But I think I thinkwhenyouwritesadsongs, youcangain a lotfromthem.
I don't thinkyouknowsometimesthatit's just a simpleisthenbeing a goodoutlettokindofgetsomethingout.
Um, andit's nicesometimestokindofwrap a feelingupin, like, a littlethreeand 1/2 minutepackage.
Anditdoesn't meanthatyouhavetokindofwallowinit.
Couldbelike, Okay.
Andthenyougainsomethingfromit.
Youknow, youget a songfromitandyoucanturnanexperiencethatisn't necessarilythatpositiveinto a positiveone, andyoucanlearnfromit.
And, um, I thinkthat's kindofwhat's excitingaboutmusic, youknow, justsimplyprocessing.
Yeah, hardthings.
Yeah, andyeah, it's almosttherapeutic.
In a way.
Yeah, Yeah, I feellikeit's a, umit's difficulttobeashonestwithanypersonasyoucanbelikewithaninstrumentifyoujust, youknow, sittingandrunningwith a guitarorpianoorsomething.
And, um, it's a goodtimes, evenifitdoesn't endupbeingthesong.
Um, so, yeah, I definitelyfindwritinglikeincrediblytherapeuticyou.
Heremindsmesometimes I gotoesometimes I gotofavorite B, and I feellikeall I didwastalk, right?
I didn't hearanythingback, right.
And I realizedthatthatisthepoint, thatitself a beautifulthing.
Youknow, I reallydiditfeelDiditfeeldifferentthanmakingthe 1st 1 thefirstsaloon?
Yeah, itfeltverydifferent.
Um, thebloodpressurefelt I'd say, Yeah, I thinklesspressure, butmore, more.
Justthat I putlesspressureonmyself.
I think, um, I feltlike, um I mean, firstofall, itwasmuchlonger.
Um, anditwas a lotmorefrustrating, anditwasprobablymoredifficultoverall, Um, first, I think, uh, the 2nd 1 ofthewayintermsoftheactual, likefinishingitandeverything.
But I think I thinkeachmoment, whenwhenyougettothosethingswhereyouknow, you'remakingsomethingthatyoureallycareabout.
Umand I'd beItscaredme a bitif I kindofmadeithappenwaslike, Oh, thisisreallyeasyAndyouknow, I'm sohappywitheverythingallofthetime.
There's noquestionstobeaskedaboutanything.
I wouldn't trustit, right?
Exactly.
So I'd saythemaindifferencewas I thinkwhen I listenedbacktothefirstalbumnowandwhen I thinkbacktomakingitwas I think I worried a lotjustaboutgettingitwrong.
I thinkwhen I listento, I canhearplaceswhere I wastryingreallyhardnottogetitwrong.
Anditfeels a littlelikeplayingitsafe a littlebit.
Whatisgettingitwrong?
Me, I don't know.
I mean, I thinkthat's oneofthethingsthat I putverymuchonmyselfbecause, youknow, thisisn't doesnotreally a rightand a wronginmusic, andthat's what's excitingaboutit.
I guessratherthanokay, we'vegot, like, thesinglethat's gonnabeplayedandwield a videoforthisone.
Andnowwe, like, fillinthegaps, helpedeverybodylikesit, and, um I mean, that's reallyniceforMayand I'm lucky, youknowthat I workwithpeoplewhoallowmetodothat.
Onethingthatwasonmymindwhen I waslisteningtotherecordregardingallthisAndofcourse, yourpastandyouryourhistoryisitwasonmymindwhile I waslisteningtoitand I wasreadingaboutyou.
Youknow, when I wasgettingreadytotalktoyouand I readthistheRollingStonearticleaboutyou, whichwaslovelyandoneofthethingsthatsaidwasitquotedthisDavidBowiething, youknow, neverplayedtothegallery.
I trackeddownthecliffand I watcheditlastnight, andit's good, Yeah, andit's somethinghesayslater.
Thatreallyactuallystoppedwithme, and I wroteitdownhere.
Hesaid, I thinkit's terriblydangerousforanartisttofulfillotherpeople's expectations.
Howhaveyoufound?
Um I think I mean, I thinkit's sotrue.
I thinkyou'reyou'rejust I mean, I I wish I couldjustsaythatthewholeclipquoteandpretenditwasmyown.
I thinkso.
Perfect.
Youcan.
I thinkyou'd getaway.
It's, um I justthinklikeifyou'refirstofall, ififyou'regonnamakesomethingthatyoudon't like, Ifyou'rejusttryingpolicepeoplethan I thinktheworstthingthatcanhappenisitdoesn't gowell.
And I thinkthatwas a part, a littlebitofthisstuff.
Thisalbumwherebecausethefirst, thefirstalbum, wasn't necessarily a radiorecord.
Itwaspartofmewhere I feltlike a littlebitofpressure.
I wantedtomakelike, a bigalbum, and I wantedittobe, youknow, successfulandorderedittowork.
And, um, I think I was I wastryingtodothatfor, youknow, a coupleweeks, and, uh, I wasn't reallyhappywithanyofthemusic I wasmaking.
Itwaslikegettingclosesometimes, Butitjustfeltlike I wastryingtoforceit, anditkindoffeltlike, Oh, yeah, thissong, youknow, therewas a couplesongsthatwasoneinparticular.
Itwaslike a bigturningpointtomake.
Wewrotethissongandeveryone's reallyexcitedabout, anditwaslike, Thisfeelslike a reallybigsong.
Andthen I cametoplayittosomeone, and I waslike, cringingaboutplayingitsomeone, and I waslike, That's nothowyou'resupposedtofeel.
We're a goodsignforyourmusictopeople.
Um, andthenmyfriendTyler, who I workwith, I justsaid, Youknow, weweretalkingaboutthesealbumsthat I wantedtomakeinthefutureandwhattheywouldsoundlike, andandhejustsaid, Youjusthavetomakethealbumthatyouwanttomakerightnow, andthatwas a bigturningpointand I endedupmakingthealbum I wantedtomakewhen, whenitjustwasn't abouttryingtomakewhatpeoplelike.
And I thinkyoucanmake a badsongandyoucouldmake a badalbum.
Um, so I'vejust I justlook, I canonlyspeakfrompersonalexperienceand I canlookitsongsandbelike I'vealways I'vealwaysmademyworstmusicwhen I'm tryingthehardestknowandwhenitlookfeels a littlebittooeasyandfeels a bitsafe.
Andandit's justlike, Oh, yeah, thisiswhatpeoplewantand I writeand I justdon't likeitandjustusuallydon't likeit.
Ifyouknowonbits, knowaboutyouknow, I don't meantobelike, Oh, I wanttomakestuffthatlikeit's soconfusingand, youknowit's just a I justonlyreallyknow.
I think a lotofthetimewhenpeoplearemakingmusicortheyworkinmusictheythinkthateveryonewhoworkedinmusickindofoperateonthis, like, higherleveloflisteningtofans.
And, youknow, sometimespeoplesaylike, Oh, I don't knowifpeoplearegonnagetitAnd I don't knowifpeopleunderstanditandand I thinkultimately, likeeveryonewhoworksatmusic, itjustfans.
I cometodefendofmusic, getstomakesome, so I kindoftryandmakeitfromthatperspective, tryandwritemusicas a fanofmusicand, umandthat's kindof I justdon't reallyknowhowtodoit.
I guess I think I thinkthey'regonnaThey'regonnatakemeoutwith a laserif I don't stopsoon.
Um, I'd say I'd saythisalbumis, uhwillbe a timeofmylifethat I willlookbackon, Um, as I quite a pivotalmomentformepersonally, I thinkprobablyforever.
Um, I think, like I justwentthrough, like, a bigmomentofselfreflection.
I partlymaybedidn't havetimetoedoproperlybeforeandkindofaccepting a lotofthingswell, butitwasbusy, right?
Becauseyouwereinthebay.
Yeah, andthenyou'reoutoftheband.
Anditwasjustlike, a lotofstuff.
Kindofaftereachother.
AndAnd I thinkwiththisoneaftertouringwiththefirstalbum, um, I justfeltverylike, acceptedbythecrowdand, youknow, I thinkwhenyou'redoingshowsandstuffispartoftheband, Um, peoplehavecomeevenwithshellsthatpeoplehavecometosee a bandanditneverheneverreallyfeelslikethey'rethereforyoubecausethey'renotthattoseeAbend.
So I thinkwhen I wentoutandstarteddoingshowsonmyown, I waskindofjustamazedthepeoplewerecomingtoseemeAnd, um, thatfeltlike, Oh, I justneedto d'ohBut I wanttodoAndtheywanttoseemebemyselfandandyoumustdosomethingtoyouYeah, andit's It's likeit's reallyamazingconnection.
It's like a specialthingthatyousharewiththepeoplewhocomeeverynightbecauseit's ah, youknow, it's kindofoneofthosethings, likewhenyouactuallythinkaboutwhatcomingto a showmeansandyouthinkaboutwhatitmeanswhen I goto a showthatyouyougettheticketandyougoon, youhavetoparkandallyouhavetotakethetrainandthenyouhavetogoandthenyouhavetogethomeand, baby, yeah, it's likeit's a lotofthingslikeitmeans a lotforpeopletokindoftake a nightouttogotogotoshow.
And, umandthat's like, amazing.
Andit's thebiggest, uh, compliment.
I thinksomeonecompayyouisisgoingto a shelteryou'replaying.