Subtitles section Play video Print subtitles - [switch clicks] - [electric razor buzzing] SOPHIA CHANG: If you ask Asians in the creatie if their parents can describe what they do, no. What does that mean to manage a? The gift that hip-hop gave me ws expressing myself in a way that was... raw. Wu-Tang helped give voice to my. [crowd shouting] ♪ I am now an author. I wrote a book. My story speaks to the world. ALL: Woo! SOPHIA: But the people that I most wanna impact are women of color. What I am doing with any of thes that I'm telling my story is cracking open the world's imn on what an Asian woman can be, what a single mother can be, what a middle-aged woman can be. My daily existence is an act of. CARLOS WATSON: The most extraordinary lives follow undefined paths. To find your voice, you may need to journey into the unknown. I'm Carlos Watson, editor of OZY, and these are "Defining Moments" ♪ instrumental music ♪ ♪ - Hey. Do I get a hug or a shake? SOPHIA: [laughs] You get a hug. - Nice to meet you. - Hello, Mr. Watson. Nice to meet you too. - Thank you for having me in yo. - Thank you for coming. - Yeah. - This is an Asian household, so you have to take off your sh. I don't, though. - Oh, you don't but I do? - Yeah, kind of, that's how it , because mine are clean, and I'm, and I get to keep my shoes on. - You know what, your house, yo- - Thank you. My rules. I apprec. - That's great. Hi. Thank you for having me her. - I'm so excited that you're he. - Um... you're not a New Yorker. - I'm not. I'm, I'm from Vancour but smash cut into New York. ♪ Hip-hop was kinda my first introduction to it. CARLOS: What would have happened if you had not gone into hip-ho? SOPHIA: Oh, I don't think I woue the same woman I am today. If it wasn't for Wu-Tang, I wouldn't have the kids I have. I simply don't know what my life would have looked like had I not gone into hip-hop. ♪ I was born and raised in Vancou. Child of Korean immigrants. My mother escaped North Korea. She left behind siblings and he. She never saw them again. And she met my father at the University of Seoul. They got married, and they came to Vancouver probably in '64, and I was born. Where I grew up was almost exclusively white, so I faced lots of overt racism. I got called chink, I got calle, I got called gook. HEESOK CHANG: My sister put a lot of energies into wanting to be assimilated, especially I think in the high school years. SOPHIA: Every image I see of bey and power and sex appeal is whiteness. I was ashamed of being Asian fot just a little bit, but for a lo. When I had to talk about my parents' names, that was embarrassing. Listening to my parents talk with heavy accents was embarras. When people came over and they smelled our food, it was embarrassing. HEESOK: There was a period when she, uh, I think was kind of reacting against family traditions, sitting down at, uh, the table , which was very important for myy and eating Korean food. Sometimes my sister would see what my mom had cooked and she would make herself a grilled cheese sandwich. It created a lot of tension bet, her and my father. SOPHIA: I was always defiant. I was angry. And hip-hop showed me how to fine-tune that anger and. The first time I heard Grandmaster Flash and the Furio, the first time I heard The Mess, it was such a light bulb moment. - ♪ It's like a jungle sometime♪ ♪ It makes me wonder how I keep from going under ♪ - In retrospect, I believe that the reason that it resonatd with me so deeply is because... it was people of color taking control of their own narrative. CARLOS: How old were you? - I was 17. ♪ - I do remember her being very d when she first discovered hip-h, and I could tell that it was moe than the music. SOPHIA: If you're the child of , most of us were raised to take safe jobs. My father, God rest his soul, a math professor. My mother, a librarian. My brother is now a tenured English professor at Vassar. There's no doubt that I was supposed to be an academic. There was nothing academic that really stimulated me. Hip-hop just opened my eyes, like, oh my God. I was so anxious to get to New k that I skipped my graduation from University. University of British Columbia is where my father taught, it's where my mother worked, it's where my brother graduated. And then their daughter's like, nyeh, I'm just gonna go. That was probably really disappointing for my par. CARLOS: Unhappy with the future her parents prescribed for her, Sophia rejected her native cult, and would forge her own path motivated by the need to create her own identity. ♪ hip-hop music ♪ HEESOK: My sister lived in a tit right above the subway. - I just fell into the scene, I got ensconced, and it was just this world that was so new and vibrant. ♪ - I was in graduate school, and she would make me hip-hop t, and they were, uh, they were fa. Big Daddy Kane, EPMD, Public Enemy, Leaders Of The Ne. SOPHIA: This is a letter that I sent to my brother on June 8th, 1988. "Not much to write, but here are the tapes I promised so long ag. "I started writing a song-by-sos "of the hip-hop tape, but that will take me a while th so it's forthcoming." ♪ soft music ♪ HEESOK: So I used to visit my sister, uh, fairly often, and she took us to, uh, these cs that were playing hip-hop music. She was in the eye of the storm. SOPHIA: There were these three promoter. They had this brilliant idea to have clubs, and they named them after choco. Payday is the one that I remember the most. There was also 100 Grand Bar. There was Mars Bar, I think. And they would move from spot t. Like, I remember one I'm prettye was at a Ukrainian hall. One was at a deserted Chinese r, and it was just such a sense of. There was no social media. There were no cell phones, so wd just get the flyer and call eac, oh my God, it's gonna be here, it's gonna be there. It was like going on, like, a wild goose chase. It was awes. One of the people that I met in New York was Sean Carasov, this surly Brit who was doing A&R Jive in New York, and he was moving to LA. And he said, "Sophie, [in English accent] I think youd come and interview for my job." [in normal voice] And I was like, "Really? Wow, o" I went and I interviewed with Bs who was the president of Jive, and he told me later, he said, "The minute you walked in the d, I knew that you wouldn't get th" I'm sure Barry had doubts aboute because I'm a woman, I'm Asian, I'm Canadian, but after an hour and a half of, he gave me the job and I asked him recently, I sai, "Barry, why did you give me the" And he said, "Because you were . deeply embedded in the scene that I knew that you would be a good scout." Rico Wade and Ray Murray, two of the guys in Organized No. CeeLo... 40... Gipp, Joe. Historic. ♪ MICHAEL OSTIN: I had the good fe of meeting Sophia through some, uh, mutual collea, and I was taken with Sophia imm. She's such a... incredible force of nature. I mean, there's no doubt Sophia was a fish out of water. I mean, hip-hop and that world was misogynist but she just was super-enthusia, uh, very knowledgeable, and she was fearless. - Were you the only Asian-- - I was the first. I was the first Asian woman. There were other Asian men and women that came after me but '87, they're not like I was in there and not working. So were there other Asians in the clubs? For sure. But I actually had a formal posn as an A&R person, which was pretty striking. When I was at Jive, I did A&R which means I'm the talent scou, and it means that you're getting a whole bunch of demo tapes and you're listening to them, and a lot of them are garbage. And the Wu-Tang demo, three songs. Protect Ya Neck, Tearz, and Met. I remember putting it on and gog "Wow! What is this?" There were nine . Nine MCs. I mean, that's crazy. That didn't really exist like t. So there's no way Jive would si. Loud ended up signing them, but I was still so excited. I was a Wu evangelist. I was playing that shit for any. I was like, "Listen to this!" I knew that I wanted to meet RZ. I knew that he was the brains b. And I got a meeting with him and it was the summer of '93. He was gangly and taller than I'd expected. He greeted me with-- RZA: Hey, Soph. SOPHIA: We went down the streete to Lox Around the Clock for lun. I then grilled him with questios about the Clan. He told me that most of them had met in Staten Island, which they called "Shaolin." RZA had a unique worldview and clear vision for the group. When we parted, I thought, that's one of the smartest mother [no audio] I've ever met. As I walked north on 6th Avenue wondering when we'd next meet, he called out-- RZA: Yo, Soph. SOPHIA: I turned quickly. RZA: Next time, lunch is on me. - And immediately, they take me. You know, "Come here, Soph. You're with us now." I went to the studio and I had met Method Man and he rushes me into the backrm and he says, "Sophie, Sophie, you gotta come. You gotta watch my, "you gotta watch my video. I, I just got back the video for Method Man." And he shows me the video and sitting across from me and watching me is this guy, and when the video's finished, , "Where are you from?" Now, any person of color can tet that's rarely a question, it's a statement. It's saying who the [no audio] do you think? 'Cause you don't belong here. Before I could answer, Method just flew in between us and he yelled, "That's Sophie Chang, and she's down with Wu-Tang. Never disrespect her again." On the one hand, I'm getting, "You don't belong here. This isn't for you." But the flipside of that is hern saying to him, "This is for her. "This is her home. She is our family." Growing up as a yellow girl in a white world wanting to be white, I didn't really belong. Growing up being raised by Wu-T, I belonged perfectly. ♪ So in the process of working at, I think what I discovered was I'm a hustler, and I love looking for opportun. So I met somebody who worked at. Uh, she did marketing and I did. So those are, those are two sids of a record. Right. And so it occurred to me, wow, I have both sides of the coin h. I have me as a talent scout, and I have her as a marketing p. We should combine forces and start a company. Um, and we did. ♪ Michael, who was the head of A&, Warner Bros. Records, gave my partner and I a consult. But then the first person that r asked me to manage him was Ol' Dirty Bastard from Wu-Tang. And then I was managing RZA, and he was the first person to e to general manage a label, Razor Sharp Records, and I was . Hip-hop embraced Sophia Chang, but Wu-Tang claimed me. - Sophia Chang is the yin to ou. Sister. Sometimes she's in a sisterly spirit with us. Mother. Sometimes she's in a motherly spirit. All these different female chars at different times, you know, Sophia has been able to be towards the Clan. - It was interesting and excitig to see my sister discovering her Asian-ness through hip-hop, and it coincided with her relatp with Wu-Tang Clan. It was sort of a perfect storm. - Wu-Tang's infatuation for Asie was really intriguing to me. Wu-Tang loved kung fu movies, and the themes resonated so deeply with them. Loyalty. Brotherhood. Oppression. Few against many. I didn't think, well, this is weird for you as a Korean to enjoy these Chinese movies. I-I loved it. All of Asia draws so much of ite from China. And I think, you know what, I wanna, I wanna study kung fu. Me and my girlfriend Miriam went all over Manhattan looking at different kung fu sc, and they were all kinda trash. And then we heard there was a Shaolin monk teaching kung fu, and we were like, "No way!" I walked into the temple and I just knew that this was my destiny. Yuanfen, the Chinese call it. ♪ So I go and I study kung fu, and who, who becomes my master? Thirty-fourth generation Shaolin monk Shi Yan Ming. Once I met Yan Ming, I went home that night and I called my parents and I s, "I met the man I'm gonna marry." ♪ soft music ♪ But we were master and student. SHI YAN MING: - I started training more and It started hanging out with him mo. Five months after I started tra, we were together late one night and he kissed me. [gasps] This is me and Yan Ming. We were so in love. So many pictures like this of us hugging and kissing. The first time Yan Ming and I m, it was in this little room at t, and... it was so titillating bee it was at all levels, you know. Of course it was physical, it w, but it was also spiritual and emotional and psychological, everything all at once. It was amazing. - That's a sexy story. I mean, that's just a sexy stor. I fell in love... - It is. - ...with a, like, 34th generat. - Yeah! And he shaved my head. YAN MING: - It was, for me, just a reasone my devotion to Shaolin to the n. Shaving my head for me is repree of non-attachment. It's a central Buddhist tenet of non-attachment. The way that my head feels after I've shaved, It just feels so good, I'm rubbing it all the time, like a Fat Buddha belly. And it just reminds me to just , can't be attached to things, ju. We became really serious really. There wasn't really much of a c. It was just, "Okay, this is what we're going to do." INTERVIEWER: HEESOK: When Sophia began to train with Yan Ming, she was certainly devoting her, all the energies she had put into the music induy into Yan Ming and the temple, um, trying to raise its profile, trying to get Yan Ming into commercials and films, introducing celebrities, um, to, to join the temple and train with Yan Ming. - 1995, Wu-Tang Clan, they were at the height of their popularity and relevan, and I introduced Wu-Tang to Shan and Shaolin to Wu-Tang. RZA never said no to the temple. Every interview, every appearan, he was always there. And then I got Yan Ming simultay on the cover of the four biggest kung fu magazines in the world. Yan Ming, I would say that, other than the movie stars, was probably the most well-known martial artist in the world. Eventually, I made a hard right out of the music business. ♪ instrumental music ♪ - I do remember her telling me she was walking away at a moment when she could be mg a lot of money, but she just couldn't, uh... she just couldn't do it. She found her next, uh, passion. - Never looked back. Never had . Never sat there going, should I or shouldn't I? I just knew that that's what I was supposed to do, but that's who I am. MICHAEL: This was her new partner, and they were embarking on having a family. She took all of that ambition and poured it into helping him build his business. - My decision to leave hip-hop g to do with what hip-hop was doi. It had everything to do with what Yan Ming was doing. - But that's Sophia. Anything she commits to or gets involved with, she's gonna give a thousand per. CARLOS: Just as quickly as she left Vancouver for hip-h, Sophia was ready to keep it moving once again. Her pursuits were now being driven by a desire to be a part of something greatr than herself. SOPHIA: You know, you fall in love with somebody and you don't think you could l, and then you have a child. YAN MING: - I always knew that I was going to have kids. Always. But being a mother is the most defining identity of my life. God, Christmas is so soon, isn'? JIAN LONG: Yeah, I-- Do you want to get a tree, by the way? - Do you want a gift? JIAN/JIN LONG: No. - Okay. - Well, I mean-- Why did I say no? I, yes, I wan. Yeah, but-- SOPHIA: Well, I already got your gift. Oh no, you paid for them. JIAN: Yeah. - Who paid for them? - Dad. - I paid for them. - Grandma, in a way. SOPHIA: Oh, Grandma-- JIAN: She also-- - You talking about the hoodies? - The hoodies, yeah. - No, Dad paid for those. - Oh, he did. JIAN: Oh yes. Yeah, yeah, sure. - Watching Yan Ming as a fathers amazing. It was amazing. He doted on the. I never told you guys there was a Santa Claus, did I? Did you guys ever believe in Sa? JIAN: I think I suspended my disbelief up until there was... a tag on . - Oh! But I wasn't like the whole thing about Santa Clas and North Pole and the reindeer and stuff like that, right? JIAN: No, I don't think-- JIN: I feel like I-- - I-- Didn't I, wasn't I just l. There's no such thing as a [no audio] tooth fairy. You're gonna fall asleep. I'm gonna put $5 under your pil- JIN: No, she actually did used to say that. SOPHIA: I did? - That's kinda messed up. SOPHIA: But around when the kids were two and four was when the fissures started t. And a lot of it was around justa how we were raising the childre- Uh, Yan Ming and I had different parenting styles. I was kind of more the drill se. I was more the disciplinarian, which is ironic considering how harsh the discis that he was raised in. You know, I wanted to let them cry themselves to sleep, and he couldn't stand the thoug. - I think that our lives were s. Professionally and personally and then you add children, and it was just impossible to s. I found condoms. That was the moment that I knew the writing was on the wall. This was looking at my life and him getting immersed into md and meeting all of my friends. You know, he defected here from. He didn't have a big social sce, and so my friends became his fr, and of course they all, they loved him to death. How could you not? There was no moment that brought on the end. It's not like I caught him in bd with somebody. It wasn't that a. Death by a thousand cuts. It was just an erosion, like so many marriages. HEESOK: The relationship between Sophia and Yan Ming had, uh, deteriorated to the pot that, um, myself and my girlfriend at thee were actually advocating for them to break up. It had become so toxic. SOPHIA: Well, he met a woman, he flirted with her, they exchanged numbers. That's acting single. That's cheating in my mind. It's not physically cheating, but it's emotionally cheating. If we were just a couple, I would have just left or he would have just left. But you have children. The calculation is totally diff. It was a good three or four yeas that I was in therapy. - To my traditional Asian paren, the idea of separation or divor, especially when children are in, seemed to them, uh, you know, a catastrophe. ♪ somber music ♪ - You never imagine a relationship not working out when you fall in love with somey because you're just starry-eyed. But I tried and I tried and I td and finally, you know, I realizd you've done everything you can. It's over. Uh, this is Yan Ming in his abbot's robes. The abbot is the head of the te. Walking away from Yan Ming absoy meant walking away from the tem, 'cause that was a cult of perso, cult that I helped build. Sure that was a low point in my. Sure it was. I felt... undervalued. I felt u. I felt betrayed. But it was eye-opening. There was one time that I went k three months after I left Yan Mg and the temple, and immediately these two of his disciples, two men, like six feet tall, walk up and they just stand in front of me like bodyguards, and I'm like, "You see this pla? I built this [no audio] house, " That was ten years ago. YAN MING: [Yan Ming speaks in foreign lan] SOPHIA: It's cold. [laughing] Oh, it's cold. YAN MING: Hi, Sophia. YAN MING: Cold? - It's so cold! And you're always so warm. - Yeah. - Ah! YAN MING: Yeah. Nice, huh? SOPHIA: Yeah. It looks even different than when I was here last time. - It's because there, there is some cleaning. - Yeah. Like, the chairs are mo- - Yeah, move around things. - It's more open. - Yeah. - Good. - Pretty, huh? - Yeah. Oh, it's great. It still looks great. - Nice. Yeah. - Altar looks beautiful. - Pretty. - Yeah. It's all good. Okay. I'm gonna get changed. - Okay. All right. - Those were difficult times, both emotionally, uh, psychologically, and financ. - When I left Yan Ming, I left my job, and I had to pay for everything. I have a rent now. I am paying for the rent as oppd to splitting it with somebody. - This is your-- All right, this is your size. - Thank you. CARLOS: Despite her best efforts and intentions, Sophia's life was taking another major turn. But for the first time in her l, she faced a future filled with more uncertainty than enthusiasm. SOPHIA: I was barely making anyy working at the temple as a non-, and I was broke. CARLOS: You went somewhere for a second there when you started thinking about. - About? - About being broke. - And about being broke, yeah, it was, you know-- I think the hardest thing for t, of course, is that I had childr. - She never once asked to borro. She had too much pride for that. - I'll never forget missing the. And I was late for something and I had to be there on time and I was forced to take a taxi, and I got in the cab and I star. I was so stressed out. I was like, I do not have nine s and 50 cents for this cab. I'm not somebody that gets down very easily. I'm not somebody that goes home and cries herself to sleep. I'm not somebody that can't getd because I'm so devastated by so. I am resilient. I am... powerful. - When Sophia left Yan Ming and, um, also left the temple, she had to, in some ways, start from square one. ♪ hip-hop music ♪ SOPHIA: I absolutely didn't thit going back into the music busin. At that time, the music business kind of in a really big state o, and a lot of people were out ofs because of mergers. So the first time I-- this notion ever crossed my mind was my mentor, Michael Ostin, who started running a managemeny with the legendary Nile Rodgers. And Michael said, "I'd like you to run the compan" and I said, "Why me?" He said, "Because, Soph, I've never known anybody as good with talent as you." So Michael and I worked togethe, and the biggest client we had was Raphael Saadiq. And working with Michael was a dream because, you know, Michael can get anyboy on the phone. You know, I could never get the record company president, the president of Columbia Recors on the phone, but I did kind of all of the day-to-day stuff. I read all the contracts, we talked about every deal, I didn't make a move without hi, and we really worked as partner. MICHAEL: She, at times, can be overly aggressive. She can be a bit of a bull in a china shop. There's no doubt about that. Sh. - Again, I'm a little Asian womn coming up in hip-hop. I'm surrounded by men. There's so much testosterone. And I, you know, there's a way that I present it, in a way that I had to maneuver. MICHAEL: Raphael, at one point, decided that he no longer wanted her as part of our management team. - Raphael has the dubious distinction of being the only person who's ever firee as a manager. - He just felt she was too aggr. I actually think he made a mist. - I think that if I was a man, he probably would not have felt. And that's when I realized, I spent 30 years of my life helping the men tell their stor. - I think the huge pivotal momet for this decision and confidence to decide she wat gonna completely be her own wom. She was never gonna have a job n and that she was gonna be in the Sophia Chang business. ♪ [indistinct chatter] WOMAN 1: Do you want me to toss the salad already? SOPHIA: Yes, please. WOMAN 1: Okay. - Silverware is right there underneath the shelf. WOMAN 1: Is this from Trader Jo? WOMAN 2: I don't know. WOMAN 1: Ooh, it came out a lit. I hope that's okay. Soph, should I go ahead and cut? SOPHIA: There's a smoked gouda in there too. WOMAN 1: There's a what? SOPHIA: There's a smoked gouda. - Whatever you like, Miss Sophi. SOPHIA: There's a line in Voltak called Candide, and it's... [speaks French] Which means, one must cultivate your garden. And cultivating my garden, part of that was finding my voi. My name is Sophia Chang, and I'd to say that I was raised by Wu-. [audience cheering] I did an audiobook. I feel more powerful than I've ever felt in my life, and I'm only getting stronger. There are other books in me. There is a scripted television . What I am doing with any of these ways that I'm telling my story is I'm out here telling the word in no uncertain terms that I am the baddest bitch in . - I'm very excited and proud about my sister's latest chapte. She seems to be writing it, lit. SOPHIA: I was a yellow girl, I was ashamed. Wu-Tang showed me the beauty of my culture. SOPHIA: I learned the greatest lessons of my life training in Shaolin kung fu and learning Chan Buddhism all because of this man. Um, I will carry those lessons for the rest of my life. I will train kung fu for the rest of my life. YAN MING: SOPHIA: You know, people always, how are your kids? And you know what I say? They're good people. They're kind, just, empathetic. [clicks tongue] They are amazing. So Buddhism is being present. Just being right here right now. ♪ instrumental music ♪ [chatter, laughter] ♪ I am right [no audio] here. And I love right here, right no. ♪
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