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  • (Breathes in, breathes out)

  • So I didn't always make my living from music.

  • For about the five years after graduating

  • from an upstanding liberal arts university,

  • this was my day job.

  • I was a self-employed living statue called the 8-Foot Bride,

  • and I love telling people l did this for a job,

  • because everybody always wants to know,

  • who are these freaks in real life?

  • Hello.

  • I painted myself white one day, stood on a box,

  • put a hat or a can at my feet,

  • and when someone came by and dropped in money,

  • I handed them a flower and some intense eye contact.

  • And if they didn't take the flower,

  • I threw in a gesture of sadness and longing

  • as they walked away.

  • (Laughter)

  • So I had the most profound encounters with people,

  • especially lonely people who looked

  • like they hadn't talked to anyone in weeks,

  • and we would get this beautiful moment

  • of prolonged eye contact being allowed in a city street,

  • and we would sort of fall in love a little bit.

  • And my eyes would say, "Thank you. I see you."

  • And their eyes would say,

  • "Nobody ever sees me. Thank you."

  • And I would get harassed sometimes.

  • People would yell at me from their passing cars.

  • "Get a job!"

  • And I'd be, like, "This is my job."

  • But it hurt, because it made me fear

  • that I was somehow doing something un-joblike

  • and unfair, shameful.

  • I had no idea how perfect a real education I was getting

  • for the music business on this box.

  • And for the economists out there,

  • you may be interested to know I actually made a pretty predictable income,

  • which was shocking to me

  • given I had no regular customers,

  • but pretty much 60 bucks on a Tuesday, 90 bucks on a Friday.

  • It was consistent.

  • And meanwhile, I was touring locally

  • and playing in nightclubs with my band, the Dresden Dolls.

  • This was me on piano, a genius drummer.

  • I wrote the songs, and eventually

  • we started making enough money that I could quit being a statue,

  • and as we started touring,

  • I really didn't want to lose this sense

  • of direct connection with people, because I loved it.

  • So after all of our shows, we would sign autographs

  • and hug fans and hang out and talk to people,

  • and we made an art out of asking people to help us

  • and join us, and I would track down local musicians

  • and artists and they would set up outside of our shows,

  • and they would pass the hat,

  • and then they would come in and join us onstage,

  • so we had this rotating smorgasbord of weird, random circus guests.

  • And then Twitter came along,

  • and made things even more magic, because I could ask

  • instantly for anything anywhere.

  • So I would need a piano to practice on,

  • and an hour later I would be at a fan's house. This is in London.

  • People would bring home-cooked food to us

  • all over the world backstage and feed us and eat with us. This is in Seattle.

  • Fans who worked in museums and stores

  • and any kind of public space would wave their hands

  • if I would decide to do a last-minute, spontaneous, free gig.

  • This is a library in Auckland.

  • On Saturday I tweeted for this crate and hat,

  • because I did not want to schlep them from the East Coast,

  • and they showed up care of this dude, Chris

  • from Newport Beach, who says hello.

  • I once tweeted, where in Melbourne can I buy a neti pot?

  • And a nurse from a hospital drove one

  • right at that moment to the cafe I was in,

  • and I bought her a smoothie

  • and we sat there talking about nursing and death.

  • And I love this kind of random closeness,

  • which is lucky, because I do a lot of couchsurfing.

  • In mansions where everyone in my crew gets their own room

  • but there's no wireless, and in punk squats,

  • everyone on the floor in one room with no toilets

  • but with wireless, clearly making it the better option.

  • (Laughter)

  • My crew once pulled our van

  • up to a really poor Miami neighborhood

  • and we found out that our couchsurfing host for the night

  • was an 18-year-old girl, still living at home,

  • and her family were all undocumented immigrants from Honduras.

  • And that night, her whole family

  • took the couches and she slept together with her mom

  • so that we could take their beds.

  • And I lay there thinking,

  • these people have so little.

  • Is this fair?

  • And in the morning, her mom taught us how

  • to try to make tortillas and wanted to give me a Bible,

  • and she took me aside and she said to me in her broken English,

  • "Your music has helped my daughter so much.

  • Thank you for staying here. We're all so grateful."

  • And I thought, this is fair.

  • This is this.

  • A couple months later, I was in Manhattan,

  • and I tweeted for a crash pad, and at midnight,

  • I'm ringing a doorbell on the Lower East Side,

  • and it occurs to me I've never actually done this alone.

  • I've always been with my band or my crew.

  • Is this what stupid people do? (Laughter)

  • Is this how stupid people die?

  • And before I can change my mind, the door busts open.

  • She's an artist. He's a financial blogger for Reuters,

  • and they're pouring me a glass of red wine

  • and offering me a bath,

  • and I have had thousands of nights like that and like that.

  • So I couchsurf a lot. I also crowdsurf a lot.

  • I maintain couchsurfing and crowdsurfing

  • are basically the same thing.

  • You're falling into the audience

  • and you're trusting each other.

  • I once asked an opening band of mine

  • if they wanted to go out into the crowd and pass the hat

  • to get themselves some extra money, something that I did a lot.

  • And as usual, the band was psyched,

  • but there was this one guy in the band

  • who told me he just couldn't bring himself to go out there.

  • It felt too much like begging to stand there with the hat.

  • And I recognized his fear of "Is this fair?" and "Get a job."

  • And meanwhile, my band is becoming bigger and bigger.

  • We signed with a major label.

  • And our music is a cross between punk and cabaret.

  • It's not for everybody.

  • Well, maybe it's for you.

  • We sign, and there's all this hype leading up to our next record.

  • And it comes out and it sells about 25,000 copies in the first few weeks,

  • and the label considers this a failure.

  • And I was like, "25,000, isn't that a lot?"

  • They were like, "No, the sales are going down. It's a failure."

  • And they walk off.

  • Right at this same time, I'm signing and hugging after a gig,

  • and a guy comes up to me

  • and hands me a $10 bill,

  • and he says,

  • "I'm sorry, I burned your CD from a friend."

  • (Laughter)

  • "But I read your blog, I know you hate your label.

  • I just want you to have this money."

  • And this starts happening all the time.

  • I become the hat after my own gigs,

  • but I have to physically stand there and take the help from people,

  • and unlike the guy in the opening band,

  • I've actually had a lot of practice standing there.

  • Thank you.

  • And this is the moment I decide

  • I'm just going to give away my music for free

  • online whenever possible,

  • so it's like Metallica over here, Napster, bad;

  • Amanda Palmer over here, and I'm going to encourage

  • torrenting, downloading, sharing, but I'm going to ask for help,

  • because I saw it work on the street.

  • So I fought my way off my label and for my next project

  • with my new band, the Grand Theft Orchestra,

  • I turned to crowdfunding,

  • and I fell into those thousands of connections that I'd made,

  • and I asked my crowd to catch me.

  • And the goal was 100,000 dollars.

  • My fans backed me at nearly 1.2 million,

  • which was the biggest music crowdfunding project to date.

  • (Applause)

  • And you can see how many people it is.

  • It's about 25,000 people.

  • And the media asked, "Amanda,

  • the music business is tanking and you encourage piracy.

  • How did you make all these people pay for music?"

  • And the real answer is, I didn't make them. I asked them.

  • And through the very act of asking people,

  • I'd connected with them,

  • and when you connect with them, people want to help you.

  • It's kind of counterintuitive for a lot of artists.

  • They don't want to ask for things.

  • But it's not easy. It's not easy to ask.

  • And a lot of artists have a problem with this.

  • Asking makes you vulnerable.

  • And I got a lot of criticism online

  • after my Kickstarter went big

  • for continuing my crazy crowdsourcing practices,

  • specifically for asking musicians

  • who are fans if they wanted to join us on stage

  • for a few songs in exchange for love and tickets

  • and beer, and this was a doctored image

  • that went up of me on a website.

  • And this hurt in a really familiar way.

  • And people saying, "You're not allowed anymore

  • to ask for that kind of help,"

  • really reminded me of the people in their cars yelling, "Get a job."

  • Because they weren't with us on the sidewalk,

  • and they couldn't see the exchange

  • that was happening between me and my crowd,

  • an exchange that was very fair to us but alien to them.

  • So this is slightly not safe for work.

  • This is my Kickstarter backer party in Berlin.

  • At the end of the night, I stripped and let everyone draw on me.

  • Now let me tell you, if you want to experience

  • the visceral feeling of trusting strangers,

  • I recommend this,

  • especially if those strangers are drunk German people.

  • This was a ninja master-level fan connection,

  • because what I was really saying here was,

  • I trust you this much.

  • Should I? Show me.

  • For most of human history,

  • musicians, artists, they've been part of the community,

  • connectors and openers, not untouchable stars.

  • Celebrity is about a lot of people loving you from a distance,

  • but the Internet and the content

  • that we're freely able to share on it

  • are taking us back.

  • It's about a few people loving you up close

  • and about those people being enough.

  • So a lot of people are confused by the idea

  • of no hard sticker price.

  • They see it as an unpredictable risk, but the things I've done,

  • the Kickstarter, the street, the doorbell,

  • I don't see these things as risk.

  • I see them as trust.

  • Now, the online tools to make the exchange

  • as easy and as instinctive as the street,

  • they're getting there.

  • But the perfect tools aren't going to help us

  • if we can't face each other

  • and give and receive fearlessly,

  • but, more important,

  • to ask without shame.

  • My music career has been spent

  • trying to encounter people on the Internet

  • the way I could on the box,

  • so blogging and tweeting not just about my tour dates

  • and my new video but about our work and our art

  • and our fears and our hangovers, our mistakes,

  • and we see each other.

  • And I think when we really see each other,

  • we want to help each other.

  • I think people have been obsessed with the wrong question,

  • which is, "How do we make people pay for music?"

  • What if we started asking,

  • "How do we let people pay for music?"

  • Thank you.

  • (Applause)

(Breathes in, breathes out)

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