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Hey guys it's been a while...
So, a lot has happened in the last couple of months that I don't talk about
but I've been thinking about quitting YouTube once and for all
and just being done with it if I'm being honest.
Um... I'm sure some of you have noticed that I'm burnt out
and that I've been burnt out for some time now
Like the stress, the pressure, and the hate
Sometimes I just... I don't know if it's worth it
I feel like I'm walking on eggshells on YouTube
I have to watch every little thing I say
Like something really simple like me enjoying chocolate
or liking chocolate can turn into an eating disorder.
But I'm really proud of our community and what we have built
This channel has given me such a great sense of accomplishment
And look, everyone on social media gets hate
and it's normalized.
But it gets really challenging and hurtful
when some people try to villainize me.
Sometimes I can't block off all the hate you know
And on top of that there are brands that are trying to take advantage of me
There are people selling merch or apps
using my name that has nothing to do with me
and also people trying to hold trademarks over my name
My name
But you know, all that doesn't affect me as much
What affects me the most
is the persistently hurtful content
because it affects my mental health
and I'll get into that in a sec
And yeah, it just gets a little bit too much
and I'm just... losing passion for making content at this point
So I've been quite disconnected for the last couple of months and
some of you have noticed so it's really nice to finally share this with you guys
I can only talk about so many things in a video, so in today's video
I'm gonna talk about the legal proceedings that I filed in court
against 1) the individual from my "Time to Talk" video, and
2) a media company that has published material about me
and said very hurtful things about me
But before we get started I want to be crystal clear...
Hang on, hang on, I need to read this properly. I need to be crystal clear that
Ok, you got it?
Alright, if you have watched an older video of mine
you'll know about this guy that has posted
tons of statements about me.
Statements like I have "no fitness background"
I "know nothing about fitness"
I'm a certified personal trainer and I've put in hours of studying and training
so how can I not have any knowledge in fitness?
I "intentionally mislead people"
Claims that I "promote" eating disorders and body dysmorphia
Insults my content and community
Implying that I'm just "a pretty face in yoga pants"
and so much more...
and I stated in court papers that it was malicious and defamatory
Anyways, most of you guys know about that story
but no one actually knows what happened after
So I'm sure some people are gonna jump into conclusions and think
that Chloe's just escalating matters to court without basis...
No! ...No.
We have reached out to this person multiple times over many, many months
to try to resolve this matter
So after that video, I sent him a concerns notice
which is basically a legal notice saying
that here's a long list of things that you said that are defamatory
and here's your behavior and what are you gonna do about it?
So he responded to my lawyer seemingly apologetic and admitting that he was wrong
but a week later, he reposted everything - made things worse -
and he claimed that his girlfriend "told him to be nice" about it
but he changed his mind
so I guess his intentions were never nice.
Eventually he removed his publications again
and then in another email he seemed apologetic once again
and also weirdly pitched ideas to put me in a better light
and also suggested to come on my channel to make an apology
I don't even know what to say
First, he shits on me and then he pitches ideas?
So anyways, all good, right?
Seems sincere in an email, he then took down all the posts about me
So I thought, "Hmm, this guy deserves a second chance."
Disputes are very draining, okay?
In terms of time, energy and cost
And I don't have time for that.
I'd rather do something else that's more productive
So I offered him a Deed of Settlement
And typically, a settlement involves compensation for damages
From him to me
But I did not insist for any compensation, not a single cent.
In retrospect, I believe I was being way too generous
I didn't wanna make anyone pay for anything even though
he fucked up
I just believed that everyone gets a second chance
but I feel like he took advantage of that
All he needed to do was to give me a sincere apology
that he wanted to give me initially anyway
since he admitted that he was wrong
and to ensure those posts remained taken down
and just to stop! Stop all of this, 'cause it causes people to send me hate.
But long story short
after months of back and forth
he only put up the apology January this year
so at this point in January, it was all done
I was happy to move on even though I was the one that's out of pocket for legal bills
which, by the way, kept increasing because it took such a long time
to reach to a settlement.
He even said to my lawyer that my cost is no concern to him
and it's my choice for pursuing him
I'll be honest, I felt manipulated
and I felt that he took advantage of my kindness
Like, he made it sound like he's really apologetic
and then... he turned around...
Um... I just felt like I was too naive
It's just really confusing when he launched
a whole exposé, as he calls it
and then apologizing for it, wanting to move on but not really
like, he's still dragging on.
Anyways, it should have ended there in January
I let it go
and all he needed to do
as he said he would in the settlement deed
was to apologise and just stop... stop! Like he said he would
and to not dilute the efficacy of his apology
because what's the point of it?
But unfortunately, which is very predictable at this point,
he decided to go back on his words
and I can't go into detail for good reason
but basically, he just... kept going
with an ongoing campaign towards me.
He did this by victimizing himself
saying he was bullied to taking down posts
leaving up posts that he said he was meant to take down
making references to the original defamatory posts
jabs towards my type of content
creating a similar hashtag
claiming people have tried to sue him with no success
and I think all of this is contradictory to his apology
and dilutes the efficacy of it.
So, to me, the settlement to put this behind us was not followed through
I felt like he continues to refer to me directly or indirectly
or continued to act in a way to make me feel like I was being
undermined, bullied and targeted.
I just felt like it never ended.
And, by the way, we informed him of this
but he stopped responding and just kept going with this behavior.
I mean, he said that he even found a girlfriend out of this
and made reference to a lawsuit.
To be clear, there was no lawsuit filed before today,
only emails apologizing with promises that didn't eventuate.
And you can see how, by him saying that there was a lawsuit
it potentially changed his narrative
so some might actually assume that he had a lawsuit that he might not have
he might have won or something.
I don't know, it just seems like he's twisting things again.
So after the "Time to Talk" video, and even until today
people were sending me hate
and people were jumping on this hate bandwagon because
people believed these statements
and I just need to stand up for myself
and protect myself based on what the law allows me to
that's the reason why defamation, cyber-bullying and harassment laws exist.
I've always been the type of person that
lets things go because I don't like to dwell on things
so take this video as you may.
I don't start anything, I don't shit-talk anyone
I mean just look at my channel
like that's not what I do
but if I believe that someone crosses the line and keeps smearing me and my work
and then turns around and says
that he was bullied
when he started all of this...
Who was actually bullying who?
I'm not gonna let that happen. I'm gonna stand up for myself.
I was happy to let it go, but he just wouldn't let it go.
I'm gonna fight for myself
because no one will stand up for me
like how I will for myself.
I'm not gonna be pushed around
I've been bullied a lot...
a LOT
and this is it.
I'm not gonna let people get away with bullying...
it's just not okay.
It's just not okay with me.
I've worked really hard to get to where I am
I have sacrificed so much...
So... much. I can't even... begin!
Nothing is just purely luck.
I feel like I let him off the hook too easily
and he's taking advantage of that and just keeps going and
I'm just really tired of it, like, I'm just really tired of his behavior.
So, I'm doing what's right by me and my values
I'm a strong person
and I know that I'm strong.
I've gotten to where I am today because I'm strong
and it's liberating to be able to do this...
to stand up for myself.
Alright, so besides this person
I've also proceeded with legal action
against a media company who published content to make people think less of me
and distrust me
and refused to remove it.
And similarly, I had a really simple request:
it's just for them to remove the post.
I would assume that a media organization would vet their content
before they publish and do their due diligence.
It was really surprising to me that they
didn't want to remove the content when I flagged it
when other publishers just took it down
but this one just wouldn't budge.
The funny thing is that this same company once reached out to me
and asked me to do a workout live stream for them on their platform
so they knew how to reach out to me when they wanted something,
but they didn't know how to reach out to me to do due diligence
or fact checks with me before publishing an article about me.
There's always people that are going to talk shit and I can block it off.
But the response at that time was as if everything that was alleged were true
and here's what they said:
"Your client has no formal training in nutrition or fitness."
"Your client has a physique which is traditionally seen as being desireable
but is unattainable by many girls and women."
I didn't magically have this physique
I worked hard for it
I spent hours... days... days!!
Many, many months
I spent a lot of effort working on myself
because I was being teased and bullied about my physical appearance my ent-
not entire life, that's just too dramatic
but, for a long time.
It's really insulting to disregard my effort
that I put into making myself feel better or confident
and making it sound like I'm just gifted and I didn't work hard for it.
"The problem is that the vast majority of the female population will never look like
your client and their inability to do so fuels body dysmorphia. If your client
posed in a baggy t-shirt and sweat pants then she would not be adding to the problem."
So based on this logic, in order to not fuel body dysmorphia,
I should be posting my workouts in baggy t-shirts and sweatpants...
I'm just wearing appropriate fitnesswear.
What's wrong with that?
Why am I being singled out here?
Don't people wear fitnesswear when they work out?
"Of course, if she did that, she probably would not have as many followers
as she does."
Uh... I don't even know what to say right here, by the way...
It's just... so insulting and degrading
that I did not put effort into my work
I just... wear my beautiful fitnesswear
and get to where I am today I guess.
So basically, they repeated the claim that I have no knowledge in fitness
and that I fuel body dysmorphia and eating disorders
and I take great offence to that.
And this is something that hits me hard
because this is not something I believe in and this is not what my content is about.
It's putting a lot of weight on me and my conscience, and I disagree to that.
I haven't even shared how I personally experienced being body shamed
when I was in school, or at work
I haven't even got a chance to talk about it
so, to me, that's really hurtful
and a shitty response.
So, no, I'm not gonna back down just because it's a media company and that it may seem scary
I'll leave it to court to decide whether or not their conduct towards me was lawful
or if anything they said about me was true
and if the court determines that it's true, then
maybe I should consider whether I wanna be making any more fitness content
It's just free workouts, man...
Alright, I'm gonna wrap this up.
Look, I just wanna say this because it's very important for me to put this out there
it's fine for people to have a negative opinion about me
this is not what this video is about.
To me, this feels like a campaign towards me
that has been going on for a long time
it's been more than a year
and I don't know what he wants from me
like does he get a lot of enjoyment out of this
by sending hate my way from other people?
It's like it's normalizing for people to hate on me and you know,
in time, we'll know if the court finds this unlawful as well.
So yeah, I always wonder whether I'll quit YouTube on my own because
I feel like, you know, I'm way too burnt out from creating content
or I'm just like tired, or would it be because people are trying to take me down
'cause when that first happened it was just a lot of people hating me at the same time.
It was a little bit tough, um, but I know I have a thick skin
I could always just ignore a lot of it
um, but this one campaign actually did bother me.
It's fine
I'm okay
I just needed to tell you guys what I think.
It's nice to be able to tell people, I guess.
Of course, I won't be able to tell the full story here because, for good reason
but it's good to be able to say something, you know, instead of keeping quiet
and finally being able to stand up for myself
because it does look like I'm really weak
letting him just push me around like that
it's just not cool.
I've always been taught to keep my head low
look the other way
and just move on and, you know, like
don't worry about it, you know
don't worry about this kid, don't worry about this person bullying you
like, it's okay just move on
like, I've always been taught that way
to just try to not get bothered by people bullying me... um, but that's...
...I don't want it anymore.
I'm a grown-ass woman and I need to take care of myself.
I need to take care of myself.
So, yeah. This is it.
And if you are here still listening to me
thank you so much.
Don't think a lot of people care about this sort of video
or care about me this way because, you know, I make fitness content
so if you are here watching this video
if you actually bothered to listen to the entire video, it really means a lot to me
because it's... it's a long video, I reckon... um... yeah.
Thank you so much for watching.
Thank you so much for listening, I appreciate that.
I really appreciate that, like, I mean it.
I really do mean it.
Um... it's nice to be heard.
Again, thank you so much for listening
and I'll see you guys in the next video
bye bye