Stop it and just do!

Dear Eva, April 14th.

Almost a month since you wrote to me and you have possibly forgotten your state of mind, I doubt it though.

You seem the same as always, and being you, hate every minute of it.

Don't.

Learn to say fuck you to the world every once in a while.

You have every right to just stop thinking, worrying, looking over your shoulder, wondering, doubting, fearing, hurting, hoping for some easy way out, searching, perching, besmirching, grinding, grinding, grinding away at yourself.

Stop it and just do!

You belong in the most secret part of you.

Don't worry about cool.

Make your own uncool.

Make your world.

If you fear, make it work for you.

Draw and paint your fear and anxiety and stop worrying about big deep things such as to decide on a purpose and way of life, a consistent approach to even some impossible end or even an unimagined end.

You must practice being stupid, dumb, unthinking, empty.

Then you will be able to do.

I have much confidence in you and even though you are tormenting yourself, the work you do is very good.

Try to do something bad.

Try to do some bad work.

The worst thing you could think of is see what happens, but mainly relax and let everything go to hell.

You are not responsible for the world.

You're only responsible for your work, so just do it.

Don't think that your work has to conform to any preconceived idea, form, or flavor.

It can be anything you want it to be.

It would be better if you had the confidence just to do this stuff and not even think about it.

Can't you leave the world and art alone?

Also, quit fondling your ego.

I know that you or anyone can only work so much and the rest of the time you are left with your thoughts, but when you work or before you work, you have to empty your mind and concentrate on what you are doing.

After you do something, it is done and that's that.

After a while, you can see some better than others, but also you can see what direction you're going.

I'm sure you know all that.

You also must know that you don't have to justify your work, not even to yourself.

Well, you know I admire your work greatly and can't understand why you are so bothered by it, but you can see the next ones and I can't.

You also must believe in your ability.

I think you do.

So try the most outrageous things you can.

Shock yourself.

You have at your power the ability to do anything.