Justhas a generalverydrowsy, sleepyvibe, butwith a bitofcolortoit.
First, I'm gettingoneofmybrows, butyeah, so I'm justdoingmyfoundationroutine.
I grewupin a veryprettypartofftheVaria, I suppose, whichisjustItwasvery, veryshielded, veryCatholicwhenever I could've, whichisstartdreamingoffdifferentthings.
Differentworldforanearlyschool.
Theteacherswouldalwaysjusttellmyparentsthat I'm a dreamernotbeingtopresentwhenitcametoactuallylearningaboutmathsorthingslikethat.
When I was a kid, I didn't reallyexperimentthatmuchonme.
Itwasmostlydestroyingmonsters, I suppose, Anddrawingcreaturesneverappearedtomethat I couldjustturnmyselfintoanything I dreworanything I thoughtabout.
TheCatholicChurchthendefinitelywasoneofthereasons I leftthearea, becausethewholeCatholicism's andallthestrictrulesthatcomewithitandallthediscriminationthatcomesalongwithorganizedreligionarejustthings I didn't wantinmylifeanymore.
Berlinwas a goodescapeforme.
Forthat, I amgoingtostartgoinginwiththegreasepaintonthemappingoutoftheface.
Well, thisiswhat I pickedupfrommystudies, basicallyfrommylife, drawingclasstojustkindofseetheproportionsoffthethingyou'reworkingon.
As I'm workingonmyface, I justtriedthio.
JusttryThio, usethepaintbrushtoseewherethingslineupifthey'reonthesamelevelandjustusingthatas a as a helperforsymmetry.
I doknowmyfacemorethan I should.
Itdoesn't helpmeknowingthatit's notperfectlysymmetrical, butithelpsformyworkdoesn't helpformyselfimagerybecause I knowthatit's notperfect.
Thenitcouldbeperfect.
Yeah, Now I'm goingtogoinwiththeblacktoreallycreatethe I illusion.
I wouldwanttoseehowitmoves, howitwouldreactif I poseif I dodifferentif I squint, ifthelinewouldstillmakesensein a motiveway.
Basically, thisismyfullillusion.
Atthispoint, I'm gonnaaddmoredetailslike I woulddragdownmypupildiagonallyandthenjustslammedmyeyesoutmore.
Andthentheytrytoquestion, Wouldtheyconsideredbeautifulinwhattheyusuallywouldseeasbeautiful, Likewhatwiththestandardsofbeautyofbyebeyondwhattheyknowandthat I alwaysfoundquiteinteresting.
Inpreparationfor a FashionWeekgig, I wenttocamp, look, marketon, hunteddowntheonestorethatstillhadHalloween, lendsuson.
I puttheminand I justkeptstaringatmyselfbecauseitwasjustsuch a faceopeningmoment.
I feltlike I coulddosomuchmorewithit.
I'm gonnaaddFletcherlasheson.
That's yourBFBackinschool, I brieflydidsomeresearchoncamerasurveillanceonhowyoucouldpreventitorhowyoucouldconfusethecameras.
Andistartedworkingwiththeideaoff, hidingthenose.
I noticedthattheearliest, whennoneofthefacefilterswouldworkonmyface, wherecamerasdidn't reallyseemyfaceanymore.
Ithasgottenbetter, whichis a bitscary.
Camerasdotendtotrackmenow.
Notlike I canhidelookinglikethis, butitisactuallyclaimingmoreattentionthanjustbeingundercover.
The's justlashes e cutupjusttoframemyeye.
Allusiontobe a bitmoreunderstandable.
Asand I I'm justgonnaaddthemouthpiece, andnowthatit's allcompleted, I'm goingtoworkonmyoutset.
I'm goingtogetreadytotakemyselfoutfordinner.
Yeah, this'llisit.
I'm dressedof a successfuleightiesbusinesswomanwithmystatementshoulders, a bitofteeth, hairandmysensiblecourtshoes, and I'm gonnatakemyselfoutFreshNitsa.
Oneofthefirstwordsthat I learnedthemeaningoffinBerlinwasjustrelevance.
Ah, lotofthereactions I getarejustnotrelevanttomylifeThatdoesnotrelevanttowho I amtowhat I dointomystory.
E kindofmanagedtojustseparatedfrommakinganimpacttopeoplethat I careaboutandthentonotcarewhattheirrelevantpeoplenecessarilysayorhowtheyreact.