I thinkthere's definitely a couplethatarearegood, but I thinkthere's anunderlyingissuewithmostofthemwhereit's asif a journalistjobsfunctionsthesamewayasitisforYouTubers, wherethey'repaidforclicksontheirarticles.
Sothey'rehighlymotivatedtogetmorepeopletoreadtheirarticle, andthatleadsto a lotofClickbait.
Itleadsto a lotofhottakes, anditmakesyouwonderwhathappenedtojournalismwhenitusedtobesubscriptionbase, sotheydidn't havetorelyonthesetactics.
Whenever I think I'm stuckand I know I havethingstodoand I'm procrastinating.
I alwaysridedown a bulletpointlistofthethingsthat I needtogetdonetoday, andthatwayyoucanstartchippingofftheeasybitsandthenyoucanget a clearschedulingyourheadonhowyou'regonnamakethatdone.
Ifyourvideomakes a lotofmoney, YouTubeisgoingtorecommendthatvideo.
Maura's wellDoesthatmakesense?
I hopein 2019 I canstartlivingbymyownideals.
MoretheIslamicsense.
What's somethingyouwishyoutwowouldchange?
Anythingyou'd liketosee?
Comeback, Putmebackin.
GooglepreferredYouTube.
Thatremindsme.
Actually, I thinkthat's why I gotsocaughtupwiththe I'm looking.
I'm lookingatmyselfnow, but I I canunderstandwhy I wanttomakemoremoneybecauseofwhathappenedin 29 2017 2017 whentheWallStreetJournalarticlecameout, myshowwascancelled.
I waskickedoutofGoogle, preferredgettingbrandillswassomuchharder.
Youknow, theydon't wanttotouchme.
So I wantedtoproveOkay, Well, youknow, I don't needtoworkwithbigbrands.
I don't needtobe a friendly, friendlybrand.
Thiomakeitandtostillearnthesameliving.
So I havetobe, youknow, I wantedtoshowthat I coulddothat, andthat's why I workedmyselfintothat.
Youknow, I gottoworkwith a lotofschoolopportunities.
We'llstartwiththe 1st 1 I thinkbothforthosethingshappenedthisyear.
Bestmomentwasobviouslytheweddingand I gottosharethatonYouTube.
Butalsosomeofthehardesthappenedthisyearaswell.
Andit's mainlystuffthat I'vehadtosortofdealtwithbehindthescenes, a lotofthingsthatjustbecomesmorecomplicatedifyoudressitonline, basically.
Butthatcanalsobeveryfrustratingbecausemyhome, thewholeway I'vedealtwiththingsonthischannelhasbeen I talkaboutit, I addressitand I getsupportfrommyaudiencewhen I doit.
Andthat's a wayformetodealwith a lotofhardshipthatcomeswithyoutwoandthentransferhave I alwaysenjoythecontent I make.
Itgoesupanddown.
I thinkingeneral, when I findmyselfnotenjoyingwhat I make, that's when I trieddifferentthingsandbasedonyouguyswhereyouguysthinkofit.
I goindifferentdirectionsandthat's thefunofYouTube.
I thinkthat's whyit's alwayschangingforme, and I'm notdoingthesamethingsallthetime.
HowlongdoyouplanondoingYouTube?
I'vebeengettingthisquestionsomuchallthetimebecauseyeah, I said I wasgonnagoon a breakandbecausethingshavesortofwrappedupformealmost.
Youknow, I gotmarried.
I hit 100 million.
Youknow, itwouldbe a goodtimetojustenditonthehigh.
Andit's kindofannoyingalmosthowpeoplekeepaskinglikeasifasif I shouldquit.
Likewhenthey'reyouquitting.
Areyouthinkingaboutthat?
Maybeyoushould.
I loveyou, too, and I think I havemoretogive.
I knowthat's kindofnaivetosay, but I generallythinkso, and I Sometimes I questionwhetheryouknow, ifit's possibleformetoachieveMaurbytheforeman I'm doingnow.
Since I'm uploadingeverysingleday, andifithaslongevityinthesenseof, I don't reallyhavedaysoffrightnow.
Thisyearhasjustbeenextremelybusy.
It's beenthebusiestyearofmylifeand I'vealreadyhadextremelybusyyearsbeforewhen I practicallybrokedown.
So I hope I canfindbetterbalanceformetokeepdoingYouTube.
Ifeveryyearwaslikeitwasthisyearthanno, I wouldnotdoitforverylong.
Andandtheworstpartisafterwards, theygouplike a kidwithyourphoto.
I'm likeyoujusttook a photo.
It's supercringe E.
I hatethefactthatpeoplelookatmelike I'm somesortofattraction.
I'm a personlikeeveryoneelseand I wanttobetreatedlike a person.
I don't thinkthat's toomuchtoask.
I hatethewholecultureof I.
I'm sotiredofitandthat's why I said, Ifyoumeetme, whatyouhavetosay, thisismathrelatedtosciencebecausethat's how I knowifyou're a cloudchaserorifyouare.
Ifyou're a genuine 19 yearold, thewaypeoplereact.
What I foundindifferentcountriesisverydifferent, right?
IfyougotocountrieslikeMalaysianSingapore, peopleareveryhecticandscreamishandcrazyandtheylosetheirmindiftheyseeyouandtheydoallthesecrazystuffandandthenyoulookatcountrieslikewhen I gobacktoSwedenpeoplearemorelikeme, morereserved, verypoliteandcalm, andjustandmore, I wouldsay a lotniceraboutit, which I really, reallyappreciate, sothatmakesmethinkthewholewaypeoplereactisn't justlike a naturalreactionofbeingnervous.
It's justlike a trainedreactionofOkay, sothisis I'm sohow I'm supposedtoactif I see a famousperson.
Somecomplainingaboutitisn't likethat.
I'm fedupwithit.
It's morelike I wanttochangeit.
I lovemeetingfans.
Don't getmewrong, but I alsowantpeopletojusttreatmenormallyaswell.
And I don't likewhenpeoplescream.
I don't likewhenpeoplegetfreakedoutand I understandyougetexcited.
That's notwhat I'm talkingagainst.
I thinkthereislike a culturetotreatpeopleliketheyaremorethantheyare, andthatannoysme.
You, toodoesn't havetofacewith a lotofreallywiththerealityofbacklashthatcomesfromthemediathatisinevitablygoingtoaffecttheiradvertisers.
Thatis a difficultpositiontobeintosortoflookatthebiggerpicture.
Butthenatthesametimeyouhave a websitethat's fourcreators, butthecratersneedsadvertisers.
I wonderifyoutwojusthadtheballstojuststandtheirground, howthatwouldaffectitBecausetheyare, theyareessentiallyin a monopoly.
I willsay I thinkit's obviouslycomplicatedin a lotofways.
I I understandyoutwo, butatthesametime, I thinktheymadedecisionsinthepastthataresoantiyoutuberthat I wonderifit's gonnatakethem a lottocomebackto a betterpointwiththecommunity.
I think, and I thinkifyoutwowantSTO, havelongevity, eveniftheydohavemonopoly, theyneedtogetthatback.
I knowthat's reallycliche, butit's likewhat a lotofYouTubersdo.
But I thinkitcouldbe a funmediumformetoexpress a lotofideasandthoughtsthatit's hardtoputintowordsin a video.
I thinkmusiccouldbeaninterestingmediumThiotodothat.
Willyoumakemorephilosophicalvideoslikethat?
I hateTwittervideo.
Yeah, I willdefinitelymakemore.
I havesomestuff I'vebeen, Um, I sortofjustletitsimmerinthebackofmymindwhenever I feellikethinkingaboutsomething, So I justmakeitWhenitcomesnaturallight, I trynottoforceit.
Howdoyoudealwith a lotofhatealone?
Well, I thinkthey'reimportant.
Bidistounderstandthateveryoneis a moron.
No, I yeah, sorry, it's a regularlifebecauseit's it's I'm joking, butit's alsotrue, butonlybecauseyoualwayshavetobehonestwithyourselfandseeOKifsomeonesayssomethingthatismakingmefeel a littleuncomfortablebecausemaybethere's sometruthinitthat I thinkit's importanttoaddressthat, andyousaidasconstructivecriticism.
But I thinkonceyougetsomethingthatisjustpurelystupid, withnologicbehinditorconstructivefeedbackbehindit, thenyeah, I treateveryonelikethey'reanidiot, which a lotofpeopleare.
I swearintheunits, likethesmartestanddumbestthingever.
I don't rememberif I answeritthisway, butifyoucouldchangesomethingthisyear, whatwouldwouldyouchangeifanything?
Definitelytryandfind a betterbalancebetweenworkandtimeoff.
It's definitelynotonlythat, butthat's definitely a plus.
IsoneofthefewAsiancountrieswhere I canactuallymovearoundandnotgetrecognized, whichisveryliberatingbecauseeverytimeyoumeetsomeone, theyjustwantsomethingfromyou.
Theywantthatpicture.
If I can't drawthedistinctionifthey'regenuinefanandifthey'rejustsomeonethatthinksyou'refamous, that's kindofsoulcrushingin a way.
I wishpeopledidn't asktobehonest, becausethepressure's itshouldbecomefromusanditshouldn't comefromlike I don't wanttobepressuredaboutit.
No, stop.
It's like I say, thesmallestthing.
Likeallwe'regoing, I'm taking a breakandpeoplelikehe's goingtomakebadbearlike I don't knowIfyouhadthechoicebetweenamnesiaandMinecraft, whatwouldyoupick?
Well, Minecraft, obviously.
Doyouthinkyou'recontent?
Getbetterorworse, comparedto, let's say, 2017 doyouthinkyou'retryingmoreorlesswhenmaking a video?
Comparedtothattime, I probablytrymorebecausethevideo's kindofhavetobe a littlelongernow, soitdoesn't makeit a littlebitmorecomplicated.
Beforeyoucouldjustrecordlike 10 minutesandcutitdownto a fiveminutevideo.
I thinkthemainthing I noticewithallthevideosisthevoice.
Myvoiceissodifferent, likehouseofgumback.
Hey, howthen, mylambit's socringingtome I hope I finallyfind a voicethatisactuallymyvoiceopening 21 I lookbackatnowand I don't cringe.
Yeah, I don't knowwhyyoulookdepressedforRiel.
Pleasetelluswhydo I lookdepressed?
No, I'm not.
Don't soweird.
I thinkmainly I'm justfrustrated.
Thinksomuchhappenedthisyearthat I didn't taketimetoprocessand a sourceofpartofreasonofthisbreak, I think.