as if one were asking for a friend or for the universe, but it is likely to be a good

deal more personally – and painfully – motivated than that.

We ask, typically and acutely, when we're in a relationship with someone who is inflicting

a great deal of pain on us: someone who is refusing to open their hearts or can never

stop lying, someone who is aggressive or detached, someone who is harming themselves or managing

to devastate us. We ask too because the one immediately obvious response to frustration

isn't in this case open to us: we're not able to simply get up and go, we are too emotionally

or practically invested to give up, something roots us to the spot. And so, with the example

of one troublesome human in mind, we start to wonder outwards about human nature in general,

what it might be made of and how malleable it could turn out to be. One thing is likely

already to be evident to us: even if people can change, they certainly don't change

easily. Maybe they flare up every time we raise an issue and accuse us of being cruel

or dogmatic; maybe they break down late at night and admit they have a problem but by

morning, vehemently deny that there could ever be anything amiss. Maybe they say yes

they get it now, but then don't ever deploy understanding where it really matters. We

can at best conclude that by the time we've had to raise the question of change in our

minds, someone around us has managed not to change either very straightforwardly or very

gracefully. We might ask a prior question: is it even OK to want someone to change? The

implication from those who generate trouble for us is, most often, an indignant 'no'.

'Love me for who I am' is their mantra. But considered more imaginatively, only a

perfect human would ever deny that they might need to grow a little in order more richly

to deserve the love of another. For the rest of us, all moderately well-meaning and half-way

decent requests for change should be heard with goodwill and in certain cases acted upon

with immense seriousness. Those who bristle at the suggestion that they might need to

change are – paradoxically – giving off the clearest evidence that they may be in

grave need of inner evolution.

Why might change be so hard? It isn't as if the change-resistant person is merely unsure

what is amiss, and will manage to alter course once an issue is pointed out – as someone

might if their attention were drawn to a strand of spinach in their teeth. The refusal to

change is more tenacious and willed than this. A person's entire character may be structured

around an active aspiration not to know or feel particular things; the possibility of

insight will be aggressively warded off through drink, compulsive work routines, or offended

irritation with all those who attempt to spark it. In other words, the unchanging person

doesn't only lack knowledge, they are vigorously committed to not acquiring it. And they resist

it because they are fleeing from something extraordinarily painful in their past that

they were originally too weak or helpless to face – and still haven't found the

wherewithal to confront. One isn't so much dealing with an unchanging person as, first

and foremost, with a traumatised one. Part of the problem, when one is on the outside,

is realising what one is up against. The lack of change can seem so frustrating because

one can't apprehend why it should be so hard. Couldn't they simply move an inch

or two in the right direction? But if we considered, at that moment, the full scale of what this

person once faced, and the conditions in which their mind was formed (and certain of its

doors bolted shut), we might be more realistic and more compassionate. 'Couldn't they

just…' would not longer quite make sense. At the same time, very importantly, we might

not stick around as long as we often do. We should at this juncture perhaps ask ourselves

a question that may feel at once unfair and rather tough: given how clear the evidence

is of a lack of change in a certain person, and hence of a lack of realistic hope that

our needs are going to be met any time soon, why are we still here? Why are we trying to

open a door that can't open and returning to a recurring frustration and hoping for

a different result? What broken part of us can't leave a lack of fulfilment alone?

What bit of our story is being re-enacted in a drama of continuously dashed hopes?

And, if we are talking of change, might we one day change into characters who don't

sit around waiting without end for other people to change? Might we become better at sifting

through options and allowing through only those who can already meet the lion's share

of our needs? In addition, might we become better at deploying a dash of life-sustaining

ruthlessness in order to leave those who tirelessly rebuff us? We may need to rebuild our minds

in order – with time – to change into people who don't wonder for too long if,

and when, people might change.