because I was inside a Target for 15 hours…

Ten years ago!

The last ten years have been really big. It's been big - and I can't really talk - like, get my mind around it even.

But I do know that I have changed a lot and what we do on this channel has changed a lot.

For example, in order to prepare for this video, I went to look at my schedule for 2010

and discovered that I didn't have a schedule in 2010!

But I think more importantly than that, over the last ten years, John, you and I have gotten less interested

in optimizing this channel for growth for like reaching new audience.

If you find your way here, absolutely good work. But we're not really trying to grow it, for three reasons.

One, it's just gotten harder and our skills are less suited to it.

Two, YouTube recommends stuff based on lots of different things.

Specifically, it would like us to make 8 to 12 minute long Vlogbrothers videos,

and I just don't want to!

I like this! I like making 4 minute videos, and that's the rules!

But most importantly number 3: growth, beyond a certain point, just gets less interesting... and worse?

Depending on what you want to do, of course, but like specifically for this channel.

Let's talk about why. But first, how many nails does a carpenter need?

It depends on what they're building, right? So you have to look and say, “What do I wanna do?”

And obviously for any given project, it's bad to have not enough nails.

But after a certain point, you can have too many nails.

Eventually you have so many nails that the nails don't provide you relief from stress.

They ADD to your stress.

The point is to get to HERE.

Eventually you just spend more time thinking about your nails than you do actually building a house.

I've thought about this a lot in the last couple weeks.

I just don't think that at its core, Vlogbrothers is about entertainment.

Yes, I want to do that sometimes.

But I think it's about doing things together and thinking about things together.

Things like Life's Library and the Project for Awesome and our work with Partners in Health

and just all of the ideas that we've talked about over the years

that have helped me understand how to be a person and how the world works.

And Dear Hank and John and SciShow and Crash Course.

SciShow and Crash Course long ago eclipsed Vlogbrothers in subscribers, in views, all that stuff.

But Vlogbrothers, just by virtue of the fact that those channels wouldn't exist without it,

has had more impact on the world despite having a smaller audience.

Sometime in the last ten years, and not all at once, and not at the same time,

John and I realized that you don't need a million nails to build a house.

We actually internalized this - it took awhile - that this channel isn't about

having the biggest number under the video. It's about doing things, creating stuff,

thinking about things together.

And not only is that like a goal of mine; it's also when I'm most happy.

And there are limits to that, because I want it to actually be a group of people

who recognize the humanity of all of the other people. And as the numbers get too big, you lose track of that.

Also, this channel is unquestioningly personality-based.

And having too many people have opinions about your personality, it turns out, is not great, actually.

Crash Course now has over ten million subscribers, and it should grow as much as it can,

because its goal is to reach people with educational content.

But Vlogbrothers? Like no, we're good.

You, watching this video, are part of something that helps stuff exist in the world.

And that stuff is sometimes real stuff.

Sometimes it's ideas that we wouldn't have if we weren't thinking together as a community.

That's pretty weird and it's cool and it's special and I'm really, really happy about it.

And in that vein, three things.

First, the Nerdfighteria Census is out! You can go fill it out right now.

Thank you so much to people who do that so that we can understand who we all are better.

We've been doing the census every year since 2013,

and it's super vital to how we make decisions about what we do.

So if you can take the 10 to 20 minutes it will take to fill it out, please please please do so.

Number two, the Kindle ebook of An Absolutely Remarkable Thing is 3 bucks right now.

So if you want to get it dirt cheap, you can. I don't think it's gonna be that way for much longer.

And finally, if you want to come see us in Atlanta or Raleigh or St. Pete next week,

we will be there. John, I'll see you on Tuesday.