a few of the little books and I honestly had a moment where I just like went into

the bathroom and it cried a little bit because I just like felt so

uncomfortable in my own skin good morning till they so this weekly

vlog starts with the Tuesday because yesterday I decided to take the day of

filming except they did film a video for you guys but I decided not to vlog so I

can focus on getting everything done I'm trying to take it a day at a time

there's so much going on before the holidays we finally booked our little

family getaway which I'm super excited about so the countdown is on we are

leaving to Mexico in January with the kids and baby max who's gonna be three

months old that's so crazy today we are going to shoot the holiday lookbook I'm

really excited about that one last year when we shot the holiday lookbook it was

just MI and I and actually I got Jeff from Instagram because I posted a stern

Instagram that I needed an assistant for that day and she volunteered so she

actually worked with us that day and today it's been a year and she's a

full-time valaria ink team member so that's really exciting I feel like we're

gonna have a little celebration today that's it I'm really looking forward to

showing you guys the look I put together for the holiday lookbook it's gonna be

fun it's gonna be lots of sparkles and fake snow

hopefully I requested fix now

shooting the holiday lookbook this is what the behind-the-scenes disaster

looks like most important problem of the day

it should be like but I please everybody why here it's fine it's looking at me

we're done

what's your dance I can do one are you hating your lives thinking about no I

like dancing just come here to the beat

like you know how did it which I do thank you

next thank you next mom you guys look so pretty and jealous like this

I feel pretty hey I was so pretty that's confidence my friends yeah that

was seven just about a few girls that I met rested at the mall was shopping for

the holiday log book she's like do you feel the pressure to always look put

together when you're going out because there was one youtuber that was like

saying how would really affected her emotionally and mentally and I was like

if you watched my blogs do you see what's happening

no no shame I am Who I am either love me or love me don't hate me just love me

excuse me

hey at least someone loves me why don't you hug me today only your name where is

my little baby what you guys doing you're watching the dancing again excuse

me excuse me why didn't you ask before you turned it on

well rock star when are you gonna dance like this I know I did dance like that

really oh wow another that's like that do I know how

to dance like that no with something have a good day and

now haha now I love you so much tomorrow is gonna go a woman and it's going to be

very good and catch is gonna come and she's gonna do the Christmas tree and

then we're gonna have a Christmas tree so hey go good and bye I'm the dad our

cold hi guys

okay I haven't really blocked so much this week and I thought I'm gonna start

really going at it today but I went to sleep last night with a sore throat and

now I feel like this flu is coming over me I think that my body is screaming for

rest so I'm gonna push through this week and I'm gonna rest on the weekend

because I have some immediate things that needs to be done and this here it's

real bad we had an interesting meeting this morning and now I'm just on my way

I stopped by the house we're getting the house decorated which I'm so excited

about and the boys will be super happy and I just had to feed Maximus and now

we're on our way

made a chemist I'll let you guys figure out what we're up to

we're just trying to bring a few of long time dreams to life so we'll see

about that and I'm gonna pick up against

it's me to go on the conference call with Jeff so I hate that I can't share a

lot with you guys I just feel like to get this thing sorted out before I put

it out there into the world I know it's annoying I'm being annoying sorry but

I'm so excited for you to see what we've been working on for a while now

and obviously everything happening at the same time like giving birth and

having a newborn and developing all these things and still creating content

and stuff fun but I'm super grateful that I'm in this position don't get me

wrong and I'm not complaining just need a little nap for a few days

okay it's cold when we got the house decorated we got Kate from Caprice

design to come in because if I had to wait for me to do this it will never

happen look how pretty she is

these are the socks thing from last year we have to add one more Max's loving is

life right now with all these lights Maxie you see so we are Jewish we are

celebrating Hanukkah but I grew up in a Russian home where we also celebrated

Nova God which is a little bit different than like Christmas per se like it's not

so religious it's more like celebrating like the new year in a way so I was grew

up with the tree and stuff in my house I think it's such a fun tradition to be

part of and I'm enjoying celebrating it and last year the kids like loved having

a tree so we decided to do it this year as well huge you can shoot all the

lights from do you see them to show this beautiful light

Oh Maxie is this gonna be our new hobby now that Christmas jeans very silly wise

itself because it's very then you take off your shoes take off your shoes take

off your shoes we're getting to a point where it's already unacceptable today

I'm spending a full day on a panel with the big skincare company where they're

basically invited me to do brainstorming about their products and a new launches

the way they do social media things like that so I'm excited to get more insight

about what's coming up you know for the skincare world like what new staff

everyone's working on and that's it going for a very clean look today and

I'm trying to figure out if I should wear the sparkly booties or the suede

booties I wish you guys could help me we're gonna figure it out I'm there from

I think like 8 a.m. is my pickup time until about 4 p.m. so it's gonna be a

whole day thing and then I'm coming home I'm going back to bed because

came emailing us about her elementary school did major throw back wanna spread

okay we have a little break it's been really really cool to be part of this

panel we're still not done but it's basically just basically talking about

different launches but different skincare products because we're so in

tune with their audience what are we kind of prefer in skincare

so it's a lot of kind of getting into y-axis consumers one part of the skin

care products so been really informative and really fun and I'm in the bathroom

right now which is always such a great setting to talk about things you know

okay and I'm gonna go back now also I forgot my breast pump and my dear

husband the love of my life I texted him and told him that I forgot it so he

arranged someone to go and pick it up and bring it to me he's like my hero in

life I love you a little break for today to pump Kimmy how many times have you

seen my boobs already since I started working yeah my nipples are everyone's

best men down for today now we have to walk the streets the

snowy streets but all of this all the stuff that's the

most important one at least it's not Isis No

we can do that yeah my soy boots are gonna have time of their life first of

all hi ladies you're looking beautiful glowing beautiful angels this is really

creepy inspiration of what what is he doing in this photo - he does not always

that's not like a cool smart right this is so creepy

I'm so scared hi beauty hi beauty BAM

why is there random photos of our children spread all over this like n in

their costumes not just what is this that's my son

what is going on - we have to move them oh my god you might be proud father of

the year what what we'll have to take them out why these are so they're so

creepy this is where I sit what do you care what I do you know what it's not

like I've pictures of like girls whose name is on the wall

I'm joking or it is when you have a perfect husband you have to find stuff

to complain about so you're complaining about the fact

that I have too many pictures of the kids I love you so much Gary please take

out these creepy photos of the children you should thank you for all that

chocolate yeah can we hide these oh no this is our daddy's dog - like John and

I finished last week Wow I've made me put them in the other room great I feel

like there should be a series Gary carrying stuff good husband you like my

government fine we just came anyway we were sending the

boys to swimming and Jake is like I don't want to I was like fast the

government the government have no idea we don't say I'm just I get out we have

a fine from the government just made that up and it just sounded like used

made the government sounds very significant Furman don't get the

government to kiss what are you eating with dinner

popcorn is there new this is us you might be huh how much time do we have we

have an hour mm-hmm let's watch time think there's some

disco okay guys I literally healed myself and one day as I was getting

really sick like you know when your body starts being weak and shaky and weird so

I'm gonna show you what I used first of all oh where is it oh okay

so a king a king niqua like in Babar I said a Tanisha like amnesia there's this

akinesia force it's cold and flu and this one is the tincture but I usually

buy the syrup where basically you add it to hot water it is amazing and you don't

need to add any sweeteners or anything it's not better which is great next

thing that I did was this this is bomb cold storm it's basically

like garlic so instead of eating raw garlic

this is like an extract garlic it is in the flavor of architecture II which is

complete like it's complete bullshit because it tastes disgusting its garlic

and your breath smells but I take it about two to three times a day one

milligram and it's amazing so I was overdosing on all of that yesterday and

then the vitamin C tablets I would just kind of put in water and drink a lot of

water to make sure I'm hydrated and then last but not least because it everything

started from my throat I was drinking tea not too hot because that irritates

my throat just the kind of room temperature to warm

and then I was literally eating like spoonful of raw honey and then the last

thing that I was doing is throat spray that has zinc in it I swear by zinc

space when you have sore throat that's really helps but I don't know where it

is and this honey loves and gifts lasagnas whatever it is but the spray

I've actually like gave I remember one to Emma

every time I have a sore throat anything with zinc will help you anyways

zinc spray that's it it's all I did look at me now what are you doing Oh check

this out I wear this t-shirt look at this this is like the best thing in the

history of life are you kidding me I found these online but how is Missy

not getting squished here he's fine I mean that is so funny this is the

ultimate that dead body

yeah I mean it's not very supportive for the baby he's fine he's good I can flip

them around the other way no that's weird I don't think he likes

it I think he's he's looking for a boobie okay what else will they put in

here try to put been here maybe we've got to put him headfirst maybe that's

what I need to do yeah Wow let's not do that he outgrew

ready to Swansea time to eat boo-boo so how do you love the tree you do

Wow what are you doing with your cuba shirt

let's go light the Chanukah candles guys

no not all of them today's day six Benny

no that's not even recycle pensive are you gonna let me know now okay Mama's

gonna put the shamash on and then jakey is gonna put this one I won't be

ha ha ha key channel fiction limits Motel let's run a lovely Chanukah okay

okay good job and then tomorrow this this and this enough in when Tom and I

went down have some mail baby sleeping I wanted to talk to you guys a little bit

about this thing that happened this week when we were shooting the lookbook I

feel like I'm still getting kind of hit with moments of post partum where you

know I still don't feel like myself I'm still not kind of back to feeling like

me and that's pretty normal I think that my hormones are still all

over the place physically I'm still healing trying to figure it out

obviously the kind of lack of sleep and stuff doesn't really help but I am kind

of excited to start getting slowly back into myself you forget how that's like

misplaced feeling that you feel after you give birth we were shooting a few of

the log books and I honestly had a moment where I just like went into the

bathroom and it cried a little bit because I just like felt so