It was about happiness. It was about forced positivity...

Remember that video? I don't think being happy all the time is something.

desirable, at all. Now if you watch my older videos, I might seem a lot happier...

I might see a lot chiper a lot more positive and that's because...(susense poods)

I faked it.

Basically I talked about how a lot of youtubers,

had to keep up this sort of facade of happiness

and oh look how great everything is, to sort of draw people in and be entertained by you.

Cuz no one likes to hear a mopey ass.

little (mouthing a word)

People... people are generally drawn to, eh,

happiness, and, uh, I got really fed up and really tired of keeping this facade that

uh

Yeah, I'm really enjoying this game. I'm really having a great time playing this game

Oh wow, I sure love playing Minecraft every single day for years.

(Laughs in Thot)

The video prompted a lot of responses and a lot of discussion

And I thought it was really interesting and healthy and great thing in general that we brought it up.

I remember really just playing games and in the back of my head, I was like: "I'm really hating this game.

I'm really not entertained by this", but I sort of had this idea in my head that

Well, it's my job and people want me to play it so I should just do it and

you know... But it wasn't fulfilling for me, and it wasn't making me happy, and I noticed recently a lot of

uh

streamers AND YouTubers talking about this...

eh

sorta saying that they don't feel very happy, or as happy as they used to be; they, they don't feel fulfilled...

It's a damn shame.

And I see a lot of people in the comments,

sort of being like: "well, it's your job. You should just suck it up. It's not that hard. YouTube is not a job."

Ehehe!

Which is true by the way...

It's not a job.

But I always feel bad when I see this because I can relate to the entertainer. I can can understand their perspective,

and so I thought I would make a video just sort of

Explaining that perspective cuz I think I think it's important for-for everyone the-the problem with being a YouTuber

or-or...

...or an online entertainer is that you constantly have to outdo yourself.

To keep people interested in what you are doing...

You have to constantly keep pushing boundaries, and you are essentially....

co-competing more or less with other entertainers and other YouTubers for-for-for the audience to give...

...you the time that you want.

This is not just to keep up your YouTube channel or whatever. It's also to keep up your livelihood.

I-imagine your job or whatever you do being...

a competition

It's-it's not a healthy thing and I think a lot of people

ass

Get swept up in that but they have to keep

Pushing themselves, and I think it's it's a good reflection of what happened with Logan Paul

I know I keep bringing it up and that's not my point here.

I don't think Logan necessarily is a bad person.

I just think he really got caught up in that idea that he has to keep pushing himself to,

get those numbers and if you make videos every single day

It's really tough to keep... make people keep being interested and keep coming back.

uhhh

So I can sort of understand it and I can sort of relate to it in a way

For me personally, I was really miserable before YouTube. YouTube is only really just done so many amazing thing to me

And I-I don't want to seem like I'm complaining

I'm-I'm-I couldn't be happier, but I think I still even though I talked about this a lot

I think a lot of people have this illusion in their head that

Money and fame is gonna bring them some sort of happiness.

And I think a lot of YouTubers and a lot of entertainers when they get this

get to the point where ackchyually

I have everything I want or thought I wanted, but I don't feel happy

and I don't feel fulfilled and that just makes them even more unhappy and less fulfilled and

uh

It's a very... it can be a very negative thing. Even though it's maybe might be ha-hard to understand as an audience as a

as a...

As a silent viewer or whatever.

A few years ago, all I used to do was YouTube.

It was seven days a week...

(now I do six days a week)

... I would make videos. I would go... wake up, go to my room, make videos and that was it. I didn't have any hobbies,

I didn't have any other interests. I wouldn't hang out with friends

and looking back that was an extremely...

Unhealthy thing to do.

And I would do whatever videos

My fans wanted me to do; the fans that I have gotten because I had this very serious approach to YouTube

You know it's my job. I have to keep doing this. I am so lucky to be in this position

I have to respect it.

My

personal well-being or health

That's number two, but it got to a point for me where I just felt like

Enough, this is not making me happy

I don't want to keep doing this. I'm either gonna quit it or I'm just gonna say all right well

I'm gonna do it my way

and if I lose a couple fans in the

process then I can afford that. I'm in a position where I can afford doing that

and I was really ready for my channel to

Just come down crashing, an-and that would be it, but at least then I would be fulfilled, at least I would be happier

I w- I was met with a lotta-a lot of criticism a lot of a lot of angry fans, that said "oh you are not playing amnesia...

You've really changed, or you're not playing this game anymore. You really changed" but...

eventually I...

It took some time, but eventually it broke through and all the sudden

I had people loving what I was doing because

There was actual passion behind it, there was actual

things that I enjoyed, that I could share, I...

I got hobbies that I really enjoyed and I could share those as well, like whiskey videos something. I enjoy and

I started exercising

meeting friends and all these things that I used to do and it just

It made such a huge difference for me, and it might just seem obvious

But when you're so swept up into YouTube

It really isn't

and it also had the opposite effect that I thought my channel will go down

But it it did really well eithe-either way.

My advice to a lot of youtubers and entertainers is

do what makes YOU happy

If you lose some fans in the process - I think in the in the end it will be worth it

And I think a lot of us need to stop taking

their own personal health

eh... after..

Whatever it is they're doing.

I am really in the the... the best place I ever been

and uh...

I'm just having a blast with YouTube and everything I'm doing right now

And I'm so happy I made that choice

And that's sort of why I wanted to share this and I also wanted to give some insight for you guys to understand

Yes, YouTube isn't really a job, but it's also if it can also be extremely tough, and it extremely weighing you down

It's the easiest and the toughest job I ever done

It's not like I don't want people to pat me on the back being like

"yeah, it is a really tough..."

"... you're doing a great job...."

That's not it at all

But I you don't deserve to be slapped in the face for it either

Be happy be nice to each other and have a good smile everybody for every once in a while make sure

To smile and ALSO make sure to leave a like on this video if you found it helpful at all

Clap it up everybody. I need an outro if anyone can help me with that... a brofist?

ahhh...

(sniffle snuffle the fist)

mm-

There- there you go... there you go (FINALLY)

00:07:38,060 --> 00:07:39,200 Are you happy now? (YES)

'aight...

I did it...I did the-... I did the pandering

HAHAHAHAHA!