Look at that.

Oh my God, I don't want to document this because I feel like this is important for women.

Oh my God, that's so cute.

He's a daddy.

He's officially a dad by the title of this video.

You probably know what's going on at this point.

I'm currently eight weeks pregnant.

And in my first trimester, it took three months of trying to make it happen.

And I have to be honest, I was very discouraged because I had no idea that I can take up to a year to actually conceived for some people.

And so far, nothing was happening.

This was the month I was pregnant and didn't know it.

I literally thought my period was about to start.

And of course at three months of trying because I was always told by family and friends it'll happen fast.

I was literally conditioned to believe that fast meant one try when in reality a normal amount of time for conception is six months to a year.

So in this clip I was being so dramatic, so emotional and super unaware that not getting a positive test yet was normal.

But as a woman, we can't help but jump to the worst when it comes to trying to conceive.

Kind of want to document this because I feel like this is important for women to see what it's like to like go through this.

I feel like I waited so long.

But I mean I'm glad that I waited so long to start trying because we're in a really good place right now and we weren't before and especially like financially and emotionally and just settled into our marriage and I feel like this is a good time to start trying.

I haven't gotten my period yet, but like I've been kind of obsessing a little bit over the fact of getting pregnant.

My pregnancy tests are so expensive and I went through so many of them and I regret it because I was like trying to see if I can get like an early results and I did everything right.

And I tracked my ovulation and anyway, I don't know where this is going or if this is gonna be posted or like, I don't know, Hopefully some good news soon.

Thanks for listening guys.

If this ever gets posted.

Starting a family in your 30s is an emotional roller coaster and it's easy to get into your head as a woman thinking something is wrong with you so early on.

I had fears, it just wouldn't happen, especially with gut health issues and just getting older in general the next day, Eugene and I went to a museum, I haven't left the house much and was currently making some bigger changes and decisions in my life, going through an ebb, which means whenever you're going through an ebb in life, a flow usually follows.

So I took this low moment as a sign that things are about to get better and as always, I put my trust in the universe, I'm there with you.

I face timed you right here when I came back from L.

A.

I just want a bunch of little buddha statues in my, in my backyard.

But if we move to America, like that's what I want.

I want to bring a japanese garden slash shrine to my backyard.

So we made it to the museum and he keeps saying he wishes he brought his kim, it's really pretty in here.

It's so cool.

I love museums and obsessed with museums.

Like I don't care how boring it is.

I just love to walk around and look at art museums and all that stuff, but there's lots of cool stuff and I guess it's like all used with lights and everything.

This museum was a shadow and light art exhibition with a touch of Yokai, which means ghost and japanese y'all know how much I love ghosts as I've made several ghost hunting videos in the past.

So this was my jam.

Anyway, it was refreshing to get out and go on a little date, clear my mind and I honestly at this point I subconsciously gave up in my mind, I started to feel period symptoms as normal.

So I was like, well I guess it's not happening this month and I just accepted that.

So before I get into the details and keep you up to date on what's happening and what I'm learning as a pregnant woman living abroad.

I'd love for you to share this moment with us as we explore the museum.

We headed to a new place for dinner right after and after a stressful few weeks I decided to, yep, have a glass of sangria.

I really didn't think I was pregnant.

So I had a bit of a naive moment here.

I was not thinking what I would discover the next morning.

Oh my gosh, that's huge.

It looks so good.

Hi, how's the coffee?

What are we doing?

I don't know what compelled me to take a test the next morning, but something inside of me was saying to do it, it was almost like my body and soul knew but I refused to believe it, seeing things, seeing things.

My mind was completely lost so I didn't film this, but I ran upstairs to tell my sleeping husband made him worry something was wrong and started yelling, I'm pregnant and you can guess how excited and happy he was after the initial scare everyone Okay my heart's pounding because I wanted to take another test, but I just wanted to take a digital test.

It's like later in the day though, so I don't know if it's going to pick anything up or because it's still kind of early, it's like two days after finding out that I'm pregnant and things like that.

I don't know why I'm like freaking out.

Like I know that I'm pregnant, yep.

Oh my God you guys, I got it on a digital test.

I am so pregnant.

Look at that.

Oh my God I wanted to take the digital test is to see the words you know I'm so pregnant, I'm so excited.

This is so great.

Later in the week we had some questions for my doctor.

So my husband and I went to chat with her around week five just to confirm and do some health checks.

It was wild to see a little sack growing inside my stomach but it was definitely there and I was as healthy as can be okay.

So I'm going to my doctor's appointment.

I don't know if you can hear me but one of the gates was blocked.

So I'm going to go through this harry potter gate.

I have a lot of questions to ask my doctor when it comes to diet and medications and things like that.

So we'll see what she says and I will update you guys.

I also have been seeing a dietician and general doctor who I feel really helped me conceive with the right vitamins and thyroid medication.

So I of course went to her to get a second blood test and do some more checks.

And the appointment went well that day.

Did you get a pregnancy book?

Good job.

It tells you everything.

I like the pictures.

No, wow.

So what does it talk about?

It tells you everything about medicines and money.

Your guests and doctors and food that you're supposed to eat and what you, what you should be doing when you feel, you know when you're sick, we are going to a baby store.

I'm super excited.

This is the first time that I'm shopping for like actual baby stuff, even though it's like super early, a lot of people are like, you should wait and just wait to see what happens.

But I don't know, I'm kind of in the present moment and excited in the moment and I want to go look at baby stuff for the first time.

So I will share more in future videos.

But living abroad and going through this first trimester alone has not been easy, which is why I chose to share the news with friends and family.

I also highly believe that living in the moment is the healthiest for your mind body and baby.

So I'm soaking up these weeks constantly living in the now instead of the what ifs and worries that a lot of women tend to have during such a vulnerable time.

So this is a chain.

It's called Nishimatsu and they have like pretty cheap clothing, like some of it's like 600 yen.

Oh my God, that's so cute.

This place is like for baby clothing.

Um, I guess they have like baby toys that babies r us and stuff, but we're just here looking at the clothes, my goodness.

They're so tiny.

My God, look at these rainbows and unicorn shoes.

These are the Japanese school shoes that they wear when they go to preschool or elementary school.

So cute little rain rain jackets.

Oh my God, this is so cute.

They have little Yokota's.

These are so cute.

Look at the old, it's tom and jerry.

You guys tom and jerry.

I would like these little puffy ones.

Oh my freaking God, I have a feeling I'm gonna have a girl not big yet, just fat and bloated.

You put this on the back of the babies on his back and if he falls and topples over, he doesn't hit his head.

That's cute.

I like the bumble bee, It's cute.

Little baby toys too.

I like the sound looks like a nipple.

This looks like a nipple on a boob look.

He has a face to face and like hands and legs.

What is this?

Oh it's a little mirror.

So you can see himself like a rice cooker, a baby crying a bento box set.

Look at all the cooking stuff and the little register, I'm like, oh my God, it's so cute!

Oh my God, okay, so it's a baby doll and you feed her a little bento and it's so freaking cute.

There's like a bunch of sets and you can feed her so cute.

He's a daddy, he's officially a dad did it.

Bye.

Yeah, A lot of my friends who were pregnant said that they wish they could have enjoyed the first trimester more instead of constantly living in fear and fight or flight mode.

While these moments of fear do come up and are valid and early pregnancy, I choose to give myself permission to feel excited in this moment, to celebrate that my body was able to produce a human being.

I wake up every morning and say, I trust my body, an affirmation that gets me through most days in this early stage.

So if you are a woman out there who is newly pregnant, I understand you and I'm there with you.

I hope during the weeks to come that I can share the raw and real journey of pregnancy in another country, because it's a whole adventure in itself.

And I'm learning something new about my body and the protocols here every single day.

So stay tuned.