Then after that, I just didn't reply back to her.

I didn't know what to say.

Do you have any texts from your exes?

Any texts from my -?

Let me, let me see. I might have one.

No, let me, let me type in this one.

All right no, let me type in this one.

No.

I don't think so.

I block everyone that does me wrong, so.

I actually have a screenshot of the last text he sent me.

We hadn't talked in a while I wasn't like mad like ah this guy, you know, texted me.

I was more like, fuck.

Ah, I was doing great like why do you have to-?

He said, "hey, hey," hand emoji.

"Just wanted to message and say congrats on the feature in the paper."

"Very proud and happy for you, more blessings are on the horizon and he puts si se puede."

My friends were like "don't reply!"

"Or like just say thanks!" and I was like, yeah, yeah.

Oh, yeah for sure.

Then of course my ass sends a long brick text like "Oh, thanks."

"How you been la la la."

Kinda, of a more pointless text.

I got nothing to say.

But just saying hi, I'm like "well, I've become a wuss with the weather."

"How did I once live in a place that had snow?!"

And then she's like, 'You know, it's just it's funny how we adjust."

That's - that's philosophy on life.

So if i asked you what was the last text from your ex, you wouldn't have it?

I know what it is offhand.

I had said something along the lines of, like, "Hey I'd love to grab coffee with you and just talk things out" and she had said "um ... you don't get the right to talk to me, one."

"Two, It's not my job ,and please don't talk to me again."

I was like, all right.

And then I never tried to text her again.

I said "Hey, thank you so much for the poem."

"It was really beautiful."

"I've been doing a lot of soul-searching and thinking lately and I just don't think that were a right fit."

"I enjoy your company and I've had some really great moments with you."

"I just realized I'm not where I need to be to continue."

"I don't want to waste your time and I hope you understand."

-Did he reply? -No.

So I said, "Um, my whole mood has changed since we talked."

She asked me if "Changed how?".

I told her that I felt really empty after talking to her again.

So I feel like if you talk to someone like that, you're regressing back to your previous life.

The last thing she said was "You known how I felt since the beginning."

"I've always been open about my feelings and even willing to bend over backwards for you."

"I'll always be here for you. No matter what, but if you don't think having me around is good for you, we should cut off all ties."

Then after that I just didn't reply back to her.

We broke it all off earlier this year.

We tried to reconnect as friends.

But, it's so hard.

There's so much history, but it's okay to let things go in your life because there are better things ahead.

I'd dated this girl for a while and basically, well, to be blunt.

I cheated on her, and it was stupid of me, first of.

Oh, good, it was uh, her birthday.

I'd said "Sorry."

"I really don't know how to start this."

"I really just wanted to say Happy Birthday, and I hope that you had a good day."

"You don't need to text me back, I completely understand if you don't want to talk to me, but on the off chance you do."

"Would you want to grab coffee sometime, Just let me explain?"

She responded.

"Stop texting me."

"You've recently sent me a couple messages, and I don't ever want to hear from you again."

"I've forgiven you, but I do not want to be friends or keep in contact."

"I'm not gonna meet you."

"So don't text me, call me, or in any way try to contact me again."

Yeah, I think, I hope she's doing well.

Why do you still talk to her?

You can still appreciate somebody's company.

Appreciate just different world perspectives and so and that's not the case, you know, for all exes.

But i figured if you can't be a good partner in a relationship, at least be a good ex.

If I'm gonna move on I need a-.

It's very rare that I try to stay friends with someone.

I mean, if I tried I wouldn't be able to get over it because I'm a very emotionally attached person sometimes, you know, I care too much.

It's the kind of person I am.