Allof a suddentheyhavenoplanandnosenseofdirection.
Andthatwasmewhen I graduatedfromschoolbackin 2008.
I knew I wantedtogotouniversity, but I didn't reallyknowwhatcourse I wantedtotake, so I tookfilmstudiesbecauseitwastheonlything I wasgoodattheonlycourses I'vedonewellinwheremediaandfilm.
I goon a in a in a business.
I gotBayandinEnglish I got C Soitwasgreatand I thoughtGolfUniversityandbecomethenextMartinScorseseanditwasgonnabemagical.
Butthey'resuddenlyaroundSeptember, whichiswhenyoustartuniversityintheUK I realizedbecomingMartinScorseseisnotthateasy.
Andallof a sudden I realizedtherewasprobablymaking a bigmistakeonAfterspeakingtosomefilmstudiesgraduatesonmylocalsupermarket, I realizedthatstudyingfilmuniversityprobablywasn't thebestthingtodo.
So I postponedmydegreeonTake a Gapyeartogetsenseofdirectionandgetsomeclarityonwho I waasonwhat I wasdoing.
SoinSeptember 2008 withallmyclosestfriendsgoingofftouniversity, I wentoffintheotherdirectionandstartplanningmygaphere.
I wanted a yearofunbridledadventureanddiscoverywasgonnaisgonnabeamazing.
Andthen I got a fulltimeofficejobstaringatExcelspreadsheetsfor 40 hours a week.
Anditwastheworstyearofmylifeever.
Havingfinishedschoolanddelayedmydegreefor a year, I nowfoundmyselfinanofficejobinanenergycompany, justmovingnumbersaround a spreadsheetfivedays a week.
Myadventurousplanstotravelaroundtheworldweredestroyedbymylackofmoneyon, eventhough I hadtwojobs, therelativelysmallamountmoney I madejustaboutcoveredmymonthlyexpenses.
It's quitetheoppositetoAmericainthatregard, whereeveryonebelievestheycandosomethinggreatandthere's a realsenseofentrepreneurshipembeddedintheculture.
Butaftersixmonthsofreadingallthesestoriesofentrepreneursandbecomingcompletelyconsumedbytheideaofstarting a business, I cametotheworryingrealization.
I lacktheselfconfidenceinthesortofselfbelieftoeverbecomeanentrepreneur.
Andi, I knew I wouldneversucceed.
So I cametotheconclusion.
Theonlyway I wasgonnaeverlevelupwastodosomethingreallyboldandoutofcharacterformeatthetime.
I just I did.
I wouldgivemyselftheultimatechallengeoflivingandworkingabroadonlearninganylanguagein a completelydifferentcountryonthrowmyselfintothethickofitUniversity.
I knew I wantedtotrylivinginAsiabecause I wantedtoseetheworldfrom a completelydifferentperspective.
I figuredif I couldliveinthecountryinAsiaontryandacquire a newlanguageandadaptto a differentculturethan I couldprobablyfeellike I coulddoanything, and I knewasitwasoutsidemycomfortzone, therewas a chancethatitmightwork.
Afterdoingsomeresearchonline, I discoveredtheeasiestjobtogetoverseaswasinEnglishteachingjob.
Soinearly 2009 I switchedmydegreefromfilmtobusinessonEnglishlinguistics.
ThefinalpieceofthepuzzlefellintoplaceinApril 2009 when I wenttovisitmythengirlfriend.
Hewason a skiseasonintheFrenchAlps, havingthetimeofherlife, which I definitelywasn't enviousabout.
After I gotofftheplane, therewas a fourhourcoachjourneyfromtheairporttotheskiresortonfortheentirefourhourjourney.
I justkeptthinkingofthiscrazyandexcitingideaoflivingworkinginJapanwhilstlisteningtoPhilCollinsbecauseforsomereasonitwastheonlyartist I hadonmyphoneatthetime.
But I didn't know a greatdealaboutJapaneseculture.
I'veneverreallybeenintoanimalmango.
I watchedquitefewJapanesefilmsandlotsoffilmssetinJapanon I hadlotsofimagesandmisconceptionsaboutthecountry, butitwas I wasexcitedbywhat I didn't knowaboutthecountryandwhat I couldlearnratherthanwhat I alreadyknew.
I justpicturedmyselfwalkingthroughthesebeautifulricefieldsandtemples, singingkaraoke E anddrinkingbeerwithstrangersandsalarymenhavingromanticencounterslikeLostinTranslation.
I alwayswantedtovisitthecountrythattwoweeksjustdidn't seemlikeenough.
Itwassofarawaythat I neverthought I'd everbeabletogoon.
I realizedbylivingandworkingthere, I'd reallybeabletoabsorbthecultureandtrulyappreciatethecountryandthelanguageinthepeople.
Andsobythetimethecoachpulledupwithskiresort, remembergettingoffwiththisideathat I wasgoingtoliveworkinJapan.
Infact, I remembersayingtomygirlfriendwhen I gotoffthebus, I'vedecidedtomovetoJapanonDuh.
I don't thinkshetookmetooseriouslyontobehonest, No, even I tomyselfthatseriously.
Butmymindwasmadeupthere.
Andthenitwasfromthenonthat I startedtoreadandlearnaboutthecultureonthenextfewyearsthroughmyawfulboringjobthrough a degreethat I didn't reallyenjoyinuniversitystudies, thatboardMayJapanwasmyguidingstar.
Thisideaoflivingandworking.
Japangaveme a senseofdirectionandpurpose, anditmademerealizetheimportanceofhaving a dreamand a senseofdirectionand a becauseafterthat, I becamereallymotivatedforthefirsttimeever, actuallyputsomeseriouseffortintomoreacademicstudiesin 3.5 yearslater, offthatdecisiononthatfast, loandbehold, I foundmyselfsittingin a chairinmytinyapartment, swingingaboutnoisyhall, havingstoodinfrontofhundredsofpeopleandspokeninJapanesemanageclassroomswith 4 18 agesinjustlearnedhowtoreadandcommunicatein a completelyalienlanguage.
Allmyconfidenceissuesandlackofselfbeliefcompletelydisappeared, fadedaway, and I feelwhatcantrulydoanything I want.
Nowifthere's onething I wantedtotakeawayfromthisvideois I have a dream.