Feeling so faithless, lost under the surface

Don't know what you're expecting of me

But under the pressure of walking in your shoes

Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow

Every step that I take is another mistake to you

Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow

I've become so numb, I can't feel you there

Become so tired, so much more aware

I'm becoming this, all I want to do

Is be more like me, and be less like you

Can't you see that you're smothering me

Holding too tightly, afraid to lose control

Cause everything that you thought I would be

Has fallen apart, right in front of you

Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow

Every step that I take is another mistake to you

Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow

And every second I waste is more than I can take

I've become so numb, I can't feel you there

Become so tired, so much more aware

I'm becoming this, all I want to do

Is be more like me, and be less like you

And I know I may end up failing too

But I know, you were just like me

With someone disappointed in you

I've become so numb, I can't feel you there

Become so tired, so much more aware

I'm becoming this, all I want to do

Is be more like me, and be less like you

I've become so numb, I can't feel you there

Tell me what you want me to be

I've become so numb, I can't feel you there

Tell me what you want me to be

It starts with one thing, I don't know why

It doesn't even matter how hard you try

Keep that in mind, I'm resigned

It's right to explain in due time

All I know, time is a valuable thing

Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings

Watch it count down to the end of the day

The clock ticks, life awaits

So unreal, didn't look out below

Watch the time go right out the window

Trying to hold on, didn't even know

I wasted it all just to watch you go

I kept everything inside

And even though I tried, it all fell apart

What it meant to be, will eventually be

A memory of a time I tried so hard

And got so far

But in the end, it doesn't even matter

I had to fall to lose it all

But in the end, it doesn't even matter

One thing, I don't know why

It doesn't even matter how hard you try

Keep that in mind, I designed

It's right to remind myself how I tried so hard

In spite of the way you were mocking me

Acting like I was part of your property

Remembering all the times you fought with me

I'm surprised it got so hard

Things aren't the way they were before

You wouldn't even recognize me anymore

Not that you knew me back then

But it all comes back to me in the end

You kept everything inside

And even though I tried, it all fell apart

What it meant to be, will eventually be

A memory of a time I tried so hard

And got so far

But in the end, it doesn't even matter

I had to fall to lose it all

But in the end, it doesn't even matter

I put my trust in you

Pushed as far as I can go

For all this, there's only one thing you should know

I've put my trust in you

Pushed as far as I can go

For all this, there's only one thing you should know

I tried so hard and got so far

But in the end, it doesn't even matter

I had to fall to lose it all

But in the end, it doesn't even matter

I tried so hard and got so far

But in the end, it doesn't even matter

I had to fall to lose it all

Tell me what I've gotta do

There's no getting through to you

Lights are on but nobody's home

You say I can't understand

But you're not giving me a chance

When you leave me, where do you go?

All the walls that you keep building

All this time that I spent chasing

All the ways that I keep losing you

And the truth is, you turn into someone else

You keep running like the sky is falling

I can whisper, I can yell

But I know, yeah I know, yeah I know

I'm just talking to myself

Talking to myself

Talking to myself

But I know, yeah I know, yeah I know

I'm just talking to myself

I admit I've made mistakes

But yours might cost you everything

Can't you hear me calling you home?

All the walls that you keep building

All this time that I spent chasing

All the ways that I keep losing you

And the truth is, you turn into someone else

You keep running like the sky is falling

I can whisper, I can yell

But I know, yeah I know, yeah I know

I'm just talking to myself

Talking to myself

Talking to myself

Yeah I know, yeah I know, yeah I know

I'm just talking to myself

All the walls that you keep building

All this time that I spend chasing

All the ways that I keep losing you

And the truth is

You turn into someone else

You keep running like the sky is falling

I can whisper, I can yell

But I know, yeah I know, yeah I know

I'm just talking to myself

Talking to myself

Talking to myself

Yeah I know, yeah I know, yeah I know

I'm talking to myself

In these rooms they will not heal

Fear is how I fall

Confusing what is real

There's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface

Consuming, confusing

This lack of self-control I fear is never ending

Controlling, I can't seem to find myself again

My walls are closing in

Without a sense of confidence

I'm convinced that there's just too much pressure to take

I've felt this way before

So insecure

Crawling in my skin

In these rooms they will not heal

Fear is how I fall

Confusing what is real

This comfort endlessly has pulled itself upon me

Distracting, reacting

Against my will I stand beside my own reflection

It's haunting how I can't seem to find myself again

My walls are closing in

Without a sense of confidence

I'm convinced that there's just too much pressure to take

I've felt this way before

So insecure

Crawling in my skin

In these rooms they will not heal

Fear is how I fall

Confusing what is real

Crawling in my skin

In these rooms they will not heal

Fear is how I fall

Confusing, confusing what is real

This comfort endlessly has pulled itself upon me

Confusing what is real

This comfort endlessly has pulled itself upon me

Confusing what is real

Should've stayed

Were the signs I ignored

Can I help you not to hurt anymore

We saw brilliance when the world was asleep

There are things that we can have but can't keep

If they say, who cares if one more light goes out

In the sky of a million stars

It flickers, flickers

Who cares when someone's time runs out

If a moment is all we are

Or quicker, quicker

Who cares if one more light goes out

Well, I do

The reminders pull the floor from your feet

In the kitchen, one more chair than you need

Oh, and you're angry and you should be

It's not fair

Just cause you can't see it

Doesn't mean it isn't there

If they say, who cares if one more light goes out

In the sky of a million stars

It flickers, flickers

Who cares when someone's time runs out

If a moment is all we are

Or quicker, quicker

Who cares if one more light goes out

Well, I do

Who cares if one more light goes out

In the sky of a million stars

It flickers, flickers

Who cares when someone's time runs out

If a moment is all we are

Or quicker, quicker

Who cares if one more light goes out

Well, I do

Well, I do

I don't like my mind right now

Stacking up problems that are so unnecessary

Wish that I could slow things down

I wanna let go, but there's comfort in the panic

And I drive myself crazy

Thinking everything's about me

Yeah, I drive myself crazy

Cause I can't escape the gravity

I'm holding on

Why is everything so heavy

I'm holding on

There's so much more than I can carry

I keep dragging around, what's bringing me down

If I just let go, I'd be set free

I'm holding on

Why is everything so heavy

You say that I'm paranoid

But I'm pretty sure the world is out to get me

It's not like I made the choice

To let my mind stay so fucking messy

I know I'm not the center of the universe

But you keep spinning round me just the same

I know I'm not the center of the universe

But you keep spinning round me just the same

I'm holding on

Why is everything so heavy

I'm holding on

There's so much more than I can carry

I keep dragging around, what's bringing me down

If I just let go, I'd be set free

I'm holding on

Why is everything so heavy

I know I'm not the center of the universe

But you keep spinning round me just the same

I know I'm not the center of the universe

But you keep spinning round me just the same

And I drive myself crazy

Taking everything without me

I'm holding on

Why is everything so heavy

I'm holding on

There's so much more than I can carry

I keep dragging around, what's bringing me down

If I just let go, I'd be set free

I'm holding on

Why is everything so heavy

Why is everything so heavy

Why is everything so heavy

Why is everything so heavy

I remember black skies

The lightning all around me

I remembered each flash

As time began to blur

Like a startling sign

That fate had finally found me

And your voice was all I heard

That I get what I deserve

So give me reason

To prove me wrong

To wash this memory clean

Let the floods cross

The distance in your eyes

Give me reason

To fill that hole

Connect the space between