So I thoughtthatwasreallytouching, andit's kindofawkwardandnotperfect.
And I likethat.
I can't tellyouhowmuch I lovewhen, likeboyskissinTVshowsbecause, like, I can't explaintoyouhowmanylikelittleyounggayboyswatchthatandwas, like, waylikerepresentation.
Like, I haveneverseenthaton a TVshowbefore.
Like, I don't thinkNetflixoranyoneunderstands.
Yeah, itwaslike a cutescene, butlikethatprobablychanged a lotofkidslivesthatonesceneandthat I don't know.
That's reallycutewaitingforme.
So I pretendedtofallinlovewithHaven't youhandshutupwork?
That's it.
It's sad, butthat's probablythemostrealisticthingthathappenstopeople.
I don't thinkfirstkissesair, thatband.
Thatwasprettybad.
Hejusthewasnotintothatall.
I'veactuallyhad a lotofkisseslikethatwhereyou're, like, superuncomfortableandlike, noonereallylikesit.
Himand I werewatchingTVandthenhelike, strokesmyhead.
And I waslike, Whatisgoingon?
Like, I amnotdog.
Whatishappeningon?
I wassonervous.
Myhandsweresweating.
I waslike, He's notgoingtoHe's notgoingtolike, I'm notready.
I can't doit.
He's justlikelookingatme.
And I'm like, I'm notgonnalookathimlike I can't lookingandthisistoouncomfortableforme.
Andthen I lookathimandinthatmomenthejustgrabsmyheadandjuststartsmakingoutwithmyfaceandlike I didnotknowwhattodio.
I wasjustlike, shockedand I justlike, satthere.
So I wenttothebathroomandallhislikethelivewasonmyface.
Itwassogross.
Sothatwasit, like, thatwasliterallymyfirstcase.
I mean, it's fine.
Noregrets.
Soifyoudofeeluncomfortable, it's notwrongorweirdorlametostepawayand, like, say, like, Oh, I like I needtogodosomethingorlike I'm notreadylikeit's allwhatyouwanttodo.
Youhavetorememberlikeit's yourmomenttotake a slowDon't betooforceful.