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  • - [Amber] Hey Buzzfeed, it's your girl Amber,

  • aka @jstlbby and here's a little bit about me.

  • (upbeat music)

  • - [Narrator] Amber Wagner, aka @jstlbby, gained fame

  • with her witty inspirational videos.

  • (upbeat music)

  • - I've noticed that you've kind of been

  • hard on yourself, you feel me?

  • Right now, I want you to take a minute

  • and thank your damn self.

  • Hug yourself if you can, you feel me?

  • Pat your damn self on the back.

  • I grew up in a two-parent home with my mother and father.

  • In Englewood, California.

  • I'm very ghetto, loud, always playing double-dutch

  • walking to the corner store, eatin' too much.

  • You know, kid stuff.

  • I always had an outgoing, bubbly personality.

  • I'm always loud, always rambunctious, clumsy as hell.

  • Just me, wild.

  • I got on Instagram in 2014 and uh, I just

  • started there with just regular pictures.

  • Then one day, I had um, did a video

  • about my ex.

  • Hey 'ista, my ex tried to get back with me,

  • you know what I said?

  • Hell no, bitch! (laughs)

  • And that went viral.

  • Then I did a video off of Beyonce's song Drunk in Love.

  • So, every since I heard Beyonce sing

  • ♪ I've been drinking watermelon

  • Bitch, me too! The fuck!

  • The first time I realized that this could be something

  • big was when the Shade Room had posted me on their page.

  • After that, celebrities started posting me,

  • they started following me and I was like,

  • okay, this is serious now.

  • What made me want to be motivational was just my life,

  • I was in a dark place for awhile, you know,

  • dealing with these guys usin' and abusin' me

  • and then me just not really fully lovin' myself

  • and knowin' who I was.

  • And once I did, I don't know, a sense just came over me

  • like you know what, you need to put this out there.

  • My mother is like my biggest inspiration, motivator

  • and everything because that woman is just so strong.

  • Like, she has been through so much from hip surgery,

  • shoulder surgery, everything.

  • Still helping my grandfather who was bed-ridden.

  • Brushing his teeth, making his meals.

  • And she still remains positive, still remains happy.

  • Still just does her best.

  • At first when I started social media, she told me

  • "you're not funny, nobody's going to like you".

  • I'm like, okay.

  • And I was crying, I was so sad.

  • Next thing you know, I showed her I was in the Shade Room

  • and I showed her where Rihanna was following me

  • and other people, then she made a Instagram.

  • Now she loves it. She wears my T-shirt out in public.

  • People say, "oh my god, you know her?"

  • She's like, "Yes, that's my daughter."

  • Okay, so, when I'm in my zone, getting ready to do my videos

  • I'm usually at my desk, okay.

  • I have my phone here and I have to get my mind right.

  • So, I think of a topic. For instance, heartbreak.

  • So, in my head, niggas I ain't shared, okay, nuh-uh

  • they doggin' us out, whatever.

  • So I'm like, okay, let me get ready.

  • I usually, you know, you know me.

  • Put my glasses on, I'm in my zone, so.

  • Hey, Valentine's Day is tomorrow.

  • I'm single, and I ain't even trippin'. It's okay.

  • I just speak, like, you know, about who I am

  • and situations that I've been through.

  • And you know, with me being like, plus size,

  • I want to help the plus size young ladies.

  • And people ask me how do I do it?

  • I say, I just, honestly what I did, I just pray

  • about it and I just keep going. Everything is pure.

  • It's nothin' forced.

  • The message I would like to send to younger females of color

  • is embrace yourself, don't base how other

  • people feel about you,

  • how you feel about yourself.

  • Don't let anybody deteriorate you, deter you

  • from what you're doing. Just keep being you.

  • You are the mother-fucking shit.

  • You are great.

  • - You're actually a queen. You inspire me so much.

  • You really are. I'm so sorry.

  • - No, I appreciate your positivity.

  • Thank you.

  • Give me another hug, that just made my day

  • - Oh my god.

  • (Upbeat music)

- [Amber] Hey Buzzfeed, it's your girl Amber,

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