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  • - In sports, in hockey, there's this mindset

  • that we've come to adapt to where it's all about being

  • mentally strong and not showing weakness.

  • My only input on that is it's not a weakness.

  • For me, just accepting and saying out loud

  • that I was diagnosed with depression

  • and had a mental health issue,

  • that was the first weight off my shoulders.

  • It was my second year pro.

  • Starts off as, "Shake yourself out of it,

  • "it's just a bad day."

  • It seemed to slowly build up and get lower and lower,

  • and it would get to the point where I can't find the energy

  • to get out of bed, get to the rink.

  • In those times it gets more and more frustrating.

  • My girlfriend was the one who kept pushing me

  • to go see someone.

  • I'm thankful for that.

  • It was a hard back and forth before I went and did it.

  • Went in, saw a psychologist, and was officially diagnosed

  • with anxiety and depression.

  • I've come to accept that it's something I'll deal with

  • the rest of my life, but I still have the ability

  • to influence it.

  • There are many things that I've noticed that have helped,

  • from reading books, maintaining social experiences,

  • still getting outside, having dinner with friends,

  • phone calls, things like that.

  • We have our mental skills coach with the team, Alex,

  • who I meet with more regularly now,

  • as well as outside counseling.

  • So instead of it being one to two weeks,

  • it's days, it's hours.

  • It's still it's own animal, in a sense,

  • where you don't exactly know.

  • The hardest part for me was coming to accept it,

  • because I didn't want to be treated differently,

  • or looked at differently.

  • But at the same time, I think sometimes having

  • those around you know and understand

  • can help you push through.

  • Since then, it's been good.

  • My parents have been good.

  • My brother's my only sibling;

  • he's been good as well.

  • Just having them know that there is something

  • going on with me, and that there's nothing to worry about,

  • but it is something that I deal with,

  • does take weight off your shoulders.

  • - [Interviewer] Are you nervous to share this story with us,

  • and the world, and your teammates?

  • - Yeah, a little bit.

  • It's not necessarily about telling my story.

  • It's to help that one person or those handful of people

  • that need to know they're not alone in it.

  • I love the group of guys that we have here,

  • so I'm not worried about judgment or change of action

  • from them towards me.

  • The support of individuals, teams, communities,

  • I think the stigma is going to shrink drastically,

  • or turned into opportunity where people can come

  • to fully understand what some people go through.

  • I think that's really the purpose of Hockey Talks.

  • There's people that always going through things

  • that you may not know or understand,

  • but there's always something

  • that you may be able to do to help,

  • and this is just my way of hoping that I can influence

  • someone in a positive way.

- In sports, in hockey, there's this mindset

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