hey y'allit's chloeit's beensixmonthssincethecorporateapocalypseandlifehasbeenthewildestit's everbeenin a goodway i'd say a littlelifecheck-ineversincemyproductmanagementcoursewaslaunched i'vebeenprettybusymakingsureeverythinglooksgoodworkingwiththeteam i'vealsolaunchedmypodcastjomowithmybuddyericthankyoufortuninginbytheway i know a lotofyounico's arewatchingand i'vebeenveryintentionallydecidinghow i'm spendingmygapyearwithoutitlettingitslipthroughmyfingersyouknow i'm also a managernow i havehiredpeopleonmyteamthisyearhasbeenreallyinterestingbecauseit's a yearwhere i candoanythingbut i can't doeverythingandithonestlyhasthrownmeintoquite a looponetrait i don't loveaboutmyselfisthat i amgreedyaslike i wanttodoitallandit's neverrealisticand i'm scared i'm neverdoingenoughyouknowstop i'm scared i'm notdoingenough i'm alsoscared i'm notrestingenoughand i want a dogontopofitallmytherapisttellsmethattherearetwowaystorelievethisfeelingofnotdoingenoughoneisjustdomoreandthenthatfeelingtemporarilysubsidesuntilitreoccursthesecondwayistoreassuremyselfphysicallyandemotionallythat i amsafeoratleastsaferthan i think i amandthatthereisnobigriskhereand i amokay i know a lotof y'allhavesimilarthoughts i seeyouinmydmsandcommentsandifyoucoulduse a littlesupport i'd lovetointroduceyoutosomeonebetterhelptheworld's largesttherapyserviceandthesponsoroftoday's videoifyou'venevertriedtherapy i highlyhighlyrecommendit i'vebeengoingforsixyearsnow i'd sayamongstmyfriends i givesomeprettybasedadvicebutall i'm actuallydoingisregurgitatingwhatevermytherapisttellsme i feellike i'vedevelopedprettystrongmusclesformyemotionalandmentalhealthoverthelastsixyearsbut i wouldsayfindingtherightmatchforyouit's harderthanitseemsandthatiswherebetterhelpcomesintheymatchyouwith a licensedprofessionalusuallywithin 48 hoursbasedonyourinformationandifit's notworkingoutyoucanswitchtherapistwheneveryouwanthowevermanytimesyouwantwithnopenaltiescheckoutbetterhelp.comslashchloesheorchoosechloesheduringsignuptheygaveus a 10 discountfortheveryfirstmonththankyoubetterhelpforsponsoringnowontothevideohello y'allwehave a specialguesttodayhelloitisthisonehow's itgoingheyuniqlo's wowhowareyouturtlegang i thoughtitwouldbeinterestingforustotalkaboutlifeaftercorporatebecausebothofusworkedinthecorporateworldlet's talkaboutitthesceneandbehindittaylorand i metlastyearyepwhen i hosted a discordeventandthenyousawitandthenyouregisteredand i waslikenowaynoway i watchedtayloryouwerethebest i remembermeetingyouinthedrivewayyouwereimmediatelyopentomelike i watchyourcontentohhellyeah i loveyouyou'regreatandthenoh i justyeahkindofhititoffsincethenchloecrushedtheeventyoucrushedityouwereuptolikewhat 3 a.m thenightbeforeputtingtogetherthepresentationohmygodyeah i wanttothrowupyoudidsowelllikepresentedtohowmanypeoplecolinandsamirandthenjustlikedozensofcreatorsitwas a lottaylorwas a consultantandthennowyou're a full-timeyoutuberyes i aminnewyorkwhatisyourrosesthornsandbudsandthingsthatyouwerelookingforwardtotherosewaslikebeingsurprisedlikeverypleasantlysurprisedathowwelcomingandlikenotgatekeepingalmostallofthecreatorsthat i'vemetkeptasfriendsare i guesstheothersidetothisthat i wasreallyworriedaboutwaslikenothaving a communityofpeoplewhowerealsolikeinthebusinessworldbutalsocontentcreators a coupleyearsago i feltlikethereweren't thatmanyanothermajorroseisjustlikefeelinglikeit's workedoutwhere i canwakeupatwhatevertime i wanteverysingledayand i makemyselfworkbecause i loveitsoit's notit's nothardit's stillhardworkbutit's i lovedoingitalsotohave 100 ownershipoversomethingversusinconsulting i couldkindofhidebehindmymanagerandotherconsultantsthere's diffusedresponsibilitythorn i thinkthateveryyoutubergoesthrough a miniexistentialcrisiseverylikethreemonthswhereit's likewhatarewedoinghowisthiswhatwedofor a livingdo i sucklikewhat's goingonlikewhatdid i gotoprestigiousuniversityforwhydid i studybusinessthere's notasclearof a pathwhichisasexcitingasitisstressfuldoyoufeelthat i thinkit's a littledifferentbecause i had a like a quarter-lifecrisisohmygodwhatdo i doin a fearfulwaybutnowit's likeohmygodwhatdo i dobutinanexcitementlike a chooseyourownadventurelikewhichadventureshould i choose i hearwhatyou'resayingtooandinsomewaysit's alsomybuttexactlysamething i seethreekindofdifferentpathsorlikeopportunities i couldjumpatnextwaitisthatyouronlybud i'm suretherearemorebudsbutthatisthemainoneit's likesimilarlysorrywouldyouevergobacktocorporateatmost i wouldjoin a startup i knowsomanypeoplesaythatlike i can't workforanybody i don't knowafterworkingformyselfforlikequite a whilenow a startupislikeasclosetocorporateas i couldgobacktoandstillfeelexcitedtowakeupwhatisyourcreativebucketlistlikenaturallythemillionsubscriberswouldbereallycoolthanksthat'd besickbutthat's noeasytasklikeohmygoshatthesametimeit's it's a numberattheendofthedaythethingthatisthemostfulfillingishavingsuch a strongaudiencethatlovewatchingmeandyouknowhopefullyfeelhappywithwhat i makeandallthatwhatelsemerchyeah i absolutelywilldomerchatsomepointwhataboutyouwhatareyourcreativemilestonesohuhthisyearistodo a 30 lessonsby 30 before i turn 31 sowhenyoudothatwhen's yourbirthdaynovember 16thyouhavesometimeyeah i wanttoproduce a musicvideothat's rightdidyouwriteitummyfriendwroteitit's a vibethat's sick i'm excitedtohearitwellthanksforhangingoutdudethanksforhavingmeeveryonegocheckheroutohitshockswe'reatjustin's houserecordingtoday i'vebeenrecognizedoh i'vebeenrecognizedyeahoh i'vebeenrecognizedwowthatwassocoolthisisreallygoodwe'reonourwaywhatdopeoplewant?
whatdopeoplesee?
oh i saidwhatdopeopleseewhatdopeoplewant?
whatwillpeoplesee?
yeahthatwasgoodlookingonmethatwasgoodhellowearenowonourwaytotheofflinetvcafepopup i'm reallyexcited i thinktherearesomefriendswhoaregoingtobetherelena's goingtobethereeric's goingtobethere i think i gundropjamiewillgothey'llsayhithisistheoutfitit's a littlepreppy i lovecafedays i'm a sucker i'm a slutfor a cutecafewe'reattheeventandnexttomeismypickleballpartneryesletmebeknownaschloe's pickleballpartnerobviouslynotanythingelsenotknownforanythingelse i'm peakpeakwegot a lilypadmatchaandthen i got a bananamilkavocadodrinkdrinkhellowe'renowbackhome i finishedshoweringputthisvitamin c thingontodaywasreallyeventful i hungoutwithlily, lilypichuandherdogtemiandtemiisactuallythecutestdog i'veseen i thinkabouthershe's socuteshe's such a gooddogyouknowthatwasawesomethenstevenand i talked a lot i basicallypitchedhimmydreamseriesthat i wanttodowithhim i mentionedthisonthejomapodcastbut i reallywanttoproduce a showwhichisbasicallytheofficeandtedlassobutasianstevenhewouldbeinitand i feellikehewouldbe a reallygreatmanagerand i wouldbe a sidecharacterwhere i'm liketheagretsukotypecharacter i'm likereallycompetentandifpeopleaskmeforfavors i getreallyangryandsavagemaybeitmighthappen, he'd reallylovetheideawe'llseeandthen i metiman, pokimaneandthat's thefirsttime i'veactuallymetherwe'veoverlappedinourcirclesquite a bitandshewassosweetitwasawesometalkingtoher i'm actuallyfriendswithherpreviousagenthannahhannahistakingsabbaticalsoaftertheevent i calleduphannahhannahsaid a lotofamazingthingsforme i'vebeengoingthroughitforsomereasonandputting a lotofanxietyandpressureonmyselfsoitwasreallynicetohavehannah's gutcheck i'm likeheylookyou'redoingincrediblekeepdoingit i'm feelingmysparkreignitefromtoday's experiencesand i'm gonnacontinuetobuildthingsthat i lovethisisbuddy a.k.a budrickhegoesbybudhibuddyhiawwbuddyhasbeenacquiredheybudyou'regonnagohomenowohmygodwehave a newfamilymemberhomeohmygodwehave a newfamilymemberhomeohmygodwehave a newfamilymemberhomehiohmygodhereheishere's buddyhibuddy i'm dyinghelloweareheadingouttoeric's birthdayandthenthisisthefirsttimewe'releavingbuddyathome i hopehe's gonnabeokay i'm sosadtoleavehimhe's barkingupstairsbut i goteric's giftsowe'reheadedouttodinnerletusgookaywehavetogoforhimtogrowupwehavetogohello i hopeyoucanhearmewejustparkedandinthegreatestplottwistever i mean i knewitwascomingbutinthecaronthewayhere i got a textmessagefromtheadoptioncenterthatsomeonewantstoadoptbuddy i know i'm just a fostermomand i knowthisisthestupidestthingeverbut i reallylovebuddybut i justdidn't thinkitwouldhappenthisfast i literallywenton r slashdogsandthenthetitlewaslikedepressedbecausemyfosterdoggotadoptedandthat's me i'm gonnaspend a lotoftimewithbuddytonightwhat's upjustinjustin i havesomethingtotellyoubuddy's gettingadoptedbyyou? nobysomeoneelsethatfast? yeah i justgotthetextareyouokay? i'm emotionallyprocessingitohchloe i gotthetextsayingsomeonewhowantstoadopthimcanyousendusyourreportwaitcouldyoujustsend a reportthatsayshesucks? yeahhesucksworstdogevertook a shitonmypillowimmediatelynooh i likethis i don't knowwhatthatiswhyisthatrobotnamedBlakefoundtheplacewhatam i doingawthisissocute a shoppingtripwithkiraandchloesothat i canlearnhowtodressmyselfnowthatyou'resingleagainherewegoagaineveryyear i loveeachandeveryoneofyouitmeanstheworldyoumakelifeworthlivingsothankyouhappybirthday a cardhappybirthday i justwanttorememberthishappybirthdaycontent i justwanttorememberitmyfirstbirthdaypartyoh i loveyouericthankyouhiericjustgettingsomequickfootagehappybirthdaytoyou i'm now 33 yearsoldnot a dropofbotoxwearebackfromeric's birthdayitisaround 1amandforthelast 1 or 2 hourskevinand i havebeenindeepconversationaboutwhattodowithbuddy i'vebeenemotionallydistraught i thinkthebiggestthingholdingusbackiswhetherornot i cancommittobuddyyouknow i'm kindofinmygrindera i'vegot a lotofprojects i reallywanttodosometimes i havetoleaveat a moment's noticejustlookathimbuddywedid a wholeprosandconslisttheprosarebuddyis 1 yearsoldandheiscratetrainedandpottytrainedhe's alsoreallychillhedoesn't reallybarkandhejustloveslikehangingouthekindofgoeslimplikestocurlupandsitrightherelike a littlebabytheconsarehehassomeseparationanxietyhecan't reallystayin a roomwithoutussohe's alwaysinthesameroomandwhenweleavehedoesbarkwealsoweren't expectingtohave a doglikethishe's a reallyscruffygrandpabudrick i justdon't knowif i willmeetanotherdoglikehimlikehe's justsochill i don't havetogothroughthe 6 monthsofpuppytraininghe's kindofuglycutethisisjusthisface, that's itnothingelseso i asked a bunchofpeopleateric's dinnermorethanhalftheroomsaid i shouldadopthimbuttherearealsopeoplewhohaveadoptedthemselvestheotherpartoftheroomsaiddon't doitbecausetherewillbeotherdogsthatwillcomethismightbethelastvideoyouseeofbuddybutshelikesitverymuchshe's shownthecapabilityandshe's shownthedesireforitaswell i don't know, justlookathisfacedudeheknowswe'regonnalethimgoheknowsitand i knowhe's gonnagoto a goodfamilyokayso i'vetalkedtomymomandmydadmyfriendjustinwhohas a dogaswellmybrothersandkevinmostimportantlyand i'm stillabsurdlytornaboutbuddysohere's whatwe'regonnado, we'regonnaflip a cointhisis a chip, onesidehastapeandonesidedoesnotandthesidewithtapeistheonewherewe'regonnasaywe'regonnaadoptbuddyandweseehowwefeelaboutitapparentlythisis a techniquewhereitshowsyouyourtrueintentionsit's onthetapeside, whichmeansadoptwellhowdoyoufeel?
pickoneohhelickedthisonebuddy i askedthefostercontactif i canstilladopthimandunfortunatelytheysentmethismessagewhichis i can't becausethere's a wholewaitlistandthatalltheycandoisputmeonthewaitlistandit's verylikely i won't havehimbecausehe's sowellbehaved i'm prettysurehe'llgetadoptedbuddywillgoto a goodhome i hopeyou'llmissus, i hopebuddywillthinkofthesetimesfondlyno i'm prettysurebuddywillforgetbutthat's okay, that's goodyouwon't feelpain, youwilljustloveyournewowneryou'rethesweetestdog i'veevermetinmylifekindest, cuddliest, mostchillestdog i havebeenblessedtomeetyouand i hopeyoucontinuetolive a greatlifebudrick, hisnameissirbudrickcostumeshavearrivedforhimhe's soslowohyou'resuch a gooddeliverymanhellocomeonoverwhat's upbudstersyou'resoemptylookinghowdoyoufeelaboutbuddyleavingushewas a goodboyhebrings a lotofjoytothehouse i willmisshimmyfirstfosterdogthankyouforwatching i loveyou
hey y'allit's chloeit's beensixmonthssincethecorporateapocalypseandlifehasbeenthewildestit's everbeenin a goodway i'd say a littlelifecheck-ineversincemyproductmanagementcoursewaslaunched i'vebeenprettybusymakingsureeverythinglooksgoodworkingwiththeteam i'vealsolaunchedmypodcastjomowithmybuddyericthankyoufortuninginbytheway i know a lotofyounico's arewatchingand i'vebeenveryintentionallydecidinghow i'm spendingmygapyearwithoutitlettingitslipthroughmyfingersyouknow i'm also a managernow i havehiredpeopleonmyteamthisyearhasbeenreallyinterestingbecauseit's a yearwhere i candoanythingbut i can't doeverythingandithonestlyhasthrownmeintoquite a looponetrait i don't loveaboutmyselfisthat i amgreedyaslike i wanttodoitallandit's neverrealisticand i'm scared i'm neverdoingenoughyouknowstop i'm scared i'm notdoingenough i'm alsoscared i'm notrestingenoughand i want a dogontopofitallmytherapisttellsmethattherearetwowaystorelievethisfeelingofnotdoingenoughoneisjustdomoreandthenthatfeelingtemporarilysubsidesuntilitreoccursthesecondwayistoreassuremyselfphysicallyandemotionallythat i amsafeoratleastsaferthan i think i amandthatthereisnobigriskhereand i amokay i know a lotof y'allhavesimilarthoughts i seeyouinmydmsandcommentsandifyoucoulduse a littlesupport i'd lovetointroduceyoutosomeonebetterhelptheworld's largesttherapyserviceandthesponsoroftoday's videoifyou'venevertriedtherapy i highlyhighlyrecommendit i'vebeengoingforsixyearsnow i'd sayamongstmyfriends i givesomeprettybasedadvicebutall i'm actuallydoingisregurgitatingwhatevermytherapisttellsme i feellike i'vedevelopedprettystrongmusclesformyemotionalandmentalhealthoverthelastsixyearsbut i wouldsayfindingtherightmatchforyouit's harderthanitseemsandthatiswherebetterhelpcomesintheymatchyouwith a licensedprofessionalusuallywithin 48 hoursbasedonyourinformationandifit's notworkingoutyoucanswitchtherapistwheneveryouwanthowevermanytimesyouwantwithnopenaltiescheckoutbetterhelp.comslashchloesheorchoosechloesheduringsignuptheygaveus a 10 discountfortheveryfirstmonththankyoubetterhelpforsponsoringnowontothevideohello y'allwehave a specialguesttodayhelloitisthisonehow's itgoingheyuniqlo's wowhowareyouturtlegang i thoughtitwouldbeinterestingforustotalkaboutlifeaftercorporatebecausebothofusworkedinthecorporateworldlet's talkaboutitthesceneandbehindittaylorand i metlastyearyepwhen i hosted a discordeventandthenyousawitandthenyouregisteredand i waslikenowaynoway i watchedtayloryouwerethebest i remembermeetingyouinthedrivewayyouwereimmediatelyopentomelike i watchyourcontentohhellyeah i loveyouyou'regreatandthenoh i justyeahkindofhititoffsincethenchloecrushedtheeventyoucrushedityouwereuptolikewhat 3 a.m thenightbeforeputtingtogetherthepresentationohmygodyeah i wanttothrowupyoudidsowelllikepresentedtohowmanypeoplecolinandsamirandthenjustlikedozensofcreatorsitwas a lottaylorwas a consultantandthennowyou're a full-timeyoutuberyes i aminnewyorkwhatisyourrosesthornsandbudsandthingsthatyouwerelookingforwardtotherosewaslikebeingsurprisedlikeverypleasantlysurprisedathowwelcomingandlikenotgatekeepingalmostallofthecreatorsthat i'vemetkeptasfriendsare i guesstheothersidetothisthat i wasreallyworriedaboutwaslikenothaving a communityofpeoplewhowerealsolikeinthebusinessworldbutalsocontentcreators a coupleyearsago i feltlikethereweren't thatmanyanothermajorroseisjustlikefeelinglikeit's workedoutwhere i canwakeupatwhatevertime i wanteverysingledayand i makemyselfworkbecause i loveitsoit's notit's nothardit's stillhardworkbutit's i lovedoingitalsotohave 100 ownershipoversomethingversusinconsulting i couldkindofhidebehindmymanagerandotherconsultantsthere's diffusedresponsibilitythorn i thinkthateveryyoutubergoesthrough a miniexistentialcrisiseverylikethreemonthswhereit's likewhatarewedoinghowisthiswhatwedofor a livingdo i sucklikewhat's goingonlikewhatdid i gotoprestigiousuniversityforwhydid i studybusinessthere's notasclearof a pathwhichisasexcitingasitisstressfuldoyoufeelthat i thinkit's a littledifferentbecause i had a like a quarter-lifecrisisohmygodwhatdo i doin a fearfulwaybutnowit's likeohmygodwhatdo i dobutinanexcitementlike a chooseyourownadventurelikewhichadventureshould i choose i hearwhatyou'resayingtooandinsomewaysit's alsomybuttexactlysamething i seethreekindofdifferentpathsorlikeopportunities i couldjumpatnextwaitisthatyouronlybud i'm suretherearemorebudsbutthatisthemainoneit's likesimilarlysorrywouldyouevergobacktocorporateatmost i wouldjoin a startup i knowsomanypeoplesaythatlike i can't workforanybody i don't knowafterworkingformyselfforlikequite a whilenow a startupislikeasclosetocorporateas i couldgobacktoandstillfeelexcitedtowakeupwhatisyourcreativebucketlistlikenaturallythemillionsubscriberswouldbereallycoolthanksthat'd besickbutthat's noeasytasklikeohmygoshatthesametimeit's it's a numberattheendofthedaythethingthatisthemostfulfillingishavingsuch a strongaudiencethatlovewatchingmeandyouknowhopefullyfeelhappywithwhat i makeandallthatwhatelsemerchyeah i absolutelywilldomerchatsomepointwhataboutyouwhatareyourcreativemilestonesohuhthisyearistodo a 30 lessonsby 30 before i turn 31 sowhenyoudothatwhen's yourbirthdaynovember 16thyouhavesometimeyeah i wanttoproduce a musicvideothat's rightdidyouwriteitummyfriendwroteitit's a vibethat's sick i'm excitedtohearitwellthanksforhangingoutdudethanksforhavingmeeveryonegocheckheroutohitshockswe'reatjustin's houserecordingtoday i'vebeenrecognizedoh i'vebeenrecognizedyeahoh i'vebeenrecognizedwowthatwassocoolthisisreallygoodwe'reonourwaywhatdopeoplewant?
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