightandwe'llseewhatitlookslikemore.
I'm a bitnervousabouttherevealtomorrowPies.
Otherworksarereallycool, butthey'rereallybigandbold, andso I can't reallypicturewerelongerlooklike a tool, so I'm excitedaboutit.
Eversince, I'vetriedtoget a lotofnewfullnessandplayfulnesswiththeNet, likebringingsomebrightcolorsthroughcapturethatnicelikeenergythat I gotofffromtar.
I don't have a lotoftimetillTaragetshere, so I wassoonehadtoloveit, andshe's neverhad a paintingdoneofherscarsbefore.
Andsocauseanother.
I'm quitenervoustoseehow I lookthroughsomeoneelse's eyesandtoseehowshe's doneit.