And in summary, it was...

Just all watching my stream in here.

What the hell is going on?

Who's next?

Is it Shu Yamino?

Exhausting.

Well, exhausting in a good way.

There is so much stuff that happened there, I don't even know where to begin.

Ugh.

Bro, these do not taste nice.

Why?

What the fuck?

Bouncy protein bar.

Why would they think to put protein with bounty?

What the hell is this?

Hey, yo!

Bomni?

Yes, Jax?

This is amazing, thank you so much.

What is this?

This is a little creepy, but like, I kind of like it, to be honest.

I can't help but have the feeling that maybe this is gonna like, watch me sleep at night.

Open for gift description.

Hi Kuro, I've included the following in this package.

A ball-jointed pomni-doll I got from Etsy.

With patience, she can stand on hard surfaces and be moved into different positions.

A ball prism.

If you hold it in front of your eye, it will change the way you see the world.

Whoa!

Oh my god.

This is what spiders see all the time.

These Totoro cards are a callback to the watch-along you had, and also an IRL donor for you to spend as you wish.

Huh?

What?

100 Smackaroos!

This is what the inside looks like.

Pretty sick.

I hope these gifts brighten your mood, just as you brighten the lives of many others.

The mischievous ghost.

Aw, thank you so much, mischievous ghost.

I will spend this money on hard cocaine.

Bullshit rock!

BTS!

It's me!

We got some Beans socks.

Thank you for the socks.

I appreciate it.

Mao and Pimples.

I've never actually tried these.

First time review!

Bro, these are so bad.

Like, how are these actually- This is actually really bad.

Oh, what the fuck?

Normal Maoams taste so much better than this.

What?

How could it be branded the same as Maoams, yet it tastes so different?

That makes no sense.

Hold on.

I tried the yellow one.

Maybe the red one is good.

Maybe the pink one is good.

I don't know.

This shit is ass.

Thank you, Bisque.

This was private.

You guys are not allowed to know what's in here.

It's all of her bank account information.

What the fuck?

What the fuck is this?

Be loved.

Is this like a hat or something?

I actually don't know what the hell this is.

What is this?

Is this a sock?

Oh, it's a- Thanks.

We wouldn't trade you for any other certain stalker.

This is actually really sick.

I haven't seen anyone do this before.

Like, the half me and the half of my VTuber.

It's actually really cool.

Ooh.

It's like a wristband.

I think I'm too stupid to know how to put this on.

That looks pretty fucking si- I've always been a very, very shy person.

And if you were to tell me five years ago that I would stand on stage in front of a massive audience and they would just sit there and listen to me speak for one hour?

I don't even know what I would say.

First of all, I wouldn't even think that I would have the courage to do that.

Second of all, I don't even think that there would be that many people to come and watch me in the first place.

Third of all, five years ago, I was working as a fucking bartender.

So this was like the last thing on my mind.

I think this trip, I've really, really gotten out of my comfort zone and done a lot of different things.

Not only did I do a lot more IRL streams, I also met a lot of different fans on different days.

I took pictures with them.

I signed stuff for them.

I really need to work on my signature, by the way.

That was horrible.

And I also did that panel that I talked about.

But aside from the convention stuff, I actually talked to a lot of new people and I even hanged out and made loads of friends.

Now, I don't know if you guys know this, but I'm kind of an introvert.

I don't really like spending time with people.

Well, it's not really that I don't like spending time.

It's just that I have a very low social battery.

And on top of that, I also kind of just like being alone.

There are some people who just need to have other human interaction every single day of their life.

But for me personally, I really like my alone time.

But I thought I would go out of my comfort zone just a little bit.

I talked to over 25 different people in private.

Had full on conversations with them.

I even went karaokeing, just out and about walking with them.

Had some dinner with them.

It was honestly just amazing.

I think this is the most fun I've had on a trip in a long time.

Actually, I think it's probably the most fun I've had in general in a long time.

All the vibes of the people and the convention was just perfect.

Also, there were so many British viewers.

Where the hell are you guys in my chat?

I swear to God, you guys are all hiding because you think we're going to make fun of you, which we will.

But come on, man, you speak in my chat.

Tell me that you're British for once.

You think I like being the only Brit in my own stream?

It's lonely in here, man.

Please.

I think this convention has really taught me that people, even myself, can change so much over the course of just a few years.

You might think that you're bad at talking to people, and you don't know how to have conversations.

You make everything awkward.

But the thing is, I also think that way about myself.

And everyone that I've met in this convention has told me otherwise.

And I feel like that was mainly just for the fake it till you make it mentality.

The fake it till you make it mentality just means fake confidence, and then eventually, you will be confident.

At least that's what happened to me.

This whole convention, I was just thinking to myself, you know what?

I want to try being the version of myself that I wish I could be.

And considering most of the people who I met there didn't really know me in person, I felt like it was a lot easier to just pretend to be a different version of myself than it would be if I tried to do it in front of friends who already know that I'm a very shy person.

And because of that, I think it led to some insane character growth for myself.

You can do it too.

I believe in you.

Just keep trying.

I'm 24 years old now, and it took me this long to get even remotely confident to go on stage.

It's not a race, so don't worry.

You've got this.

I believe in you.