Crying like a baby.

Bikers, joggers, tourists, runners, they went by me,

police officers searching for suicidal people went by me twice

I'm standing at the ledge leaning over the rail with tears flowing down to the waters

and I thought to myself; absolutely nobody cares

and then the voice in my head said ''jump now'', and I did.

And the millisecond that my hands cleared the rail my legs flew over it

it was an instant regret

the depression was wiped from my mind

And all I wanted to do was live, and I thought it's too late.

Kevin Hines was 19 when he jumped off the Golden Gate Bridge.

He is one of the many incredible people that I've been grateful to meet over the past three weeks

as I aim to further understand the complexities surrounding suicide.

And I know I've made mistakes.

I know I've let people down.

But what happens when you're given an opportunity to help make a difference in the world?

The backlash against the social media star,

very popular guy called Logan Paul is in some hot water ...I think he is complete and utter insensitive idiot.

Taking a break from daily vlogging. Even he says his latest content was his biggest mistake.

I wanna apologize to the victim, and his family.

It's time to learn from the past as I get better and grow as a human being, I'm here to have a hard conversation

so that those who are suffering can have easier ones.

- So I've never been so humbled in my life by a single event. - Were you kind of shocked by it?

I was shocked to discover just how big this is.

You've never known anybody that killed themselves? - No one, no one. That was, that was, that was part of the problem

Just my ignorance on the subject.

But in Ohio where you come from it's the second leading cause of death

And I know while I'm not able to solve the problem by myself.

I want to be a part of the solution. And that solution began across the country in New York City

We sat down with Dr. John Draper, director of the National Suicide Prevention lifeline.

We have to change the conversation

publicly from just focusing on

suicide and how something bad is happening, and say 'What do we do about it?'

Help people understand that the first thing they need to do is

reach out and talk to somebody when they're feeling in despair, because you're not alone with anymore.

They've done studies with people who are experiencing any kind of pain including hanging off a cliff.

You could hold on a lot longer if somebody is right there with you.

I think as a society, as human beings, we just have to be more compassionate and that includes me too.

That's something I'm learning along this journey, and something else that

Dr. Draper told me were the 5 Steps that anyone can take to help prevent suicide.

Step 1 is simply just ask. Ask yourself, ask others

Are you thinking about suicide. And I know that sounds like a daunting question,

but literally that question can save lives.

Step 2: accordingly would be to listen. Be present, don't make any judgments.

And then Step 3 would be, be there for them even after you've already asked because

dependability is key. Step 4 is then help them connect,

ah whether it's with a friend, a family member or a local suicide hotline therapist.

But help them reach out to someone so they don't have to deal with this alone.

Lastly, Step 5 is just checking on them, show them that you care. Call them up say "hey

"I want to make sure you're okay"

"Can I check in with you over the next few days?".

So one of the things that is so important about reducing stigma is

getting stories out there about people positively coping with suicide.

Do you guys know anyone I could talk to with the lived experience of suicide?

Absolutely, we have quite a number of people that we could deliver over to you, yeah.

- That'd be great. - Yeah. - And that's how we got introduced to Kevin Hines

17 years ago Kevin jumped off of the Golden Gate Bridge and survived.

These are individuals whose stories when people hear them, they say "you know, maybe I can get through".

As opposed to hearing the stories when people have it.

an-an- and those...unfortunately, those are the stories that we've heard before.

Now we're hearing more and more stories of people being more open about it.

As I was saying before, Logan, for every one person that dies by suicide,

there's 287 other people that think seriously about it

But don't. Those are stories again that have not been told if we told those stories

of people who got through it as opposed to one who didn't

Imagine what kind of influence that would have on people's behavior

When I found out that one in six high school kids seriously think about suicide.

- That's that's stunning. - Yeah. - This is such a common problem.

Logan all I wanted

Was for one person to look me in my eyes

Say "hey kid are you okay"?

I am so grateful to be alive

And I'm grateful today.

For every millisecond I get to breathe

Cuz it was almost all ripped from me by me.

What's one thing you would have said to your younger self to the Kevin who was 19?

Sitting on the bus if you were next to you and instead of the guy who pointed and laughed

What would you say

I would just put my hand on the sh-

I'll just put my hand on my shoulder and

I would just say I'm here for you. I got you

We need to be a society that comes together for every person in the community that's going through hell.

In order to do that, every person that's going through hell, whatever hell,

has to be honest about their pain.

And if they're gonna be honest about their pain

We are going to collectively

Answer the call and be there for that individual.

Cause if you don't see beauty in the next person you meet,

you're not looking hard enough.

You're incredible dude. This is an honor for me.

It's an honor for me too brother

From this point on I want to make an effort to contribute and immerse myself in the conversation,

so I'm pledging to donate 1 million dollars to various suicide prevention organizations

with the first $250,000 going immediately to the National Suicide Prevention lifeline,

so they can increase their capacity to help those in need

For anyone watching I want you to know you are not alone and most of the time crisis passes

So if you or anyone you know feels alone or trapped I encourage anyone to call or even text a suicide or crisis hotline

Both of those numbers are below. And although this is a tough conversation,

it's important because things can and will get better.

It's time to start a new chapter in my life as I continue to educate both myself and others on suicide

I'm humbled and thankful to say

- You are not alone. - This is just the beginning.

call 1-800-273-8255