But they don't feel like that yours, because you can't do all the usual things.

I cry, but you can't pick them up When you call, you can't hold them, and it just goes against everything that you feel you should be up to do.

As a mother, I feel like I'm holding my breath.

I was thinking about booking a holiday for next year, but I won't because I don't know if I book it for four people or five.

This is the most helpless I've ever felt as a father.

It's just you can't do anything.

You're your lives, literally in the doctors and nurses hands on.

You've just got to sit there white, and it's excruciating.

But she's born at this.

Saris have amount of days to live, and you'd have to say, Good voice over.

Um, if you say it in that nice and protected, I just have an overwhelming sense of.

I've got to be strong, even though it's her in May as well.

I've got to be strong to keep her together.

So one point tight, that's really good.

Yeah, hell baby all those times that you've just been set there looking at her, wishing that you could hold up.

And then when you get Teoh, it just it feels right.

It read us is is the best thing being open to just holder and talk to her.

It just makes everything worth it.

I rely on on hype and face I have facing a She's she's a fighter, she really is.