That trendy, trendy train to friend town.

I am hopping on the trend of doing one of those assumptions videos or, as I like to call them, YouTubers getting super defensive about their personality for 10 minutes straight.

So by far the most common assumption I got is that I'm bi or I'm at least a little bit day.

I'd give myself like a Kinsey 1.5.

You know, I've watched a good amount of lesbian porn.

I have gone to the female side of tinder and swiped around for a little bit in high school.

I definitely doubted my sexuality Maur.

I had, like, I don't know whether it was a crush or a close friendship romantic interest of sexual interest in one of my female friends who I was close with.

I hope he's watching this.

I have touched a girl's boobs at a party like consensually, but I have not kissed a girl.

So there's where I stand a good mummy's girl, pure, if you know what I mean.

Waiting till marriage and stuff.

Weird way to phrase it, and also have you watched any of my videos you've ain't in the bathroom during class.

No, I actually just pee in the Vape room.

You think you're better than everyone Onley better than people who don't know what you're to use.

Fucking roasted.

I thought of that like, three days ago when I was so excited to say it.

You got an annoying voice question, Mark.

Maybe it's up to you.

A lot of people assume that I'm adopted.

Not that I know of.

You've gotten an ulcer because of stress.

Luckily, I have not.

But I did, like, lose my period for an entire year.

Just cause I was really stressed out.

So that was fun.

You take off your shoes before going into the house?

Yes.

Why does anybody do it differently?

You are the exact same online and in person.

And I'm flattered by this.

I tried to be, like, really close to the same person because, you know, I feel expend so much fucking time with myself.

I have to film this.

I am going to spend like, 20 hours editing this.

I'm gonna like, watch it online and read your guy's comments about it.

So I really just I just wanted to be me because I wouldn't want to spend that much time with a fake version of myself, you know, But obviously at the same time, like this is a very edited presentation of me.

I'm talking to a fucking camera right now.

I'm gonna spend, like, 20 hours ending out every stupid thing that I say and trying to make myself a little bit funny here.

I think in this industry there's a place in time for being really honest with your feelings.

Like that video that I made when I was on my period and repairing close like I was just spit balling like whatever the fuck was on my mind.

It was coming out there because I was not in the mood to pretend to do anything else.

But there were other times like my outfit 101 video.

I made that while me and David were in a pretty bad fight, and I was actually really sad that day, but I was like, You know what?

I'm gonna get up and do my job and the entertaining to these people and talk about fashion, and that's when I'm gonna put online because you guys don't want to fucking hear me crying about my relationship related to that.

I got assumptions on both sides of the spectrum, on one hand saying I act self deprecating and relatable.

But in real life I have my shit together and on the other end that I pretend like I'm really happy and confident when in real life I am super depressed and I'm a mess.

Life is messy, and I think both of those are true.

Like at times I feel so confident.

I feel like my life is fucking great.

And other times I cry myself to sleep because I don't have a clue what's fucking going on in my life.

You stop consistently going to the gym after your New Year's.

This is a little bit true, but pun intended.

I did learn the importance of exercise, so I've been doing a little butt exercises in my room, and I don't mean anal.

You hate kids.

Honestly, the maternal gene just skipped right over my fetus.

That maternal instinct that's supposed to make you turn into a pile of mush every time you look at a baby's greasy face just isn't in me.

I don't like him.

They're like little weird alien objects.

They're always sticking pot take but Bonnie's or closer to pets than they are to humans.

You know, they don't have, like, riel thoughts that they can express their Not interesting.

They're just cute.

And then they like shit on you.

If I ever do end up having kids and they watch this like I'm I'm so sorry, son.

But you're probably a dick is a baby.

So you stored cinnamon toast.

Crunch up your nostrils up.

Oh, the list.

I actually got some of the mother.

You have a lot of controversial opinions that you don't want to post online.

And yes, that is true.

People are probably gonna heatedly disagree with this in the comments, but I think there's a huge problem right now with Internet culture being PC to an excess.

People are offended on behalf of other people.

There is, like a witch hunt for taking people's words out of contact, taking humor and sarcasm out of context, and people just being so mad at other people for having opinions that are different from them.

I assume you watch a ton of porn and come by eating Cheetos with 30 fingers.

Yeah, you got me.

You're a Natal queen.

No, I've tried a buffalo, and that's it.

And it felt like a a weird cold shit sitting inside me.

Others and that have not done the but things.

You open your textbooks slash laptop to post aesthetic stories about being productive.

I wish I wish I wasn't on my laptop, like 24 7 This one.

I was so surprised How many times I got it, which is?

Your parents are rich, and you're a trust fund, baby.

My parents were both first generation immigrants, and they were both the first in our families to go to college.

So trust me, there is no trust fund going on there.

But when I was around 16 they told me that they weren't sure they'd be able to pay for all of my college.

And, like, I'm so lucky that they had even started a college fund for me, you know, and that I had assumed that they would pay for most of college.

But my education is so important to me.

So from that point on, I fuckin grinded.

I was working like 3 to 4 minimum wage jobs, probably working like 30 to 40 hours a week.

I work double shifts on the weekends.

I work after school as much as I could.

Part of the reason why I'm graduating so much earlier than I need to I'm graduating in two and 1/2 years rather than four years is also save some of that tuition money related to that.

I got so many that were like, You have a sugar daddy and I do not Okay, I make my own queen.

You know what, Freshman year in college I did kind of think about it just because it's very common in L.

A.

And a lot of my friends have, like, signed up for a service and really, it's not that bad, but I couldn't do it.

It creeps me the fuck out.

I hate playing dumb and nice and submissive Thio, guys that I hate, You know, I only play submissive to guys night like, if you know what I'm saying.

You had a glow up in college because he seemed to nice to have been pretty in high school.

I think I had a bit of a two stage blow up.

My 1st 1 was like, very early high school.

So by the end of high school, I felt pretty confident in myself that I came to college, gain the freshman 15 gloated down and then glowed back off to where I am now.

I was so ugly in middle school boat, but honestly, I don't regret it because I wasn't really conscious of it at the time.

Like nobody called me like ugly or reared to my face.

So I was just having a great time being my nerdy little self.

You always eat a lot of raw cookie dough slash cake batter.

Absolutely.

If you're not eating the raw cookie dough, then you aren't living life.

Honey, you have no friends, No, in all caps.

I I mean, that's not that's not entirely wrong.

I think my problem in part, is that I genuinely, really like spending time alone.

I love just listening to music and jamming out, watching movies, watching TV shows like editing and working on photos and stuff like that.

So I don't feel a whole lot of pressure to hang out with people just for the sake of hang out with them are no dude making friends.

And like a big college in a big city is really hard for super fucking smart, but really frustrated by school and education in general, I am incredibly fucking excited to get out of college.

Let's just say that.

Are you aware of your semi list?

When I first started watching you way back, I thought it was Loki and Wing, but now it just makes you.

Actually, I literally didn't think that I had a list, but that has David and he's like you kind of d'oh!

And now I'm here so conscious of it, You've had an eating disorder.

I haven't had an eating disorder, but freshman year in college, I think I had a pretty unhealthy relationship with food.

But it was just the first time I was exposed to, ah, buffet of glorious food that I could eat whatever I wanted, and it was a little hard.

Thio manage that.

So I started counting calories, thinking way too hard about my food options, running on a treadmill and counting how many calories I was burning.

I don't think it was necessarily disordered because I still maintained a pretty healthy weight.

It didn't really consume my life, but I just it was taking up space in my brain that I didn't need.

And that was the most unhappy I've ever been with my body also learned to talk about this because I haven't said this on my channel before.

But my older sister, who I haven't older sister, I never talk about her.

But she's had an eating disorder for, I think, coming up on eight years now.

And that really affected my uh, yeah, that was a lot of me growing up, having really stressful family dinners where my mom and my sister were going at each other.

And my sister was saying that my mom was trying to make her fat when she was about to fucking die because she was so skinny and then running up to my room as soon as dinner was done and like listening to music to drown it out and shit, which is, I don't know, depressing.

Now my sister is back in a full time eating disorder facility for the second time.

I never really talked about it in high school, but I think people knew and my friends would joke like, Oh, actually, you eat so much, but you're still pretty skinny.

You must be Billy Nick, and I think they were joking.

But it really hurt because I knew what an eating disorder was and how it affected people.

That's a lot easier now than I've been in college.

And, honestly, I have not been a great sister to her.

But I feel like I lost the sister that I used to have, because for eight years all she thought about is food and being Skippy.

And it's such bullshit.

And I realize it's so fucking ironic that my job now is like instagram the fashion YouTube.

And I never want to be part of an industry that tells you guys that you're not skinny enough or you're not good enough for the food should control your life.

If you have an eating disorder or you're struggling with your body image, please get help sooner than later because it doesn't just affect you.

It affects your family, too.

Don't know how I come back from that one, but we're gonna try to make this video funny again.

David doesn't present a compatible personality physically to you.

You don't look good together due to his style, and you settled because you want a boyfriend so badly, which is clear in your other older videos.

But you're cute together now, I guess.

First of all, dude, what the hell is a physical personality?

I have comments on my videos that say that David is not a good match because he has horrible style.

Or like I should dump him because of that.

It, like that is not an important part of what I actually care about in a partner.

You know, really, all I care is that David respects that fashion is an interest of mine.

He understands how excited I get about, like, fabrics and outfits and silhouettes.

So that's really all that matters to me.

I got a couple other wounds that were like, You're really clinging.

You're really dependent on your boyfriend.

You're always with him.

These ones did kind of hurt just because I've spent so long working on myself, and it's taking me so long to really be comfortable being single, and I'm so proud that I'm finally at that point, it always dating around.

I was looking for love.

I made some self deprecating jokes about being single, but at the end of the day, I'm so chill being single.

I had a really great time for the summer when I was single.

Now having a great time with David at the same time.

I know a lot of what you guys love about me is that I'm very independent ad do things on my own.

I always want to be like my own kick ass independent woman.

But at the same time, I don't think that should be antithetical to being in love and being in a relationship.

You have a Pinterest board about your future wedding with David.

But you haven't shown him yet.

That's not true.

First of all, I hate Pinterest.

I don't understand how to use it.

Second of all, I think the wedding industry is so overblown in the United States.

Like Okay, Yes.

I love fashion.

I love interior design.

I love event planning.

That would be super cool.

At the same time, I'm not gonna drop like 30 40 k on a wedding.

I think that's absurd.

And that should not be an expectation for anyone.